Re: wah - ot

[Guest guest]

Sweetie, it's okay to feel this, it's just part of the disease. My

husband has bi-polar and believe me it drives him and me crazy, but you

gotta take your meds. If you need the money to get them, it's worth it

cuz then you won't have as many days like this one. It's worth it.

debbi

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wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod

it is heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one.

so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i

haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because

it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc

has no openings until my appt at the end of the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to

phone it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE

okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off

my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the

movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as

the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out

there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need

it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a

statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all

too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around

forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to

breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this

all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it.

typing is much easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Sweetie, it's okay to feel this, it's just part of the disease. My

husband has bi-polar and believe me it drives him and me crazy, but you

gotta take your meds. If you need the money to get them, it's worth it

cuz then you won't have as many days like this one. It's worth it.

debbi

---

Enter to win a free $25 gift certificate from BlockBuster Video!

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wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod

it is heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one.

so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i

haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because

it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc

has no openings until my appt at the end of the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to

phone it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE

okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off

my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the

movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as

the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out

there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need

it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a

statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all

too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around

forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to

breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this

all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it.

typing is much easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Sweetie, it's okay to feel this, it's just part of the disease. My

husband has bi-polar and believe me it drives him and me crazy, but you

gotta take your meds. If you need the money to get them, it's worth it

cuz then you won't have as many days like this one. It's worth it.

debbi

---

Enter to win a free $25 gift certificate from BlockBuster Video!

http://tinyurl.com/3jdz

wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod

it is heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one.

so every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i

haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because

it's $25 every time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc

has no openings until my appt at the end of the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to

phone it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE

okay. if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off

my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the

movies and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as

the audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out

there) you just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need

it anymore. but you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a

statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all

too true. You have this label that's going to follow you around

forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not safe to

breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this

all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it.

typing is much easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Jacquie,

I know you said to ignore this, but I just wanted you to know that I feel

for you, and am thinking good thoughts for you as well. {{{Jacquie}}}

ellen

wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Jacquie,

I know you said to ignore this, but I just wanted you to know that I feel

for you, and am thinking good thoughts for you as well. {{{Jacquie}}}

ellen

wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Jacquie ~

First of all, if you lived anywhere near me you would have a friend. Trust me.

None of my friends are what anyone would call *normal*. I prefer it that way

:0)

I know what it is like to know that you won't ever really be " normal " . My dr

has dx'd me with PMDD. This can best be described as PMS from the pits of hell.

LOL! I am pretty much psychotic during that time of the month. Not even sure

psychotic hits the nail on the head. I ended up breaking down and just walking

in the office asking for prozac again because I had two panic attacks in less

than 24 hours last month. It was not good.

I can't seem to get into the dr. I can't seem to make my appts for whatever

reason. Been trying for 6 months. Hypoglycemia is out of control. I feel like

shit from that. It just goes on and on.

I am right there with you. And today I am having a really bad day. Let's just

run away somewhere really cool and find a cute man servent to take care of us

:0). If you ever need me, you know where I am.

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized

that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher

night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in

and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and

I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of

the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it

in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face

that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of

you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function

like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv

( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs,

since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this

unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always

do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI

as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to

follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not

safe to breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric

nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out

for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much

easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Jacquie ~

First of all, if you lived anywhere near me you would have a friend. Trust me.

None of my friends are what anyone would call *normal*. I prefer it that way

:0)

I know what it is like to know that you won't ever really be " normal " . My dr

has dx'd me with PMDD. This can best be described as PMS from the pits of hell.

LOL! I am pretty much psychotic during that time of the month. Not even sure

psychotic hits the nail on the head. I ended up breaking down and just walking

in the office asking for prozac again because I had two panic attacks in less

than 24 hours last month. It was not good.

I can't seem to get into the dr. I can't seem to make my appts for whatever

reason. Been trying for 6 months. Hypoglycemia is out of control. I feel like

shit from that. It just goes on and on.

I am right there with you. And today I am having a really bad day. Let's just

run away somewhere really cool and find a cute man servent to take care of us

:0). If you ever need me, you know where I am.

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized

that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher

night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in

and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and

I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of

the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it

in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face

that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of

you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function

like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv

( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs,

since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this

unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always

do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI

as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to

follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not

safe to breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric

nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out

for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much

easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

Jacquie ~

First of all, if you lived anywhere near me you would have a friend. Trust me.

None of my friends are what anyone would call *normal*. I prefer it that way

:0)

I know what it is like to know that you won't ever really be " normal " . My dr

has dx'd me with PMDD. This can best be described as PMS from the pits of hell.

LOL! I am pretty much psychotic during that time of the month. Not even sure

psychotic hits the nail on the head. I ended up breaking down and just walking

in the office asking for prozac again because I had two panic attacks in less

than 24 hours last month. It was not good.

I can't seem to get into the dr. I can't seem to make my appts for whatever

reason. Been trying for 6 months. Hypoglycemia is out of control. I feel like

shit from that. It just goes on and on.

I am right there with you. And today I am having a really bad day. Let's just

run away somewhere really cool and find a cute man servent to take care of us

:0). If you ever need me, you know where I am.

