Re: just need to vent

October 10, 2004

You know what? This is body for " LIFE " and sometimes, in life you

get caught up in the social eating thing with family. Don't beat

yourself up over it. Don't shortchange yourself from family time.

Worst case scenario, you eat crap for 3 days straight. There's no

way you have done irreparable damage. Just keep going with the

water...you would be surprised how much of a difference it makes!

Next week, get back on track and maybe take it easy on your free

day. There's no way you gained 5 pounds. You may bloat up a bit, but

I'm sure you know it's temporary. You're being way too hard on

yourself. Relax and enjoy your family!!!!

Here's a great article about how doing BFL perfectly is not

necessarily the most important thing! It's from Skwigg's site...read

it, you'll feel better, it's called " Cheaters Prosper "

http://www.skwigg.com/id28.html

Good luck!

-Ruth

>

> Hi ladies,

> No real point to this post other than to just get some thoughts

down

> and out of my head. This has been a really frustrating weekend

because

> I had family in town and the most important thing that they wanted

to

> do this weekend was eat. I'm not joking, they came with a list of

the

> places they wanted to eat at. I did really good all week, even into

> Friday night after they got here until the dessert part of our

dinner

> Friday night. I said I didn't want any but then everyone made a big

> deal that I wasn't eating, blah, blah, blah and bottom line is

that I

> ended up eating it. No one's fault but my own. Then I came home and

> was feeling really bad about it and ended up eating even more crap-

I

> ate 2 protein bars over the next couple hours along with some

peanut

> butter and pretzels. Ok, so today was a new day and everything was

> going well, brought meals with me, etc and then tonight was a

> duplicate of last night except this time I feel apart at the

appetizer

> and blew it all the way through dinner. So, tonight at home I've

> promised myself not to just dive face first into the peanut butter

> again but damn do I feel horrible. I've done BFL for a long time

and

> for some reason really struggle with these kind of situations. And

the

> other thing that bugs me is that I was really looking forward to my

> free day to treat myself to the stuff I really wanted--not the

crap I

> ended up eating over the last couple days. My stomach hurts and I'd

> swear I gained 5lbs (I know thats not even possible but it feels

like

> it). The only good thing is that I've been drinking my water. So I

> just feel really down on myself and feel like I dont even want to

eat

> the next few days to make up for the extra thousands of calories I

ate

> (This isnt rational either but again, just the way I feel). So

just

> had to get this all off my chest. My plan for tomorrow since they

dont

> leave till monday is to just say I'm not feeling well so they

leave me

> alone about not eating what they want.

>

> Thanks for listening

October 10, 2004

Are you doing an official challenge where you've entered the contest and plan to

win?

Does your family visit very often?

If the answer to those two questions is no, relax and enjoy the food and

socializing. If my relatives showed up with a list of restaurants, I'd be

euphoric. I'd drive! LOL " The Cheesecake Factory? Right on! Everybody get in the

car! " :-) I genuinely look forward to that kind of thing. I plan it, I enjoy it,

I eat circles around all of them, and then I let it go without giving it a

second thought. It's just one weekend. It's not like you're planning to do this

five nights a week from now on. The damage will be minimal and easily repaired.

After a few days of deluxe button-popping restaurant meals I can't WAIT to get

back to my healthy eating and hard workouts. You probably can't either. So,

don't beat yourself up over it. The guilt doesn't help you any. And whatever you

do, don't make any elaborate plans to skip free day, cut calories, or quadruple

your cardio. Punishing yourself only makes you feel bad, and people who feel bad

have been known to dive face first into peanut butter jars. Next thing you know,

you're on that nightmarish binge/starve rollercoaster where you overeat because

you're starving, and you're starving to punish yourself for overeating. That

negative mindset will hurt your results a lot more than one weekend of fun.

