Re: Hello !

October 3, 2002

Dear Tony,

You have such a giving heart, even when your heart is broken you reach out to others in pain. Because of this you are able to give so much to others because you live the verses found in ians 2:3-8: "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God, something to be grasped, made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient to death, even death on a cross! Tony thank for your willingness to look beyond your own pain and want to help others who are hurting. You are such an inspiration to me.

Ruth

rmeeks3230@... wrote:

Hello !I hope that this e-mail finds you surrounded by God's unconditional love. Sorry that it took me a few days to post myresponce to all your e-mails but know that they came to me ata time when I needed them most. I'm handling my precious Tazz's loss as I'm doing my illness, one day at a time. SometimesI wonder how much more will I have to endure ? but I know answer to that is not for me to know. All that I can do is walk very close to My Heavenly Father so when the big storms comemy way He will be there to protect me. This morning on my dailyprayer as I began to pray for all of you I asked God if I could be ofmore support to all of you. Your love and support has helped meface several devastating trials and I just want to be able to givesome of that back to you. Perhaps when things get very difficultyou can think of me and receive all the strenght that you will need to continue on your quest for better health. I love you all very much and May God Bless You !Tony

October 4, 2002

Hi Dear Tony i don't just think of you when times are tough i think of you all the time and pray for you everyday. Hugs jeanette UK

rmeeks3230@... wrote:

Hello !I hope that this e-mail finds you surrounded by God's unconditional love. Sorry that it took me a few days to post myresponce to all your e-mails but know that they came to me ata time when I needed them most. I'm handling my precious Tazz's loss as I'm doing my illness, one day at a time. SometimesI wonder how much more will I have to endure ? but I know answer to that is not for me to know. All that I can do is walk very close to My Heavenly Father so when the big storms comemy way He will be there to protect me. This morning on my dailyprayer as I began to pray for all of you I asked God if I could be ofmore support to all of you. Your love and support has helped meface several devastating trials and I just want to be able to givesome of that back to you. Perhaps when things get very difficultyou can think of me and receive all the strenght that you will need to continue on your quest for better health. I love you all very much and May God Bless You !Tony

October 11, 2002

Tony,

So glad you felt well enough to get to the game. I'm not much of a baseball

fan but living here in Richmond, I have to root for the Braves. Continue to

eat, eat and eat. As always, you are in my prayers.

October 11, 2002

I stopped watching after the yankees lost.

How is it that you NEED to GAIN weight??????? Most of us would love that

problem.

Shireen

>From: rmeeks3230@...

>Reply-

>

>Subject: [ ] Hello !

>Date: Thu, 10 Oct 2002 20:06:28 EDT

>

>Hi !

>

>I hope that this e-mail finds you all surrounded by God's Love and

>Protection. I continue to try to gain some of the weight that I lost so I'm

>eating everything in sight

>

>I'm also still under a state of shock over the Atlanta Braves loss. I

>actually

>managed to go to the game and I just knew that Sheffield was going to hit

>that ball out of the park, well as terrible as it may sound here we are

>kind

>of used to see the Braves decomposing right before the end.

>

>Sorry for deviating from the groups topics, I just needed that little bit

>of

>therapy.

>

>Take good care of yourselfs and remember that you are always in my heart!

>

>Tony

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October 11, 2002

Hi Shireen !

Unfourtanely I also have the HIV Virus which has now developed into

Full Blown Aids which has managed to destroy most of my cd-4 cells

which has caused my inmune system to deteriorate causing me to have

a hard time keeping meals and fluids on my system.

God Bless You !

Tony

October 11, 2002

So sorry to hear that Tony. Are you on the " cocktail " ? Is it working at

all? Try Ensure. My Mom loved it. She died of lung cancer two years ago.

Shireen

>From: rmeeks3230@...

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>

>Subject: Re: [ ] Hello !

>Date: Fri, 11 Oct 2002 21:36:08 EDT

>

>Hi Shireen !

>

>Unfourtanely I also have the HIV Virus which has now developed into

>Full Blown Aids which has managed to destroy most of my cd-4 cells

>which has caused my inmune system to deteriorate causing me to have

>a hard time keeping meals and fluids on my system.

>

>God Bless You !

>

>Tony

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October 12, 2002

Hi Shireen !

