Re: Bad thing

January 19, 2012

Oh Ellie- I HEAR you! It is so difficult to fight the diet demon when you have

not yet made peace with who you are, now, in this moment. Do the numbers you

are obsessing over this minutequickly? No! I struggle with the same panicky

feelings of wanting to turn somewhere for a quick solution. But urning to a

diet plan is like a smoker turning to a cigarette- it is the most comfortable

coping mechanism we know. It doesn't work. I really encourage you to read the

IE book. I cried in the first 30 pages because it resonated to deeply with me.

>

> I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.

>

> This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

>

> I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate

wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

overeating.

>

> I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing

something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not?

Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants

cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge

on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

>

> Maybe I should read the IE book after all.

>

> Ellie

>

January 19, 2012

Oh Ellie- I HEAR you! It is so difficult to fight the diet demon when you have

not yet made peace with who you are, now, in this moment. Do the numbers you

are obsessing over this minutequickly? No! I struggle with the same panicky

feelings of wanting to turn somewhere for a quick solution. But urning to a

diet plan is like a smoker turning to a cigarette- it is the most comfortable

coping mechanism we know. It doesn't work. I really encourage you to read the

IE book. I cried in the first 30 pages because it resonated to deeply with me.

>

> I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.

>

> This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

>

> I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate

wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

overeating.

>

> I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing

something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not?

Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants

cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge

on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

>

> Maybe I should read the IE book after all.

>

> Ellie

>

January 19, 2012

Oh Ellie- I HEAR you! It is so difficult to fight the diet demon when you have

not yet made peace with who you are, now, in this moment. Do the numbers you

are obsessing over this minutequickly? No! I struggle with the same panicky

feelings of wanting to turn somewhere for a quick solution. But urning to a

diet plan is like a smoker turning to a cigarette- it is the most comfortable

coping mechanism we know. It doesn't work. I really encourage you to read the

IE book. I cried in the first 30 pages because it resonated to deeply with me.

>

> I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.

>

> This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

>

> I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate

wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

overeating.

>

> I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing

something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not?

Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants

cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge

on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

>

> Maybe I should read the IE book after all.

>

> Ellie

>

January 19, 2012

Ellie, the book is really good and helpful as are many of the others that are listed on the sight. Be gentle with yourself. IE is a journey and doesn't happen overnight. Awareness is the first step and learning to trust your body is very difficult after many years of dieting. It must be very difficult too with your husband on WW and your mother wanting cookies. I got rid of my scales, but I live alone and I don't have to bring into the house anything I tend to binge on. Just remember Diets Don't Work. Maybe use that as your mantra for a while. Keep in touch. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting " points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, the book is really good and helpful as are many of the others that are listed on the sight. Be gentle with yourself. IE is a journey and doesn't happen overnight. Awareness is the first step and learning to trust your body is very difficult after many years of dieting. It must be very difficult too with your husband on WW and your mother wanting cookies. I got rid of my scales, but I live alone and I don't have to bring into the house anything I tend to binge on. Just remember Diets Don't Work. Maybe use that as your mantra for a while. Keep in touch. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting " points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, the book is really good and helpful as are many of the others that are listed on the sight. Be gentle with yourself. IE is a journey and doesn't happen overnight. Awareness is the first step and learning to trust your body is very difficult after many years of dieting. It must be very difficult too with your husband on WW and your mother wanting cookies. I got rid of my scales, but I live alone and I don't have to bring into the house anything I tend to binge on. Just remember Diets Don't Work. Maybe use that as your mantra for a while. Keep in touch. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting " points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, I also wanted to say be careful how you label things as " good " or " bad " . Just try to notice without judgement as you continue on your IE journey. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting " points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, I also wanted to say be careful how you label things as " good " or " bad " . Just try to notice without judgement as you continue on your IE journey. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting " points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, I also wanted to say be careful how you label things as " good " or " bad " . Just try to notice without judgement as you continue on your IE journey. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting " points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Thank you, ladies! I'll stop at the library this morning and look for the book, after my physical therapy appointment. I've injured my Achilles tendon. This is bad news as an injured AT can interfere badly with what I do and set me back for months. Yesterday as I limped around I ate a handful of cookies about every time I went through the kitchen (started with "One won't hurt anything.....)Ellie To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Thursday, January 19, 2012 9:56 AM Subject: Re: Bad thing

