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> Sorry you had a bad day. It is good that you and

> your

> husband can switch off.That must have been hard to

> see

> him so upset! It is so difficult when your child is

> asking for reassurance and you can't give it.Hope he

> can get past this and be dry! I know that others on

> this list will have wisdom on this. The dog

> walking/playgound sounds like a good outing gone

> bad!

> There have been many times that I have had to

> compromise myself on an outing. Could your son and

> his

> friend walked the dogs with you? I have taken some

> good parenting classes lately. One was offered in

> this

> area by Catholic Community Services. It was

> parenting

> the Impulsive/ADHD child. Even though my child

> doesn't

> have ADHD, the class gave me ways to deal with a

> challenging child. I also took a conflict resolution

> (anger management) class. It helped me see the

> patterns of anger in our son and everyone in our

> family! I got great tools to use to help me cope.

> When

> I am frustrated I get my anger buttons triggerd.

> This

> has really helped me to cope. The one thing that

> most

> OCD explosions DONT need is me in a frustrated

> state!

> I also liked the 1,2,3, Magic approach to parenting.

> Look for that title in the stores or library. Good

> luck with your guy he sounds like a great kid.

> Vivian in wa. st.

>

>

>

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Karma, My outlook wxpress crashed about 2 months ago, i

have not been able to get it back. I think i need to

reload my internet explorer to get it fixed right. But A

T and T keeps sending me the wrong thing. Cheryl

[Guest guest]

Thanks Kayte. Yes when he wants to jared can have alot of empathy.

He knows when i am upset but can't seem to relate it to a reason or

an event like his behavior. like somewhere in between linking to

action and result his brain misfires:( he can be such a sweetheart

and very concerned for people and yet will turn around and attempt to

hurt someone for no reason. its very hard at times. maybe someday

there will be more answers.

How are you and how are you coping with new dx? the offer to chat is

still open if you need to. please take care:)

MARIE

> Marie, so sorry you've had such a rough day. I was touched to read

that

> wiped away your tears, I think it's wonderful that he showed

such

> empathy for you. Hope you get a good night's sleep.

> Kayte

[Guest guest]

Tina,

First of all know that you are NOT alone in your bad day! Second of all GET

SOMETHING TO EAT! I know that when things seem bleak it is very easy to get

yourself off track, but take a deep breath, and know in your heart that

everything works out the way that it is supposed to.

I know how frustrating it can be when things dont go the way that you think

that they should... In 1993 I got my masters in Elementary Education, with a

4.0, aced all of the national teaching exams, was teaching for a year and

BOOM, I got laid off. No problem (I though) I will have no problem finding

another job... until every interview I went on had 500 (I am NOT kidding)

applications for that one position... I cried for days wondering " Why God,

why is this happening to me... this is all that I want to do! " Well two

months later (still no teaching job mind you) I had my reason. My mother

needed back surgery, and she needed my help in the company. That was almost 6

years ago now and I have never been happier!

Have faith that this happened for a reason .... and take extra good care of

yourself right now

God answers all prayers. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes the answer is

no, and sometimes the answer is not now....

Hang in there and keep smiling!

Andra

[Guest guest]

Tina,

First of all know that you are NOT alone in your bad day! Second of all GET

SOMETHING TO EAT! I know that when things seem bleak it is very easy to get

yourself off track, but take a deep breath, and know in your heart that

everything works out the way that it is supposed to.

I know how frustrating it can be when things dont go the way that you think

that they should... In 1993 I got my masters in Elementary Education, with a

4.0, aced all of the national teaching exams, was teaching for a year and

BOOM, I got laid off. No problem (I though) I will have no problem finding

another job... until every interview I went on had 500 (I am NOT kidding)

applications for that one position... I cried for days wondering " Why God,

why is this happening to me... this is all that I want to do! " Well two

months later (still no teaching job mind you) I had my reason. My mother

needed back surgery, and she needed my help in the company. That was almost 6

years ago now and I have never been happier!