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

wah - ot

every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then realized

that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so every oher

night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in

and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and

I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at the end of

the month.

i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone it

in. i'm just stting here crying.

I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time. face

that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay. if any of

you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to function

like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies and on tv

( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the audience laughs,

since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you just have this

unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but you do. you always

do, and you always will. you're a statistic now. you're on TV shows like CSI

as a stereotype that is all too true. You have this label that's going to

follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and people cringe like it's not

safe to breathe your air.

the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a psychiatric

nurse. what does THAT tell you?

oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all out

for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is much

easier.

Jacquie

[Guest guest]

> day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute

> man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you

> know where I am.

And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti!

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

> day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute

> man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you

> know where I am.

And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti!

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

> day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute

> man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you

> know where I am.

And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti!

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

I wanna go

I just can't take it today.

I am having a really bad day and Cherokee has trusted me with her turtle.

Wonderful

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

RE: wah - ot

> day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute

> man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you

> know where I am.

And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti!

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

I wanna go

I just can't take it today.

I am having a really bad day and Cherokee has trusted me with her turtle.

Wonderful

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

RE: wah - ot

> day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute

> man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you

> know where I am.

And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti!

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

I wanna go

I just can't take it today.

I am having a really bad day and Cherokee has trusted me with her turtle.

Wonderful

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

RE: wah - ot

> day. Let's just run away somewhere really cool and find a cute

> man servent to take care of us :0). If you ever need me, you

> know where I am.

And she doesn't even know about the yurt in Tahiti!

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that

> you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and

> function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible.

{{{{{Jacquie}}}}}

> 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone

> in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I

> thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at

> the end of the month.

YUCK!

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them

> to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I'm glad you figured it out and are willing to take care of it. That really

is a good thing, Jacquie.

That is not something Matt is able to do. By the time he figures out what's

wrong, he's too far down to take action about it.

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go

> away like depression can go away; that someday in the future

> you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma

I'm not in your position, but I'm married to someone who is. Matt would

literally die without his medications. Either his blood sugar would

skyrocket and he would seize to death or he would kill himself from the

depression. He's had clinical depression his whole life, undx'd for most of

it, and he WILL have it his whole life. Neither hid diabetes nor his

depression are going to go away. He is dependant upon those medications

forever.

I am grateful the meds exist, but the dependance scares me. What if

something happened and he couldn't get his meds? What if he just completely

stops taking them? It's happened before. Last time he nearly had to be

hospitalized. Actually he should have been, for both mental and physical

reasons, but our doctor was a fool.

I think I am rambling now but I started out to say that you're not alone.

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write

> this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to

> journal it. typing is much easier.

This list IS my journal.

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that

> you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and

> function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible.

{{{{{Jacquie}}}}}

> 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone

> in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I

> thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at

> the end of the month.

YUCK!

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them

> to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I'm glad you figured it out and are willing to take care of it. That really

is a good thing, Jacquie.

That is not something Matt is able to do. By the time he figures out what's

wrong, he's too far down to take action about it.

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go

> away like depression can go away; that someday in the future

> you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma

I'm not in your position, but I'm married to someone who is. Matt would

literally die without his medications. Either his blood sugar would

skyrocket and he would seize to death or he would kill himself from the

depression. He's had clinical depression his whole life, undx'd for most of

it, and he WILL have it his whole life. Neither hid diabetes nor his

depression are going to go away. He is dependant upon those medications

forever.

I am grateful the meds exist, but the dependance scares me. What if

something happened and he couldn't get his meds? What if he just completely

stops taking them? It's happened before. Last time he nearly had to be

hospitalized. Actually he should have been, for both mental and physical

reasons, but our doctor was a fool.

I think I am rambling now but I started out to say that you're not alone.

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write

> this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to

> journal it. typing is much easier.

This list IS my journal.

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that

> you ARE mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and

> function, and ohmygod it is heartbreaking and horrible.

{{{{{Jacquie}}}}}

> 1200mg dose. i haven't wanted to call in and ask them to phone

> in the script because it's $25 every time you do that, and I

> thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings until my appt at

> the end of the month.

YUCK!

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them

> to phone it in. i'm just stting here crying.

I'm glad you figured it out and are willing to take care of it. That really

is a good thing, Jacquie.

That is not something Matt is able to do. By the time he figures out what's

wrong, he's too far down to take action about it.

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go

> away like depression can go away; that someday in the future

> you'll be able to function like anybody else and lose the stigma

I'm not in your position, but I'm married to someone who is. Matt would

literally die without his medications. Either his blood sugar would

skyrocket and he would seize to death or he would kill himself from the

depression. He's had clinical depression his whole life, undx'd for most of

it, and he WILL have it his whole life. Neither hid diabetes nor his

depression are going to go away. He is dependant upon those medications

forever.

I am grateful the meds exist, but the dependance scares me. What if

something happened and he couldn't get his meds? What if he just completely

stops taking them? It's happened before. Last time he nearly had to be

hospitalized. Actually he should have been, for both mental and physical

reasons, but our doctor was a fool.