Ellie, I also wanted to say be careful how you label things as "good" or "bad". Just try to notice without judgement as you continue on your IE journey. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, "He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him...." Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting "points" as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Thank you, ladies! I'll stop at the library this morning and look for the book, after my physical therapy appointment. I've injured my Achilles tendon. This is bad news as an injured AT can interfere badly with what I do and set me back for months. Yesterday as I limped around I ate a handful of cookies about every time I went through the kitchen (started with "One won't hurt anything.....)Ellie To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Thursday, January 19, 2012 9:56 AM Subject: Re: Bad thing

Ellie, I also wanted to say be careful how you label things as "good" or "bad". Just try to notice without judgement as you continue on your IE journey. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, "He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him...." Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting "points" as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Thank you, ladies! I'll stop at the library this morning and look for the book, after my physical therapy appointment. I've injured my Achilles tendon. This is bad news as an injured AT can interfere badly with what I do and set me back for months. Yesterday as I limped around I ate a handful of cookies about every time I went through the kitchen (started with "One won't hurt anything.....)Ellie To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Thursday, January 19, 2012 9:56 AM Subject: Re: Bad thing

Ellie, I also wanted to say be careful how you label things as "good" or "bad". Just try to notice without judgement as you continue on your IE journey. Sandy

I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, "He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him...." Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting "points" as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, it seems like others have replied with excellent feedback so I'll just

add my 2 cents to the options for you.

I agree that labels can be misleading and hurtful. I don't think you did a 'bad'

thing but an unproductive or step 'back' in your IE journey. It helped me to

think of moving along my IE trail as a 'dance' at times - 2 steps forward, 1

back, 2 to a side and forward again ;-) Testing out what works and doesn't - for

YOU - is very much a part of an IE journey.

Before IE I weighed myself every week, took my blood pressure and kept that on a

'health' chart. Knowing what those readings were did NOT make me 'healthy' - or

not - only made me look at my life IN REVERSE. I came to realize that those

numbers turned me judgmental on myself so I stopped keeping a chart. Am I less

healthy because of that? I don't think so. In fact I had better annual tests

last year than for all the years that I kept charts.

I wish your husband well with his WW way. It may very well be what he needs. I

also hope that this post gets to you before you go to the library so that you

can have a chance to print the Book List that is here at this site (in Files) to

take to the library where you can browse thru as many books as you like to find

which 'clicks' with you.

BEST to you and GOOD job that you posted about this. Not only does this help

you, I also get wonderfully reminded of IE too.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.

>

> This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

>

> I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate

wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

overeating.

>

> I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing

something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not?

Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants

cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge

on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

>

> Maybe I should read the IE book after all.

>

> Ellie

>

January 19, 2012

Ellie, it seems like others have replied with excellent feedback so I'll just

add my 2 cents to the options for you.

I agree that labels can be misleading and hurtful. I don't think you did a 'bad'

thing but an unproductive or step 'back' in your IE journey. It helped me to

think of moving along my IE trail as a 'dance' at times - 2 steps forward, 1

back, 2 to a side and forward again ;-) Testing out what works and doesn't - for

YOU - is very much a part of an IE journey.

Before IE I weighed myself every week, took my blood pressure and kept that on a

'health' chart. Knowing what those readings were did NOT make me 'healthy' - or

not - only made me look at my life IN REVERSE. I came to realize that those

numbers turned me judgmental on myself so I stopped keeping a chart. Am I less

healthy because of that? I don't think so. In fact I had better annual tests

last year than for all the years that I kept charts.