Just need to vent

Hi ladies,

No real point to this post other than to just get some thoughts down

and out of my head. This has been a really frustrating weekend because

I had family in town and the most important thing that they wanted to

do this weekend was eat. I'm not joking, they came with a list of the

places they wanted to eat at. I did really good all week, even into

Friday night after they got here until the dessert part of our dinner

Friday night. I said I didn't want any but then everyone made a big

deal that I wasn't eating, blah, blah, blah and bottom line is that I

ended up eating it. No one's fault but my own. Then I came home and

was feeling really bad about it and ended up eating even more crap-I

ate 2 protein bars over the next couple hours along with some peanut

butter and pretzels. Ok, so today was a new day and everything was

going well, brought meals with me, etc and then tonight was a

duplicate of last night except this time I feel apart at the appetizer

and blew it all the way through dinner. So, tonight at home I've

promised myself not to just dive face first into the peanut butter

again but damn do I feel horrible. I've done BFL for a long time and

for some reason really struggle with these kind of situations. And the

other thing that bugs me is that I was really looking forward to my

free day to treat myself to the stuff I really wanted--not the crap I

ended up eating over the last couple days. My stomach hurts and I'd

swear I gained 5lbs (I know thats not even possible but it feels like

it). The only good thing is that I've been drinking my water. So I

just feel really down on myself and feel like I dont even want to eat

the next few days to make up for the extra thousands of calories I ate

(This isnt rational either but again, just the way I feel). So just

had to get this all off my chest. My plan for tomorrow since they dont

leave till monday is to just say I'm not feeling well so they leave me

alone about not eating what they want.

Thanks for listening

July 24, 2005

At 09:54 AM 7/29/05, you wrote:

>HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO

>ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON.

Larry, I'm sorry to hear this. I know that feeling of frustration and

desperation. Besides praying for you, the only suggestion I can offer

this time is Have you called the Law office of Binder & Binder ? They are

supposed to be Americas top SS lawyers and they advertise all the time on

TV. That's who is handling my case. They accepted me and started a

claim, so I feel so far so good.

My Doctors and there have been many seem to think I have something

Called Faccets Disease. It's something like Fibromyalga. Even though I

have a total of 5 layers fused , they can't find any immediate nerve

damage, so this is what they attribute it to. Maybe somewhere to

look. The pain is very real, no matter how many times they tell me I have

excellent motor skills. Hang in there. Dave

>

July 24, 2005

At 09:54 AM 7/29/05, you wrote:

>HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO

>ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON.

Larry, I'm sorry to hear this. I know that feeling of frustration and

desperation. Besides praying for you, the only suggestion I can offer

this time is Have you called the Law office of Binder & Binder ? They are

supposed to be Americas top SS lawyers and they advertise all the time on

TV. That's who is handling my case. They accepted me and started a

claim, so I feel so far so good.

My Doctors and there have been many seem to think I have something

Called Faccets Disease. It's something like Fibromyalga. Even though I

have a total of 5 layers fused , they can't find any immediate nerve

damage, so this is what they attribute it to. Maybe somewhere to

look. The pain is very real, no matter how many times they tell me I have

excellent motor skills. Hang in there. Dave

>

July 24, 2005

At 09:54 AM 7/29/05, you wrote:

>HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO

>ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON.

Larry, I'm sorry to hear this. I know that feeling of frustration and

desperation. Besides praying for you, the only suggestion I can offer

this time is Have you called the Law office of Binder & Binder ? They are

supposed to be Americas top SS lawyers and they advertise all the time on

TV. That's who is handling my case. They accepted me and started a

claim, so I feel so far so good.

My Doctors and there have been many seem to think I have something

Called Faccets Disease. It's something like Fibromyalga. Even though I

have a total of 5 layers fused , they can't find any immediate nerve

damage, so this is what they attribute it to. Maybe somewhere to

look. The pain is very real, no matter how many times they tell me I have

excellent motor skills. Hang in there. Dave

>

July 29, 2005

DAVE,

THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT,

TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE

LARRY" J. Cruikshank" <d.cruikshank@...> wrote:

At 09:54 AM 7/29/05, you wrote:>HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO >ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON.Larry, I'm sorry to hear this. I know that feeling of frustration and desperation. Besides praying for you, the only suggestion I can offer this time is Have you called the Law office of Binder & Binder ? They are supposed to be Americas top SS lawyers and they advertise all the time on TV. That's who is handling my case. They accepted me and started a claim, so I feel so far so good. My Doctors and there have been many seem to think I have something Called Faccets Disease. It's something like Fibromyalga. Even though I have a total of 5 layers fused , they can't

find any immediate nerve damage, so this is what they attribute it to. Maybe somewhere to look. The pain is very real, no matter how many times they tell me I have excellent motor skills. Hang in there. Dave>>>>>

July 29, 2005

DAVE,

THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT,

TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE

LARRY" J. Cruikshank" <d.cruikshank@...> wrote:

At 09:54 AM 7/29/05, you wrote:>HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO >ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON.Larry, I'm sorry to hear this. I know that feeling of frustration and desperation. Besides praying for you, the only suggestion I can offer this time is Have you called the Law office of Binder & Binder ? They are supposed to be Americas top SS lawyers and they advertise all the time on TV. That's who is handling my case. They accepted me and started a claim, so I feel so far so good. My Doctors and there have been many seem to think I have something Called Faccets Disease. It's something like Fibromyalga. Even though I have a total of 5 layers fused , they can't

find any immediate nerve damage, so this is what they attribute it to. Maybe somewhere to look. The pain is very real, no matter how many times they tell me I have excellent motor skills. Hang in there. Dave>>>>>

