Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 i was not insinutatintg that i was wallowing in depression. sorry if i miss took that statement. i was just explaining why the depression is so bad. wellnt to dr. am full of infection and the chemo is drying up my insides in a private part. now i am on stronger antibiotics and premarin cream. still bleeding pretty bad. he grabed my rsd foot. iwent off the wall. he said it had een a long tie since mamogram and i tod him let me take your crown jewels and put them in that nasty machine and see if you would have mammo taken any where too soon. and have rsd on top of it. he looked at me strange and then said i donot think so. he was so sorry for hurting me. i mean i old him well it had been 2 1/2 years since i seen him and as of today it ay be 10 years aain. he said the way things seems i may be seeing hm a lot more. i do not think so. thanks for listenig and sorry if i offened anyone. didnt ean too. i know what i want to say but sometis i just cannot get it out right. i have foot and mouth disease. thanks for caring. love to all cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 i was not insinutatintg that i was wallowing in depression. sorry if i miss took that statement. i was just explaining why the depression is so bad. wellnt to dr. am full of infection and the chemo is drying up my insides in a private part. now i am on stronger antibiotics and premarin cream. still bleeding pretty bad. he grabed my rsd foot. iwent off the wall. he said it had een a long tie since mamogram and i tod him let me take your crown jewels and put them in that nasty machine and see if you would have mammo taken any where too soon. and have rsd on top of it. he looked at me strange and then said i donot think so. he was so sorry for hurting me. i mean i old him well it had been 2 1/2 years since i seen him and as of today it ay be 10 years aain. he said the way things seems i may be seeing hm a lot more. i do not think so. thanks for listenig and sorry if i offened anyone. didnt ean too. i know what i want to say but sometis i just cannot get it out right. i have foot and mouth disease. thanks for caring. love to all cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 i was not insinutatintg that i was wallowing in depression. sorry if i miss took that statement. i was just explaining why the depression is so bad. wellnt to dr. am full of infection and the chemo is drying up my insides in a private part. now i am on stronger antibiotics and premarin cream. still bleeding pretty bad. he grabed my rsd foot. iwent off the wall. he said it had een a long tie since mamogram and i tod him let me take your crown jewels and put them in that nasty machine and see if you would have mammo taken any where too soon. and have rsd on top of it. he looked at me strange and then said i donot think so. he was so sorry for hurting me. i mean i old him well it had been 2 1/2 years since i seen him and as of today it ay be 10 years aain. he said the way things seems i may be seeing hm a lot more. i do not think so. thanks for listenig and sorry if i offened anyone. didnt ean too. i know what i want to say but sometis i just cannot get it out right. i have foot and mouth disease. thanks for caring. love to all cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 i am sorry if i hurt yo.never ment to. just a bad hoof and mouth day. thanks for the encourgement. love ya cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 i am sorry if i hurt yo.never ment to. just a bad hoof and mouth day. thanks for the encourgement. love ya cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 i am sorry if i hurt yo.never ment to. just a bad hoof and mouth day. thanks for the encourgement. love ya cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 Cathy..everyone has those days especially with so much going on in your life. I can totally understand you being so down...I know with just what I am going through I have been down lately. I wish things were looking up for you...I know what a toll chemo takes on someone. I know you have Joe's support...do you have any others helping out? The stress physically and emotionally you have can only be making things worse with the RSD...Are you able to get some stress relief? You didn't offend me...I just wish there was more I could do for you. I hope this weekend you can enjoy yourself and get some relief from pain and stress..Hugs..Ginnyfishthatsmiles@... wrote: i was not insinutatintg that i was wallowing in depression. sorry if imiss took that statement. i was just explaining why the depression is sobad. wellnt to dr. am full of infection and the chemo is drying up myinsides in a private part. now i am on stronger antibiotics and premarincream. still bleeding pretty bad. he grabed my rsd foot. iwent off thewall. he said it had een a long tie since mamogram and i tod him let metake your crown jewels and put them in that nasty machine and see if youwould have mammo taken any where too soon. and have rsd on top of it.he looked at me strange and then said i donot think so. he was so sorryfor