Have faith that this happened for a reason .... and take extra good care of

yourself right now

God answers all prayers. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes the answer is

no, and sometimes the answer is not now....

Hang in there and keep smiling!

Andra

[Guest guest]

Cash,

Thanks for that boost I know that in CT (the highest paid state in the

country for teachers) there is an over abunbdance of teachers. Where as in FL

(where I am now) in 10 years they will need to hire 162,000 teachers! On the

other hand the requirements in FL to teach frighten me almost as much as the

pay! Which would be about HALF as much as CT

It is so sad where we place our values as a society.... sports figures get

millions, teachers just about get minimum wage...

::::Getting off soap box... we now return to our regularly scheduled chat::::

Andra

[Guest guest]

How Frustrating! I'm sorry about the job. Not that this will make you

feel better but sometimes things happen for a reason. Please don't

let this disappointment deter you from your goals. Life is full of

annoyances and disappointments, but we can't destroy our life or our

health because of it. Hang in there. (((HUGS)))

Liz

> Ugh, I'm having a terrible day today. Had a great HIIT cardio this

morning, followed by 10 minutes extra on the treadmill. Then a little

while later, I found out that the job I've been waiting for, that I've

been promised for the last several years, was given to someone else.

That sent me into a downward spiral and I'm having a hard time

pulling myself out of a tailspin. I haven't had anything to eat today

at all, other than my vitamins. I've completely lost my apetite and

my will to eat, even though I know I really need to. <sigh>

>

> Tina

[Guest guest]

I AGREE you should eat something...and the whole saying

TIME heals all wounds...

good luck with the next search!

Naomi

--- Shana0505@... wrote:

> Tina,

> First of all know that you are NOT alone in your bad day!

> Second of all GET

> SOMETHING TO EAT! I know that when things seem bleak it

> is very easy to get

> yourself off track, but take a deep breath, and know in

> your heart that

> everything works out the way that it is supposed to.

> I know how frustrating it can be when things dont go the

> way that you think

> that they should... In 1993 I got my masters in

> Elementary Education, with a

> 4.0, aced all of the national teaching exams, was

> teaching for a year and

> BOOM, I got laid off. No problem (I though) I will have

> no problem finding

> another job... until every interview I went on had 500 (I

> am NOT kidding)

> applications for that one position... I cried for days

> wondering " Why God,

> why is this happening to me... this is all that I want to

> do! " Well two

> months later (still no teaching job mind you) I had my

> reason. My mother

> needed back surgery, and she needed my help in the

> company. That was almost 6

> years ago now and I have never been happier!

> Have faith that this happened for a reason .... and take

> extra good care of

> yourself right now

> God answers all prayers. Sometimes the answer is yes,

> sometimes the answer is

> no, and sometimes the answer is not now....

> Hang in there and keep smiling!

> Andra

>

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[Guest guest]

Andra,

I know this is off-topic, but your story as a teacher is one I've

heard from other good teachers quite often. How come the politicians

keep saying they can't get good teachers and need to step up

recruiting methods and do some kind of incentives, while perfectly

qualified teachers (like yourself) are on the unemployment line?

Sorry, just had to rant a bit.

Cash

> Tina,

> First of all know that you are NOT alone in your bad day! Second of

all GET

> SOMETHING TO EAT! I know that when things seem bleak it is very

easy to get

> yourself off track, but take a deep breath, and know in your heart

that

> everything works out the way that it is supposed to.

> I know how frustrating it can be when things dont go the way that

you think

> that they should... In 1993 I got my masters in Elementary

Education, with a

> 4.0, aced all of the national teaching exams, was teaching for a

year and

> BOOM, I got laid off. No problem (I though) I will have no problem

finding

> another job... until every interview I went on had 500 (I am NOT

kidding)

> applications for that one position... I cried for days

wondering " Why God,

> why is this happening to me... this is all that I want to do! " Well

two

> months later (still no teaching job mind you) I had my reason. My

mother

> needed back surgery, and she needed my help in the company. That

was almost 6

> years ago now and I have never been happier!