So sorry to hear about your mom. I've been on several cocktail regimes and some worked for a while but since I do have a liver disease that is

also progressing rapidly there are some hiv meds that I cannot take because they are harmful to the liver and causes liver damage which I already have. I started drinking three cans of ensure after my weight loss.

As I shared with my other friends in the group, I lost 25 pounds in a couple of weeks so I'm really trying here to get them back. I have a major

problem with nausea and diahrrea and do take meds for that but so far

no improvement. To be honest with you, the hardest part of all is watch it

happening. My heart and soul want so much to get well but my body is in

its own little world. On the other hand, I believe on a Heavenly Father that

can move mountains and I stand ready to receive His will for my life whether it will be in a form of healing or His calling for me to come home.

God Bless You,

Tony

October 17, 2002

What a great picture!

I’m not sure I understand, so are

you not going to go to Spain? Your mom looks like such a nice person.

[ ] Hello !

My Dear Friends !

Once again I can't find the appropiate words to express my gratitude for your

support. You have become such a strong presence in my life and for that I

thank you. Today I received a strong opposition from my family for my

decision. They don't feel that Spain is worth giving up my change at living but

what they can't understand is that LIVING was my decision. As much respect as I

have for those people that give their bodies in the interest of science, the

love that I feel for my family especially my mother by far out

weights my desire. I want her to be able to remember my smiles of joy instead

of my tears of pain. Here is a picture that we had took that day before I

started my treatment in New York. Right after that she had to witness her

youngest son endure suffering as he had not know before so can you see, I want

to be remember like this and that is my final choice. I hope that you can

understand my view and unless something changes that is what I'm going for.

Love Always,

Tony

November 21, 2002

Tony,

So sorry to hear about the surge. It sounds very upsetting. Hope we talk to you before you go, if not have a great time.

November 21, 2002

Dear Tony,

Have a great trip! Been thinking about you.

Can't believe everything blew up like that, sounds like something out of

a bad movie. Glad you're alright!

Take care,

[ ] Hello !

Hi !

I hope that when you receive this e-mail you are all surrounded in

God'Blessings. I'm so sorry that I haven't been able to write sooner. I

had a major electrical surge at the house which destroyed all my

electronic equipment including my computer. It was quite scarry since I

didn't know what was happening at the time. I was just watching tv and

all the sudden the lightbulves started to pop out following by the tv

screen exploting and the computer catching on fire. I was terrified and

when got the hold of the phone to call for help, the phone felt like if

would have been in the oven. The people from the power company and fire

department were very nice since I was pretty shock up by the time that

they got there. Since my trip is now so close by I'll be waiting until

my return to replace all the property lost, of course with the help of

the homeowners insurance policy. I will try to get online from other

sites as I'm able but for sure at least once before I leave. You all

take very good care of yourselves and remember that you are always in my

heart.

Love Always,

Tony

November 21, 2002

Tony-

Had a couple of neighbors have that happen a couple of years ago.

Did you know the power company is very likely responsible for

replacing your belongings? I know when my friends had it happen,

they lost the tv, stereo, fridge, you name it. The power company

replaced it all due to something that was faulty in the power lines.

If it was something in the power lines, and not something in your

home that caused it, it is then their responsibility to replace your

things. It's worth a try, and could save you from making a claim

against the homeowners ins. - that always causes an increase later

down the road. The power company tried to tell my friends that they

didn't have too, but my hubby is an electrician and explained it

clearer for the power company. I would call the power company and

maybe give a hypathetical question and see what they say.

Carole

> Hi !

>

> I hope that when you receive this e-mail you are all surrounded in

God'Blessings. I'm so sorry that I haven't been able to write sooner.

I had a major electrical surge at the house which destroyed all my

electronic equipment including my computer. It was quite scarry since

I didn't know what was happening at the time. I was just watching tv

and all the sudden the lightbulves started to pop out following by

the tv screen exploting and the computer catching on fire. I was

terrified and when got the hold of the phone to call for help, the

phone felt like if would have been in the oven. The people from the

power company and fire department were very nice since I was pretty

shock up by the time that they got there. Since my trip is now so

close by I'll be waiting until my return to replace all the property

lost, of course with the help of the homeowners insurance policy. I

will try to get online from other sites as I'm able but for sure at

least once before I leave. You all take very good care of yourselves

and remember that you are always in my heart.

>

> Love Always,

> Tony

November 21, 2002