hurting me. i mean i old him well it had been 2 1/2 years since iseen him and as of today it ay be 10 years aain. he said the way thingsseems i may be seeing hm a lot more. i do not think so. thanks forlistenig and sorry if i offened anyone. didnt ean too. i know what iwant to say but sometis i just cannot get it out right. i have foot andmouth disease. thanks for caring. love to all cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 Cathy..everyone has those days especially with so much going on in your life. I can totally understand you being so down...I know with just what I am going through I have been down lately. I wish things were looking up for you...I know what a toll chemo takes on someone. I know you have Joe's support...do you have any others helping out? The stress physically and emotionally you have can only be making things worse with the RSD...Are you able to get some stress relief? You didn't offend me...I just wish there was more I could do for you. I hope this weekend you can enjoy yourself and get some relief from pain and stress..Hugs..Ginnyfishthatsmiles@... wrote: i was not insinutatintg that i was wallowing in depression. sorry if imiss took that statement. i was just explaining why the depression is sobad. wellnt to dr. am full of infection and the chemo is drying up myinsides in a private part. now i am on stronger antibiotics and premarincream. still bleeding pretty bad. he grabed my rsd foot. iwent off thewall. he said it had een a long tie since mamogram and i tod him let metake your crown jewels and put them in that nasty machine and see if youwould have mammo taken any where too soon. and have rsd on top of it.he looked at me strange and then said i donot think so. he was so sorryfor hurting me. i mean i old him well it had been 2 1/2 years since iseen him and as of today it ay be 10 years aain. he said the way thingsseems i may be seeing hm a lot more. i do not think so. thanks forlistenig and sorry if i offened anyone. didnt ean too. i know what iwant to say but sometis i just cannot get it out right. i have foot andmouth disease. thanks for caring. love to all cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 Cathy..everyone has those days especially with so much going on in your life. I can totally understand you being so down...I know with just what I am going through I have been down lately. I wish things were looking up for you...I know what a toll chemo takes on someone. I know you have Joe's support...do you have any others helping out? The stress physically and emotionally you have can only be making things worse with the RSD...Are you able to get some stress relief? You didn't offend me...I just wish there was more I could do for you. I hope this weekend you can enjoy yourself and get some relief from pain and stress..Hugs..Ginnyfishthatsmiles@... wrote: i was not insinutatintg that i was wallowing in depression. sorry if imiss took that statement. i was just explaining why the depression is sobad. wellnt to dr. am full of infection and the chemo is drying up myinsides in a private part. now i am on stronger antibiotics and premarincream. still bleeding pretty bad. he grabed my rsd foot. iwent off thewall. he said it had een a long tie since mamogram and i tod him let metake your crown jewels and put them in that nasty machine and see if youwould have mammo taken any where too soon. and have rsd on top of it.he looked at me strange and then said i donot think so. he was so sorryfor hurting me. i mean i old him well it had been 2 1/2 years since iseen him and as of today it ay be 10 years aain. he said the way thingsseems i may be seeing hm a lot more. i do not think so. thanks forlistenig and sorry if i offened anyone. didnt ean too. i know what iwant to say but sometis i just cannot get it out right. i have foot andmouth disease. thanks for caring. love to all cathy Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 > Cathy All of your feelings are well understood. Dont worry about having your words misunderstood, sometimes its just a matter of clarifying things from all parties. Its hard to get words across on posts and have the emotions and intentions come out right. I hope that today has found you feeling at least a little better. Take care of yourself Cathy and enjoy working with the senior citizens. I work in a nursing facility on the residential floor and absolutely adore most of the residents there. Have a great rest of your day Hugs Donna Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted January 29, 2005 > Yanno, I never even thought of that when I made the statement LOL! Hugs Donna > I couldn't keep from chuckling when I read that statement since there's nothing good about hell! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 10, 2005 Donna, Unfortunately, whether you write a letter solely to the Dr. or to his superiors, etc. it is going to make it uncomfortable for you while working. The main question is.. do you want this Dr. to continue to treat ANY patient the way he did your Mom? I honestly think one of the reasons we have so many bad Drs. is that no one is willing to call them on their behavior. If the answer is NO, go with your "gut" and hold your head high when you see him. Maybe he needs this wake up call. My opinion.. send the letter.. I would send it to his superiors in case he decides to make trouble for you at work.. this way you can use that as documentation if he retaliates at all. If you just send it to him, you can't really claim it's retaliation... your word against his, then. Just my opinion. I could be wrong.. :-)) Hugs, Jo Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 10, 2005 > I wrote the letter to admin last night and I saved it however this morning leaves me wondering how far I wish to pursue this (at least on admin level). This particular Dr also has alot of patients on the floor that I work on and for me this means alot of contact. I am however pulling my mothers records and will be writing HIM a letter regarding his actions and my disappointment in his actions and overall treatment. I dont know, Im still mulling it over. Any comments? Hugs Donna > Donna - I'm sure that all of us would be more than glad to look the letter over with you before you send it. Too many jerks in this world. Barbara > Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 10, 2005 Excellent advice.jomal1@... wrote: Donna, Unfortunately, whether you write a letter solely to the Dr. or to his superiors, etc. it is going to make it uncomfortable for you while working. The main question is.. do you want this Dr. to continue to treat ANY patient the way he did your Mom? I honestly think one of the reasons we have so many bad Drs. is that no one is willing to call them on their behavior. If the answer is NO, go with your "gut" and hold your head high when you see him. Maybe he needs this wake up call. My opinion.. send the letter.. I would send it to his superiors in case he decides to make trouble for you at work.. this way you can use that as documentation if he retaliates at all. If you just send it to him, you can't really claim it's retaliation... your word against his, then. Just my opinion. I could be wrong.. :-)) Hugs, Jo Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 10, 2005 Well, first I have to convince her that leaving his practice would be the best thing for her..she is hedging on it. However, I will be drafting to him a letter expressing my concern over his lack of consideration for her immediate issues and since she seems determined to keep him ask that we work on pulling together a collective history of her health so he has a better idea on who he is working with. I'll give anyone a second chance but hes going to have to prove his worth to me at this point. However, he will also realize that I will follow every step of his treatment, question what I feel necessary and deny what I feel is inappropriate. All I know is that Im exhausted having played this for the last 24hrs on top of being sick myself with pneumonia. Thankfully i have been home all week but its starting to catch up with me. thank you for your support and I really hope that Ive made the right decisions and that she has too. Hugs Donna > Donna - Whatever helps, I'd be glad to do. You're right, though, making sure that your mom has the best care needs to be your first priority. Hope you'll be able to find your own persoanl compromise with all of this. Barbara > Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 10, 2005 You're right Jo. However, as I wrote in an earlier post..I dont know that its going to make much difference, its my mother who this morning decided that she wants to keep him..WHY?? I dont know. So do I still send it to his superiors knowing she is still being treated by him? I havent been able to get her to change her mind and I dont know why she wants to stay, she simply wont budge. I cant make her change drs but now I dont want to jeopordize her future treatment should I send a letter. No, I dont want him treating others like he did her, but Im not sure what the best options are now that shes made up her mind. Im struggling with it here but Im sure I'll find a solution. Thank you for your input Jo Hugs Donna Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 12, 2005 Thanks , Im doing alright, starting to feel a little more human. Ive actually been out alot today doing stuff that I havent been able to do all week. My back is killing me but other than that Im doing alright, I think the good Dr caught it nice and early..*phew* Hope you and your hubby are feeling at least a little bit better today! Hugs Donna > I hope u start feeling better and thank you for thinking of us even > though you yourself are sick hun. > Take it easy and get better soon!!! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 12, 2005 Im doing alright today Barbara thanks. Im tired but I feel alot better. I think I caught it early. I've been out most of the day shopping with my daughter but Im starting to feel the effects of less sleep than I really need so I hope to sleep in tomorrow morning..well at least until 8am. LOL Hugs Donna > Donna - Glad to hear that the antibiotics are helping but please give yourself the time that you need to recuperate. Missing one extra day of work would be just small potatoes if it meant the difference of your feeling better in the long run. Sending you lots of good juice and chicken soup. Barbara > Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 15, 2005 Barbara Im doing alright, the pneumonia ia slow in leaving and Im back working so its probably going to take a bit longer but eh what can you do huh? Im taking a long weekend and going to Vermont at the end of the week so I'll rest up while Im there...too small a town to get into too much trouble LOL. We are going to Grafton with a population of about 700 ahhhhhh...cant wait! Hope today finds you feeling well rested! Hugs Donna > Thanks, Donna. Maybe rest will be on the agenda for today as it hasn't worked so well thus far. I'm sorry to hear from Ginny that you've been so uncomfortable lately. I hope that today gives you a break. Barbara Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 15, 2005 Barbara Im doing alright, the pneumonia ia slow in leaving and Im back working so its probably going to take a bit longer but eh what can you do huh? Im taking a long weekend and going to Vermont at the end of the week so I'll rest up while Im there...too small a town to get into too much trouble LOL. We are going to Grafton with a population of about 700 ahhhhhh...cant wait! Hope today finds you feeling well rested! Hugs Donna > Thanks, Donna. Maybe rest will be on the agenda for today as it hasn't worked so well thus far. I'm sorry to hear from Ginny that you've been so uncomfortable lately. I hope that today gives you a break. Barbara Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 15, 2005 Thanks Barbara I will definetely find those moments. I've been looking forward to this trip all month long. Its long overdue. Hope your feeling good and taking care. Hugs Donna > Donna - Glad to hear that you're going to be able to get a weekend getaway. Enjoy the peace and quiet, relax, and find soothing moments. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 21, 2005 DOnna - Thanks....Hope that your weekend was wonderful. I won't ask for all of the details but I hope that the "weather" was warm, if you catch my drift. Going away on a break with someone you love can make everything easier to tolerate sometimes. My sister is still here, watching over, helping out, and being a blessing. She's talking about taking off tomorrow in addition to having had the legal holiday, saing that she remains concerned about my jerky little self being left alone. Very grateful. Barbara Donna wrote: BarbaraIve been away all weekend and Im just catching up with the over 200 posts (ugh) but I just wanted to let you know that Im thinking of you and sorry that you are having such a rough time right now. Take care and rest.HugsDonna> Glad that you enjoyed the motor registry laugh.> Not going to write much...tired. Was in ER all night til 7AM with severe diskinesthesia and head tremors, likely from the lidocaine level going out of whack. Turned pump off for now and am taking diazepam around the clock to calm this jerking body of mine down. Probably will sleep more than write..but I am okay. They may give the okay to turn the pump back on but have to wait until the newer blood levels get back from the lab. The ones on Friday turned out to be on the edge. Who know? Maybe jsut a little more took it over. Barbara Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 22, 2005 Barbara Im glad that your sister is staying with you, the company must be very nice even if the circumstances of her extended stay isnt the greatest. It was bitterly cold in Vermont, but not sinfully warm inside LOL (wink). As well it was an indulgent weekend of food food food..something to be said for winning an all expense paid weekend to a 4 star inn located in the hills of Vermont. Suffice to say we never left a meal still hungry :)Which left plenty to " work " off later. Hugs Donna > DOnna - Thanks....Hope that your weekend was wonderful. I won't ask for all of the details but I hope that the " weather " was warm, if you catch my drift. Going away on a break with someone you love can make everything easier to tolerate sometimes. > My sister is still here, watching over, helping out, and being a blessing. She's talking about taking off tomorrow in addition to having had the legal holiday, saing that she remains concerned about my jerky little self being left alone. Very grateful. Barbara > Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 22, 2005 ROFL!!! OOOPPPSS....VERY Sinfully warm....sorry...been sucking up the paint fumes the last few days I guess Hugs Donna > Not sinfully warm? Heck. Condolences, I guess then. Barb > > Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest guest Report post Posted February 22, 2005 Figured something had to be influencing your mentality. BarbDonna wrote: ROFL!!! OOOPPPSS....VERY Sinfully warm....sorry...been sucking up the paint fumes the last few days I guessHugsDonna> Not sinfully warm? Heck. Condolences, I guess then. Barb> > Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