> Have faith that this happened for a reason .... and take extra good

care of

> yourself right now

> God answers all prayers. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes the

answer is

> no, and sometimes the answer is not now....

> Hang in there and keep smiling!

> Andra

[Guest guest]

Andra,

I know this is off-topic, but your story as a teacher is one I've

heard from other good teachers quite often. How come the politicians

keep saying they can't get good teachers and need to step up

recruiting methods and do some kind of incentives, while perfectly

qualified teachers (like yourself) are on the unemployment line?

Sorry, just had to rant a bit.

Cash

> Tina,

> First of all know that you are NOT alone in your bad day! Second of

all GET

> SOMETHING TO EAT! I know that when things seem bleak it is very

easy to get

> yourself off track, but take a deep breath, and know in your heart

that

> everything works out the way that it is supposed to.

> I know how frustrating it can be when things dont go the way that

you think

> that they should... In 1993 I got my masters in Elementary

Education, with a

> 4.0, aced all of the national teaching exams, was teaching for a

year and

> BOOM, I got laid off. No problem (I though) I will have no problem

finding

> another job... until every interview I went on had 500 (I am NOT

kidding)

> applications for that one position... I cried for days

wondering " Why God,

> why is this happening to me... this is all that I want to do! " Well

two

> months later (still no teaching job mind you) I had my reason. My

mother

> needed back surgery, and she needed my help in the company. That

was almost 6

> years ago now and I have never been happier!

> Have faith that this happened for a reason .... and take extra good

care of

> yourself right now

> God answers all prayers. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes the

answer is

> no, and sometimes the answer is not now....

> Hang in there and keep smiling!

> Andra

[Guest guest]

Hi Marcie,

Well I hate the fact that my house stays so messy but

what is a person to do . I just make a joke and say I

am going to fire my Merry Maid ,WISH I HAD ONE. glad

you have the boys to help. My husband is a helper

around here trying to get things done for me when he

can . but when you work a full job and then overtime

mandatory , there is not much else you can do I try

to at least get one thing accomplished a day , more if

I am able .

Love and God Bless

daystar

--- jerry_marcie@... wrote:

> Good morning all! I have been in a flare for quite

> some time now and

> the last couple of days have been the worsst. Am I

> ever looking

> forward to starting Enbrel today. Even though I

> have been injecting

> Jerry since December, the doc is making me come in

> for Enbrel

> teaching...

>

> Anyway, I guess I just need to vent a bit as I look

> around at the

> cluttered mess of my house. How does one cope when

> it's all you can

> do too get out of bed in the morning? I am by no

> means a fanatic

> about my house being clean but it has gotten to the

> point of

> ridiculous...My boys have tried to be helpful about

> keeping their

> toys picked up but there is still laundry, dishes,

> etc...

>

> Thanks everyone for being here and understanding

> what all of us go

> through. It's comforting to know there are people

> " out there " who

> care.

>

> Marcie

>

>

>

=====

Be ye therefore followers of God, as dear Children:

And walk in love, as Christ also hath loved us, and hath given himself for us as

an offering and a sacrafice to God for a sweetsmelling savour. Ephesians 5: 1,2

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[Guest guest]

Sheeesh Colleen. Im so sorry to hear about all that! Thats waaay too much

to take in one day. Take two asprin and go to bed... Tomorow will be

better.

Shaye

Bad day

Hi All!

Just wanted to come whine a bit. I talked to my MIL

today. 's cousin has an eggplant sized

tumor/growth on some tube going into her heart. She

is in remission from cancer, they found cancer again.

She is going thru a nasty divorce and has 2 girls (I

think around 14-16yrs. old). She's had her share of

h*ll, and now is being dealt another hand. I don't

know all of the details, so I don't know what's going

to happen with her.