July 29, 2005

DAVE,

THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT,

TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE

LARRY" J. Cruikshank" <d.cruikshank@...> wrote:

At 09:54 AM 7/29/05, you wrote:>HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO >ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON.Larry, I'm sorry to hear this. I know that feeling of frustration and desperation. Besides praying for you, the only suggestion I can offer this time is Have you called the Law office of Binder & Binder ? They are supposed to be Americas top SS lawyers and they advertise all the time on TV. That's who is handling my case. They accepted me and started a claim, so I feel so far so good. My Doctors and there have been many seem to think I have something Called Faccets Disease. It's something like Fibromyalga. Even though I have a total of 5 layers fused , they can't

find any immediate nerve damage, so this is what they attribute it to. Maybe somewhere to look. The pain is very real, no matter how many times they tell me I have excellent motor skills. Hang in there. Dave>>>>>

July 29, 2005

Hi Larry

Well first off let me start by saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Next let me say this... It is not going ot hurt you to call the number I gave you If you are willing to give up just call one more person before it os too late for them to even try and help you.If you dont believe me just call the number and ask them questions I gave you all the info and like I said they would come to you you have to do nothing but give them all the info and they will be there for your hearing. If you would like the info again I will give it to you ok

Sincerely Janine In Cali

They were the ones that won my case and I didnt pay them nothing if I didnt win LARRY GULLAHORN <lagullahorn68-69@...> wrote:

HELLO EVERYONE,I REALLY NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM THIS MORNING. I WENT TO ANOTHER LAWYER YESTERDAY AFTERNOON. THIS ONE TOLD ME THAT I DIDN'T HAVE ENOUGH MEDICAL EVIDENCE TO SUPPORT MY CLAIM FOR DISABILITY. WELL,ISN'T THAT JUST LOVELY.SO NOW I'M 0 FOR 2 AT THE LAWYER GAME.

I AM SO SICK OF HAVING TO DEAL WITH THIS I AM JUST ABOUT READY TO GIVE UP ON THE WHOLE MESS. I REALLY DO NOT THINK THAT I CAN GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS STUFF AGAIN.

I MEAN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW. I'M AT MY WITS END. MY WIFE LOST HER JOB LAST FRIDAY. NO MONEY TO GO THE DOCTOR ,NO MONEY TO SEE THE PEOPLE THAT I REALLY NEED TO SEE ABOUT THIS . IT SEEMS THAT NO ONE REALLY CARES ABOUT YOU WHEN YOU'RE HURT AND CAN'T WORK. UP UNTIL 4 YEARS AGO I WORKED MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE,AND NOW I'M SCREWED. I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO NOW.

SOCIAL SECURITY SAYS THAT I CAN STILL WORK AS A SECURITY GUARD,YEAH RIGHT. I CAN'T WALK VERY LONG ,OR STAND ,OR GO UP STAIRS ,OR STARE AT MY OWN COMPUTER SCREEN WITH OUT HURTING LIKE CRAZY,MUCH LESS WALK OR STAND ,OR STARE AT SOME SECURITY MONITOR AT A JOB.

MY HEARING IS MOST LIKELY GOING TO BE IN A MONTH ,OR TWO AT THE MOST, AND I DON'T HAVE ANYONE THAT IS WILLING TO FIGHT FOR ME.

I COULDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT. ALL I DID WAS JUST LAY IN BED AND THINK HOW AM I GOING TO GET PAST THIS MESS NOW. I DIDN'T DARE TAKE ONE OF THE SLEEPING PILLS THAT THE DOCTOR GAVE ME. THE LAST TIME I TOOK ONE OF THOSE THINGS I WAS GOOFY AS A DRUNK ALL DAY LONG. I JUST COULDN'T GET WOKE UP. SO ,HERE I AM AT 8:48 AM AND I'VE BEEN UP SINCE YESTERDAY AT ABOUT THIS TIME. OH, MAN ANOTHER 24 HOURS WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO GO TO SLEEP.

I REALLY AM READY TO JUST THROW IN THE TOWEL AND CALL IT QUITS.

WELL,I GUESS THAT I WILL TRY TO GO TO BED IN A LITTLE WHILE AND GET SOME SLEEP.

THIS IS ONE HECK OF A WAY TO SPEND YOUR BIRTHDAY ISN'T IT

TAKE CARE EVERY ONE

LARRY

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July 29, 2005