Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Sweetie, it's okay to feel this, it's just part of the disease. My husband has bi-polar and believe me it drives him and me crazy, but you gotta take your meds. If you need the money to get them, it's worth it cuz then you won't have as many days like this one. It's worth it. debbi --- Enter to win a free $25 gift certificate from BlockBuster Video! http://tinyurl.com/3jdz wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Sweetie, it's okay to feel this, it's just part of the disease. My husband has bi-polar and believe me it drives him and me crazy, but you gotta take your meds. If you need the money to get them, it's worth it cuz then you won't have as many days like this one. It's worth it. debbi --- Enter to win a free $25 gift certificate from BlockBuster Video! http://tinyurl.com/3jdz wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Sweetie, it's okay to feel this, it's just part of the disease. My husband has bi-polar and believe me it drives him and me crazy, but you gotta take your meds. If you need the money to get them, it's worth it cuz then you won't have as many days like this one. It's worth it. debbi --- Enter to win a free $25 gift certificate from BlockBuster Video! http://tinyurl.com/3jdz wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie, I know you said to ignore this, but I just wanted you to know that I feel for you, and am thinking good thoughts for you as well. {{{Jacquie}}} ellen wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie, I know you said to ignore this, but I just wanted you to know that I feel for you, and am thinking good thoughts for you as well. {{{Jacquie}}} ellen wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie ~ First of all, if you lived anywhere near me you would have a friend. Trust me. None of my friends are what anyone would call *normal*. I prefer it that way :0) I know what it is like to know that you won't ever really be " normal " . My dr has dx'd me with PMDD. This can best be described as PMS from the pits of hell. LOL! I am pretty much psychotic during that time of the month. Not even sure psychotic hits the nail on the head. I ended up breaking down and just walking in the office asking for prozac again because I had two panic attacks in less than 24 hours last month. It was not good. I can't seem to get into the dr. I can't seem to make my appts for whatever reason. Been trying for 6 months. Hypoglycemia is out of control. I feel like shit from that. It just goes on and on. I am right there with you. And today I am having a really bad day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you know where I am. Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie ~ First of all, if you lived anywhere near me you would have a friend. Trust me. None of my friends are what anyone would call *normal*. I prefer it that way :0) I know what it is like to know that you won't ever really be " normal " . My dr has dx'd me with PMDD. This can best be described as PMS from the pits of hell. LOL! I am pretty much psychotic during that time of the month. Not even sure psychotic hits the nail on the head. I ended up breaking down and just walking in the office asking for prozac again because I had two panic attacks in less than 24 hours last month. It was not good. I can't seem to get into the dr. I can't seem to make my appts for whatever reason. Been trying for 6 months. Hypoglycemia is out of control. I feel like shit from that. It just goes on and on. I am right there with you. And today I am having a really bad day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you know where I am. Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie ~ First of all, if you lived anywhere near me you would have a friend. Trust me. None of my friends are what anyone would call *normal*. I prefer it that way :0) I know what it is like to know that you won't ever really be " normal " . My dr has dx'd me with PMDD. This can best be described as PMS from the pits of hell. LOL! I am pretty much psychotic during that time of the month. Not even sure psychotic hits the nail on the head. I ended up breaking down and just walking in the office asking for prozac again because I had two panic attacks in less than 24 hours last month. It was not good. I can't seem to get into the dr. I can't seem to make my appts for whatever reason. Been trying for 6 months. Hypoglycemia is out of control. I feel like shit from that. It just goes on and on. I am right there with you. And today I am having a really bad day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you know where I am. Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! wah - ot every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. Jacquie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 > day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute > man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you > know where I am. And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti! -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 > day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute > man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you > know where I am. And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti! -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 > day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute > man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you > know where I am. And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti! -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 I wanna go I just can't take it today. I am having a really bad day and Cherokee has trusted me with her turtle. Wonderful Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! RE: wah - ot > day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute > man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you > know where I am. And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti! -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 I wanna go I just can't take it today. I am having a really bad day and Cherokee has trusted me with her turtle. Wonderful Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! RE: wah - ot > day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute > man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you > know where I am. And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti! -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 I wanna go I just can't take it today. I am having a really bad day and Cherokee has trusted me with her turtle. Wonderful Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! RE: wah - ot > day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute > man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you > know where I am. And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti! -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that > you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and > function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. {{{{{Jacquie}}}}} > 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone > in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I > thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at > the end of the month. YUCK! > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them > to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I'm glad you figured it out and are willing to take care of it. That really is a good thing, Jacquie. That is not something Matt is able to do. By the time he figures out what's wrong, he's too far down to take action about it. > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go > away like depression can go away; that someday in the future > you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma I'm not in your position, but I'm married to someone who is. Matt would literally die without his medications. Either his blood sugar would skyrocket and he would seize to death or he would kill himself from the depression. He's had clinical depression his whole life, undx'd for most of it, and he WILL have it his whole life. Neither hid diabetes nor his depression are going to go away. He is dependant upon those medications forever. I am grateful the meds exist, but the dependance scares me. What if something happened and he couldn't get his meds? What if he just completely stops taking them? It's happened before. Last time he nearly had to be hospitalized. Actually he should have been, for both mental and physical reasons, but our doctor was a fool. I think I am rambling now but I started out to say that you're not alone. > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write > this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to > journal it. typing is much easier. This list IS my journal. -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that > you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and > function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. {{{{{Jacquie}}}}} > 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone > in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I > thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at > the end of the month. YUCK! > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them > to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I'm glad you figured it out and are willing to take care of it. That really is a good thing, Jacquie. That is not something Matt is able to do. By the time he figures out what's wrong, he's too far down to take action about it. > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go > away like depression can go away; that someday in the future > you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma I'm not in your position, but I'm married to someone who is. Matt would literally die without his medications. Either his blood sugar would skyrocket and he would seize to death or he would kill himself from the depression. He's had clinical depression his whole life, undx'd for most of it, and he WILL have it his whole life. Neither hid diabetes nor his depression are going to go away. He is dependant upon those medications forever. I am grateful the meds exist, but the dependance scares me. What if something happened and he couldn't get his meds? What if he just completely stops taking them? It's happened before. Last time he nearly had to be hospitalized. Actually he should have been, for both mental and physical reasons, but our doctor was a fool. I think I am rambling now but I started out to say that you're not alone. > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write > this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to > journal it. typing is much easier. This list IS my journal. -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that > you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and > function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. {{{{{Jacquie}}}}} > 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone > in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I > thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at > the end of the month. YUCK! > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them > to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. I'm glad you figured it out and are willing to take care of it. That really is a good thing, Jacquie. That is not something Matt is able to do. By the time he figures out what's wrong, he's too far down to take action about it. > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go > away like depression can go away; that someday in the future > you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma I'm not in your position, but I'm married to someone who is. Matt would literally die without his medications. Either his blood sugar would skyrocket and he would seize to death or he would kill himself from the depression. He's had clinical depression his whole life, undx'd for most of it, and he WILL have it his whole life. Neither hid diabetes nor his depression are going to go away. He is dependant upon those medications forever. I am grateful the meds exist, but the dependance scares me. What if something happened and he couldn't get his meds? What if he just completely stops taking them? It's happened before. Last time he nearly had to be hospitalized. Actually he should have been, for both mental and physical reasons, but our doctor was a fool. I think I am rambling now but I started out to say that you're not alone. > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write > this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to > journal it. typing is much easier. This list IS my journal. -Sara. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie: Oh, sweetie, you are *not* alone. I can promise you that me, my husband (a great many people we know) carry " stigmas, " if you will, that are routinely the subject of societal humor. There is just nothing funnier in our society (it would seem) than mental illness, retardation, addiction, herpes, being fat, etc. It is unfortunate that so much humor comes at the expense of so many. As someone else pointed out, the important thing is that you are aware of your issues and are dealing with them. That is such a huge step. My husband and I also have mood issues and aspie tendencies so I can relate. Oh, and 25 bucks to call in a prescription is a small price to pay for your piece of mind. Don't punish yourself. hugs, wah - ot > > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. > > i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. > > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. > > I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. > > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. > > the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? > > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. > > Jacquie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie: Oh, sweetie, you are *not* alone. I can promise you that me, my husband (a great many people we know) carry " stigmas, " if you will, that are routinely the subject of societal humor. There is just nothing funnier in our society (it would seem) than mental illness, retardation, addiction, herpes, being fat, etc. It is unfortunate that so much humor comes at the expense of so many. As someone else pointed out, the important thing is that you are aware of your issues and are dealing with them. That is such a huge step. My husband and I also have mood issues and aspie tendencies so I can relate. Oh, and 25 bucks to call in a prescription is a small price to pay for your piece of mind. Don't punish yourself. hugs, wah - ot > > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. > > i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. > > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. > > I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. > > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. > > the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? > > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. > > Jacquie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Jacquie: Oh, sweetie, you are *not* alone. I can promise you that me, my husband (a great many people we know) carry " stigmas, " if you will, that are routinely the subject of societal humor. There is just nothing funnier in our society (it would seem) than mental illness, retardation, addiction, herpes, being fat, etc. It is unfortunate that so much humor comes at the expense of so many. As someone else pointed out, the important thing is that you are aware of your issues and are dealing with them. That is such a huge step. My husband and I also have mood issues and aspie tendencies so I can relate. Oh, and 25 bucks to call in a prescription is a small price to pay for your piece of mind. Don't punish yourself. hugs, wah - ot > > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. > > i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. > > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. > > I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. > > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. > > the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? > > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. > > Jacquie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Herpes is funny? I only thought my comments about the herpe med adverts on TV were funny. Sigh. The only fat I find funny is mine, and I find it funny in an ironic sort of way and since it is my fat I am allowed to make jokes about it. I seriously don't understand why we socieity in general has to make jokes at others expence. It's wrong. I don't get it. Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! wah - ot > > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. > > i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. > > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. > > I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. > > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. > > the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? > > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. > > Jacquie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Herpes is funny? I only thought my comments about the herpe med adverts on TV were funny. Sigh. The only fat I find funny is mine, and I find it funny in an ironic sort of way and since it is my fat I am allowed to make jokes about it. I seriously don't understand why we socieity in general has to make jokes at others expence. It's wrong. I don't get it. Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! wah - ot > > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. > > i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. > > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. > > I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. > > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. > > the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? > > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. > > Jacquie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Herpes is funny? I only thought my comments about the herpe med adverts on TV were funny. Sigh. The only fat I find funny is mine, and I find it funny in an ironic sort of way and since it is my fat I am allowed to make jokes about it. I seriously don't understand why we socieity in general has to make jokes at others expence. It's wrong. I don't get it. Georga Hackworth www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books! wah - ot > > every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible. > > i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of the month. > > i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying. > > I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds. > > you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air. > > the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you? > > oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much easier. > > Jacquie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Lots of deep pressure being sent your way, Jacquie! Sue ----- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 10, 2003 Report Share Posted January 10, 2003 Lots of deep pressure being sent your way, Jacquie! Sue ----- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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