The 9 month old that I watch-I just found out that her

dad has a pacemaker (can't be much older than 30). He

had a doctor's appointment today and the leads going

into the heart from the pacemaker aren't working

right. He's got to have some procedure next week.

Hoping he's going to be okay!

My mother just called a few minutes ago. My godfather

was found to have a really fast-spreading cancer

within the last month. They couldn't do surgery to

remove the cancerous growth because it was growing too

fast. I knew for the past week that he hadn't been

doing well. But apparently, the doctor has just put

him on a morphine drip. He can go at anytime now.

His daughter has already made all the arrangements for

him. There aren't going to be calling hours, just a

mass and trip to the moseleum (sp?).

is delivering pizza's tonight (my cousin owns a

local shop & helps him out on the weekends). I

was just talking to him on his cell & he pulled up to

the house he was delivering to. A cop pulled up

behind him, sat there for a minute, and flipped on his

lights. had to let me off the phone so he could

deal with the cop. Not like he's gonna get a ticket

or anything, he knows most of the cops in town. It's

just stupid! He pulled over to use his cell phone so

he wasn't driving while talking, and the cop has

nothing better to do than to bug him.

Okay, I'll stop my ranting now. I just don't have

anyone else to talk to right now! Thanks for

listening to me!

Colleen

Country Meadow Creations

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[Guest guest]

Thanks Shaye! That's about what I did too!!! Today

has been much better, no news is good news.

I also managed to get my tax info all written out.

Yeah, I'm one of those people who lets receipts pile

up for the year & then I go thru them at the end &

figure out what they are. Now all I've got to do is

bring the stuff to the accountant!

Colleen

Country Meadow Creations

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[Guest guest]

In a message dated 9/4/02 4:10:01 PM Eastern Daylight Time, Jase4567@...

writes:

> I ate so much today it is not even funny. binged binged binged. this

> family

> crap is going to stop if it kills me. now the wedding maybe off. time to

> refocus. help any advice.

>

,

I would like to suggest writing a plan for tomorrow...write a schedule of how

your day will be spent including exercise. Then write a meal plan for

tomorrow...make sure you include snacks. It is important that you actually

write these down and keep the paper in a prominent place. And then promise

yourself that you are going to stick to the plan. Plan something special for

yourself in the evening as your reward...no I don't mean food. I mean

something like a bubble bath..15 minutes of meditation or reading...time to

write in a journal etc. When life gets crazy making a plan and taking time

for myself brings me the peace I need to stay on plan.

Rae

260/165/140-150???

If it is to be...it is up to me.

[Guest guest]

Move thousands of miles away to another country so it is too

expensive/inconvient for family to call? LOL

- Who lives in England(the family is in Missouri) and enjoys the lack of

family involvement at the moment.

BAD DAY

I ate so much today it is not even funny. binged binged binged. this family

crap is going to stop if it kills me. now the wedding maybe off. time to

refocus. help any advice.

NH

Mommy to Abby Liz 10-25-94

Mommy to Anne 7-1-99

START 6/1/02

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[Guest guest]

, I hope things improve for you soon.

CZ

wrote:

> Hello Everyone, how are you? I am having a real bad day, I still have

> this virus, plus my crohns and fibro are both acting up today, I have a

> migraine,,,, and I am very depressed! My house is a pig stye, I did

> contact Medicare but am not eligable to receive any help as far as

> cleaning or anything like that, but I just dont have the physical

> stamina to do it,,,,, Im so sick of hearing my hubby complaine about the

> house! Im ready to just dig a hole and go hide in it and never come

> out!! I am supposed to go see my Rhumatologist today, but dont know if

> Im going to make it,,,, my cough has turned into the croup, and my chest

> is killing me! I did go see my GP but they say its just a virus and has

> to work its way out,,,,,,with me that could take forever!!! I am just so

> sick of living this way!! I can not remember the last time I had a good

> day,,,, Oh well maybe tomorrow will look better!! sorry to whine,,,,but

> I have no one else to whine to,,,so thank you for listening!!!