I wish your husband well with his WW way. It may very well be what he needs. I

also hope that this post gets to you before you go to the library so that you

can have a chance to print the Book List that is here at this site (in Files) to

take to the library where you can browse thru as many books as you like to find

which 'clicks' with you.

BEST to you and GOOD job that you posted about this. Not only does this help

you, I also get wonderfully reminded of IE too.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.

>

> This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

>

> I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate

wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

overeating.

>

> I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing

something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not?

Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants

cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge

on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

>

> Maybe I should read the IE book after all.

>

> Ellie

>

January 19, 2012

Ellie, it seems like others have replied with excellent feedback so I'll just

add my 2 cents to the options for you.

I agree that labels can be misleading and hurtful. I don't think you did a 'bad'

thing but an unproductive or step 'back' in your IE journey. It helped me to

think of moving along my IE trail as a 'dance' at times - 2 steps forward, 1

back, 2 to a side and forward again ;-) Testing out what works and doesn't - for

YOU - is very much a part of an IE journey.

Before IE I weighed myself every week, took my blood pressure and kept that on a

'health' chart. Knowing what those readings were did NOT make me 'healthy' - or

not - only made me look at my life IN REVERSE. I came to realize that those

numbers turned me judgmental on myself so I stopped keeping a chart. Am I less

healthy because of that? I don't think so. In fact I had better annual tests

last year than for all the years that I kept charts.

I wish your husband well with his WW way. It may very well be what he needs. I

also hope that this post gets to you before you go to the library so that you

can have a chance to print the Book List that is here at this site (in Files) to

take to the library where you can browse thru as many books as you like to find

which 'clicks' with you.

BEST to you and GOOD job that you posted about this. Not only does this help

you, I also get wonderfully reminded of IE too.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> I did the bad thing this morning..... stepped on the scale.

>

> This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

>

> I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate

wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

overeating.

>

> I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing

something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not?

Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants

cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge

on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

>

> Maybe I should read the IE book after all.

>

> Ellie

>

January 19, 2012

Ellie, I know just how you feel about wondering if you should go on another weight loss program. I've recently come off of counting calories and back to IE, but I can't seem to get myself under control either, where chocolate is concerned. Not only chocolate, but also high carb foods and I can feel my jeans getting tighter each day. I donated my "larger" jeans to a thrift store a couple of weeks ago, and I told my husband yesterday that I am now starting to have regrets about it, because my jeans are very snug now. I understand that initially I may gain a little weight with giving myself this "freedom" of no restrictions, but being out of control with certain foods is making me so nervous. I don't want to restrict anything, but having these things around is seeming impossible to avoid overdoing on.

I gave my calorie counter book away recently, because like you, adding the numbers constantly drove me crazy and feeling so restricted really had me going on outrageous binges. But after stopping with the counting cals, I'm tending to overeat anyway, though I wouldn't call it true "binges", still I'm eating more than I should. The idea to start counting calories again has been strong the past couple of days, but I know the binges will start again, should I do that, the only thing preventing me from it. I could use some advice from others who have been in the same boat. How to we handle legalizing all foods, and yet not let those foods we crave so much overtake us? Ann

This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, "He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him...." Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting "points" as well.

Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, I know just how you feel about wondering if you should go on another weight loss program. I've recently come off of counting calories and back to IE, but I can't seem to get myself under control either, where chocolate is concerned. Not only chocolate, but also high carb foods and I can feel my jeans getting tighter each day. I donated my "larger" jeans to a thrift store a couple of weeks ago, and I told my husband yesterday that I am now starting to have regrets about it, because my jeans are very snug now. I understand that initially I may gain a little weight with giving myself this "freedom" of no restrictions, but being out of control with certain foods is making me so nervous. I don't want to restrict anything, but having these things around is seeming impossible to avoid overdoing on.