> Hugs

>

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[Guest guest]

I hear you .

I do not let anyone in my house either, especially males Anne

[Guest guest]

Hope your feeling better by now... As for the house work, when you are able to, you do 15 min's. then rest for an hour then another 25 min's.... When you finally catch up it works out pretty good at a system to keeping it done... But always remember, if someone comes and says anything about how messy it is or the floors need done or whatever, kindly show them where the vacumn or dust rags or what ever they are complaining about is located and that they are very welcome to do it for you ) The complaints are sure to stop )

((( Healing Hugs )))

Helen

Hello Everyone, how are you? I am having a real bad day, I still have this virus, plus my crohns and fibro are both acting up today, I have a migraine,,,, and I am very depressed! My house is a pig stye, I did contact Medicare but am not eligable to receive any help as far as cleaning or anything like that, but I just dont have the physical stamina to do it,,,,, Im so sick of hearing my hubby complaine about the house! Im ready to just dig a hole and go hide in it and never come out!! I am supposed to go see my Rhumatologist today, but dont know if Im going to make it,,,, my cough has turned into the croup, and my chest is killing me! I did go see my GP but they say its just a virus and has to work its way out,,,,,,with me that could take forever!!! I am just so sick of living this way!! I can not remember the last time I had a good day,,,, Oh well maybe tomorrow will look better!! sorry to whine,,,,but I have no one else to whine to,,,so thank you for listening!!!

Hugs

angelbear1129@...

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I still only do minimal care of the house, health things get done, like dishes and that stuff, if the floor has to be vacuumed, I leave it, if the walls need washing, tough! They will still be there tomorrow! Visitors know where the cleaning things are, so they can always do the house for me! Anne

I SO MUCH AGREE !!!! )

HELEN

you are not whining, you have too many problems, all piling up at once.

The house can wait, it is not important at this point, you are, so take care of yourself and don't worry about it right now.

I found that out three years ago, I had to learn to take care of the important things in my life, the house could come later!

I still only do minimal care of the house, health things get done, like dishes and that stuff, if the floor has to be vacuumed, I leave it, if the walls need washing, tough! They will still be there tomorrow! Visitors know where the cleaning things are, so they can always do the house for me! Anne

angelbear1129@...

[Guest guest]

, There is no need to appologize,, sorry your neighbor ruined your good time,, they should keep their nose in their own business!!! lotsa Hugs Bad day well my day was good until I thought I go outside to me this was a good idea there is a lot of construction about my place so I thought I camcorder the big machines for the kids thy would like that and when I was done we could sit together and watch the movie or the men working and there big trucks and tractors and diggers well that was going on fine and then all of a sudden after I have been doing it for like 4 hours and you all know me it is hard to get me out but this long I was doing really well I got to know a few of the guys and this helped me with staying out it was a bit scold but I bundles up well and put a blanket over my legs and tucked then in so they would not frees will I was out well as I said things were fine then a guy calls me to his touch they got a call for Cornwall 50 miles away that some one was out near all the machinery taking pictures and was in danger well I found out later it was my nab that said that and make the dam call I told the guy I stay 20 to 40 feet back and film using my telephoto lens it is the same as being up close but no that was not good enough I had to go I did not have any problems before my about did this to me she knows how hard it is for me to go out and I ended up in tears for hours over this I wanted my kids to see the neet trucks and how they paved the roads and so one you know but it pisses me off to know end that some one would rune this for me any way I sorry for being man and it has nothing about being sick I was better now I am back in bed and I have the shacks and can not control I just do not understand why people can not leave others alone my kids are a important part of my life and I get to see then every day that is if I am awake and not out cold because of the meds this really hurt me big time I have decided not to ever try to take picruh I sops man I wanted this for my little ones sorry group please forgive me I am doing ok I gesso back is 4 out of 10 yesterday it was a 6 and the day before it was a 10 out of 10 I am hoping the over all pain in me will site at a 6 out of 10 I can deal with it and I know my pain meds work if I know that 6 is there take care all sorry for rambling so much I hope you all accept my apologia I really do for me you all men a lot to me you are to my only friends and almost my family as well for I have no one other then you guys and gals the only other is mom and my brother the rest I have not seen in years they forgot me when I got sick and I could not do the things I used to for a living so they all disappeared love you all sorry as well ~~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~~ The Being Sick CommunityMessage Archives and Digest Attachment Pictures:-/messagesChat:- Scheduled Daily Chats at /chatBookmarks:-Add a website URL you have found useful./linksPersonal Complaints or problems:-Please contact a moderator email: -owner Subscription Details:-1) Individual email - means that every email sent to the list you receive.2) Daily Digest - sends you 25 messages in one single email for you to browse. This is an excellent option if you receive alot of email.3) Web only/No mail - means that you can pop into groups at your convenience and receive no email.To modify your subscription settings please visit:- /joinTo subscribe or unsubscribe please email:--subscribe -unsubscribe ~~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~~When nothing is sure, everything is possible.--- Margaret Drabble~~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~~

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!!!

No need to be sorry, we all rant on at times, its GOOD for us ) Leaving it bottled up is the worse thing that anyone can do! You should have gotten quit a bit of filmage in 4 hours... Did it turn out what you did get??? They were only thinking of your safety, which is Also important... My Dad use to work construction and they were always telling folks to please stay back... You should have offered to be the Flagman ) Then you wouldn't have been a spectator ) Look for the bright side , I don't want to see you down again!

How are you doing now from all the cold???

((( AngelBear Hugs )))

Helen

well my day was good until I thought I go outside to me this was a good idea there is a lot of construction about my place so I thought I camcorder the big machines for the kids thy would like that and when I was done we could sit together and watch the movie or the men working and there big trucks and tractors and diggers well that was going on fine and then all of a sudden after I have been doing it for like 4 hours and you all know me it is hard to get me out but this long I was doing really well I got to know a few of the guys and this helped me with staying out it was a bit scold but I bundles up well and put a blanket over my legs and tucked then in so they would not frees will I was out well as I said things were fine then a guy calls me to his touch they got a call for Cornwall 50 miles away that some one was out near all the machinery taking pictures and was in danger well I found out later it was my nab that said that and make the dam call I told the guy I stay 20 to 40 feet back and film using my telephoto lens it is the same as being up close but no that was not good enough I had to go I did not have any problems before my about did this to me she knows how hard it is for me to go out and I ended up in tears for hours over this I wanted my kids to see the neet trucks and how they paved the roads and so one you know but it pisses me off to know end that some one would rune this for me any way I sorry for being man and it has nothing about being sick I was better now I am back in bed and I have the shacks and can not control I just do not understand why people can not leave others alone my kids are a important part of my life and I get to see then every day that is if I am awake and not out cold because of the meds this really hurt me big time I have decided not to ever try to take picruh I sops man I wanted this for my little ones sorry group please forgive me

I am doing ok I gesso back is 4 out of 10 yesterday it was a 6 and the day before it was a 10 out of 10 I am hoping the over all pain in me will site at a 6 out of 10 I can deal with it and I know my pain meds work if I know that 6 is there

take care all sorry for rambling so much I hope you all accept my apologia I really do for me you all men a lot to me you are to my only friends and almost my family as well for I have no one other then you guys and gals the only other is mom and my brother the rest I have not seen in years they forgot me when I got sick and I could not do the things I used to for a living so they all disappeared

love you all sorry as well

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Hi Gordon,

I can sort of relate to what you're going through. I've had two sleepless

nights due to costo. I'm waiting to hear from my Dr. to see if anything can be

done to get some relief. I'm sorry you're having to suffer this much,

especially during the holiday season! I'm saying prayers for you.