I gave my calorie counter book away recently, because like you, adding the numbers constantly drove me crazy and feeling so restricted really had me going on outrageous binges. But after stopping with the counting cals, I'm tending to overeat anyway, though I wouldn't call it true "binges", still I'm eating more than I should. The idea to start counting calories again has been strong the past couple of days, but I know the binges will start again, should I do that, the only thing preventing me from it. I could use some advice from others who have been in the same boat. How to we handle legalizing all foods, and yet not let those foods we crave so much overtake us? Ann

This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, "He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him...." Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting "points" as well.

Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

Ellie, I know just how you feel about wondering if you should go on another weight loss program. I've recently come off of counting calories and back to IE, but I can't seem to get myself under control either, where chocolate is concerned. Not only chocolate, but also high carb foods and I can feel my jeans getting tighter each day. I donated my "larger" jeans to a thrift store a couple of weeks ago, and I told my husband yesterday that I am now starting to have regrets about it, because my jeans are very snug now. I understand that initially I may gain a little weight with giving myself this "freedom" of no restrictions, but being out of control with certain foods is making me so nervous. I don't want to restrict anything, but having these things around is seeming impossible to avoid overdoing on.

I gave my calorie counter book away recently, because like you, adding the numbers constantly drove me crazy and feeling so restricted really had me going on outrageous binges. But after stopping with the counting cals, I'm tending to overeat anyway, though I wouldn't call it true "binges", still I'm eating more than I should. The idea to start counting calories again has been strong the past couple of days, but I know the binges will start again, should I do that, the only thing preventing me from it. I could use some advice from others who have been in the same boat. How to we handle legalizing all foods, and yet not let those foods we crave so much overtake us? Ann

This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online. So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, "He's going to be following WW, maybe I should do it with him...." Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting "points" as well.

Numbers drive me crazy.

I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or overeating. I just asked myself:

Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them all.

Maybe I should read the IE book after all. Ellie

January 19, 2012

It was an AT tendon injury that made me stop running finally, which has also

probably contributed to my continued weight gain (but I have NOT stepped on the

scale to find out). After three months of not running (but walking regularly),

I think I am ready to start again, but I am going to start very very very

slowly, because I don't want to trash my heels again.

As far as the cookies go, I have been finding that actually having them in the

house has really decreased my interest in them. But they have to be really

really good ones. I started baking again in the name of making peace with food,

and a ally interesting side benefit is that besides descreasing my interest in

the food I am making available, I have also become far less interested in other

foods I had previously labelled as " bad " . I had had a similar problem with corn

chips, which my boys like to have around for making nachos or eating with bean

dip that they make themselves, or guacamole, but every time I would go through

the kitchen, I would have a handful, just like you say. Well, I don't do that

anymore, not because I have told myself that I shouldn't, which I was always

doing before, but because it doesn't occur to me. Or if it does, I can ask

myself if I really want them, and I usually don't. I have also had Hershey's

kisses, and butterscotch chips, and even homemade cookies around, and it is ally

really nice to have one as a treat, but if I am hungry, then no, I don't want

anything like that.

Good luck with the heel!

Tilley

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> >>This came about because my husband told me last night he's joined WW online.

So I thought.... how much *do* I weigh, anyway? I'm only 2 pounds over my

wake-up call number but I'm having thoughts of, " He's going to be following WW,

maybe I should do it with him.... " Two pounds over my wake-up call is 12 pounds

over the weight I like and 17 pounds over my best athletic weight. See???? I'm

counting, I'm obsessing on numbers. The last thing I need is to be counting

" points " as well. Numbers drive me crazy.

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> >>I don't believe in restriction but I do not yet trust myself to let my

innate wisdom take the lead; it's been suppressed so long by either diets or

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> >>I just asked myself: Do I *want* to overeat? No, I don't. Well, why am I

doing something I really don't want to do, when I have the choice to do it or

not? Mostly it's the darn cookies. We live with my mother, who's 90, and she

wants cookies. I'm not telling a 90-yr-old she can't have cookies just because I

binge on them. She doesn't even eat that many. They disappear because I eat them

all.

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January 19, 2012