B

[ ] bad day

Yesterday, a week after the RFN pain block procedure, I ventured out for a

short shopping trip to the local mall. Everything fell apart, never experienced

it before so soon after the procedure. Severe spinal pain, chest pain, couldn't

breathe, maybe it was the xmas crowds and the hot, humid weather. I have taken

Oxycontin but it has only dulled the pain a little. I am writing this at around

5.30 am after giving up any hope of getting any sleep. Will contact my pain

specialist's rooms in a few hours time. I do not hold out much hope of anything

more being done until the new year, if anything.

Sorry to be so negative but I guess I needed to talk this out.

Regards, Gordon

[Guest guest]

Gordon,

Chin up Mate!!

Regards,

Craig Coote

[ ] bad day

> Yesterday, a week after the RFN pain block procedure, I ventured out for a

short shopping trip to the local mall. Everything fell apart, never

experienced it before so soon after the procedure. Severe spinal pain,

chest pain, couldn't breathe, maybe it was the xmas crowds and the hot,

humid weather. I have taken Oxycontin but it has only dulled the pain a

little. I am writing this at around 5.30 am after giving up any hope of

getting any sleep. Will contact my pain specialist's rooms in a few hours

time. I do not hold out much hope of anything more being done until the new

year, if anything.

> Sorry to be so negative but I guess I needed to talk this out.

>

> Regards, Gordon

>

[Guest guest]

Gordon,

I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time of

it right now. Just remember it always gets better or

we learn to deal with it all better. Either way it is

better than when it all started.

Good luck,

Charlie

--- gordon eliott <geliott@...> wrote:

> Yesterday, a week after the RFN pain block

> procedure, I ventured out for a short shopping trip

> to the local mall. Everything fell apart, never

> experienced it before so soon after the procedure.

> Severe spinal pain, chest pain, couldn't breathe,

> maybe it was the xmas crowds and the hot, humid

> weather. I have taken Oxycontin but it has only

> dulled the pain a little. I am writing this at

> around 5.30 am after giving up any hope of getting

> any sleep. Will contact my pain specialist's rooms

> in a few hours time. I do not hold out much hope of

> anything more being done until the new year, if

> anything.

> Sorry to be so negative but I guess I needed to talk

> this out.

>

> Regards, Gordon

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Lorraine,

It speaks volumes to this group that you would turn to it for support

in the face of such news. I am so sorry and will pray for you and

her.

My mom went through a bout with colon cancer. It's a long story, but

fortunately she survived 3 months in a nursing home (which in this

case presented more of a challenge than the cancer) and two years

later is stronger than she's ever been. Her cancer screens since

have been clean.

Now more than ever you have to take care of yourself. I faced a

similiar choice recently and saw that I had two choices-drag myself

to the gym and eat healthy, or drown myself in food, booze and

cigarettes. Eventually you will sleep normally again, or closer to

normal at least. Taking care of yourself during a time like this is

the most unselfish thing you can do for the people who love you, as

well as yourself. And cocoon yourself in support, as much as you can

get.

Kindest regards,

> Ironically yesterday, day 29, was the day the Success Journal

talked about

> digging in one's heels during times of adversity. Last night I

found out my

> mother has been diagnosed with liver and pancreatic cancer, and the

prognosis

> is not good. As soon as I can get things settled here in Chicago,

I'll most

> likely be leaving DH temporarily and moving back to NJ to assist my

mom. I

> definitely went off the eating plan after I got the news; DH and I

sat and

> ate peanuts and then a bunch of M & Ms. However, it seemed more rote

than

> anything else; bad news = candy. Today I just feel sick to my

stomach.

>

> If anyone's been through anything like this, I'd appreciate any

thoughts you

> have. I'm planning on keeping on with the challenge; I can't see

any reason

> not to. The hardest part will be the mental challenge to keep up

with the

> workouts as I can't sleep at all (haven't been able to much since

she went

> into the hospital a week ago).

>

> Thanks,

> Lorraine

>

>

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