I think I am rambling now but I started out to say that you're not alone.

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write

> this all out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to

> journal it. typing is much easier.

This list IS my journal.

-Sara.

[Guest guest]

Jacquie:

Oh, sweetie, you are *not* alone. I can promise you that me, my husband (a

great many people we know) carry " stigmas, " if you will, that are routinely

the subject of societal humor. There is just nothing funnier in our society

(it would seem) than mental illness, retardation, addiction, herpes, being

fat, etc. It is unfortunate that so much humor comes at the expense of so

many.

As someone else pointed out, the important thing is that you are aware of

your issues and are dealing with them. That is such a huge step. My

husband and I also have mood issues and aspie tendencies so I can relate.

Oh, and 25 bucks to call in a prescription is a small price to pay for your

piece of mind. Don't punish yourself.

hugs,

wah - ot

>

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

>

> i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

>

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

>

> I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

>

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

>

> the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

>

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

>

> Jacquie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Jacquie:

Oh, sweetie, you are *not* alone. I can promise you that me, my husband (a

great many people we know) carry " stigmas, " if you will, that are routinely

the subject of societal humor. There is just nothing funnier in our society

(it would seem) than mental illness, retardation, addiction, herpes, being

fat, etc. It is unfortunate that so much humor comes at the expense of so

many.

As someone else pointed out, the important thing is that you are aware of

your issues and are dealing with them. That is such a huge step. My

husband and I also have mood issues and aspie tendencies so I can relate.

Oh, and 25 bucks to call in a prescription is a small price to pay for your

piece of mind. Don't punish yourself.

hugs,

wah - ot

>

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

>

> i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

>

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

>

> I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

>

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

>

> the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

>

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

>

> Jacquie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Jacquie:

Oh, sweetie, you are *not* alone. I can promise you that me, my husband (a

great many people we know) carry " stigmas, " if you will, that are routinely

the subject of societal humor. There is just nothing funnier in our society

(it would seem) than mental illness, retardation, addiction, herpes, being

fat, etc. It is unfortunate that so much humor comes at the expense of so

many.

As someone else pointed out, the important thing is that you are aware of

your issues and are dealing with them. That is such a huge step. My

husband and I also have mood issues and aspie tendencies so I can relate.

Oh, and 25 bucks to call in a prescription is a small price to pay for your

piece of mind. Don't punish yourself.

hugs,

wah - ot

>

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

>

> i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

>

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

>

> I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

>

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

>

> the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

>

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

>

> Jacquie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Herpes is funny? I only thought my comments about the herpe med adverts on TV

were funny. Sigh.

The only fat I find funny is mine, and I find it funny in an ironic sort of way

and since it is my fat I am allowed to make jokes about it.

I seriously don't understand why we socieity in general has to make jokes at

others expence. It's wrong. I don't get it.

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

wah - ot

>

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

>

> i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

>

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

>

> I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

>

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

>

> the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

>

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

>

> Jacquie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Herpes is funny? I only thought my comments about the herpe med adverts on TV

were funny. Sigh.

The only fat I find funny is mine, and I find it funny in an ironic sort of way

and since it is my fat I am allowed to make jokes about it.

I seriously don't understand why we socieity in general has to make jokes at

others expence. It's wrong. I don't get it.

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

wah - ot

>

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

>

> i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

>

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

>

> I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

>

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

>

> the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

>

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

>

> Jacquie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Herpes is funny? I only thought my comments about the herpe med adverts on TV

were funny. Sigh.

The only fat I find funny is mine, and I find it funny in an ironic sort of way

and since it is my fat I am allowed to make jokes about it.

I seriously don't understand why we socieity in general has to make jokes at

others expence. It's wrong. I don't get it.

Georga Hackworth

www.ubah.com/F1549 Enter to win $50 in FREE books!

wah - ot

>

> every once in a while you have a moment when you realize that you ARE

mentally ill, and you NEED your meds to live and function, and ohmygod it is

heartbreaking and horrible.

>

> i missed my last dr appt for some reason I dont' remember, and then

realized that i didn't have enough lithium to make it to the next one. so

every oher night i've been skipping 600mg of my 1200mg dose. i haven't

wanted to call in and ask them to phone in the script because it's $25 every

time you do that, and I thought i could dothis. my doc has no openings

until my appt at the end of the month.

>

> i have to call in 15 minutes when the clinic reopens and get them to phone

it in. i'm just stting here crying.

>

> I just can't tell you what it's like to have to face this all the time.

face that i AM mentally ill, that I'm NOT okay, that I never WILL BE okay.

if any of you watched CSI last night -- yup, that girl was me off my meds.

>

> you can't help but think that something like bipolar could go away like

depression can go away; that someday in the future you'll be able to

function like anybody else and lose the stigma of being a joke in the movies

and on tv ( " did he forget to take his lithium " ? hahahahahaha " as the

audience laughs, since EVERYBODY knows the oldest crazy joke out there) you

just have this unspoken belief that someday you won't need it anymore. but

you do. you always do, and you always will. you're a statistic now.

you're on TV shows like CSI as a stereotype that is all too true. You have

this label that's going to follow you around forever. you say 'lithium' and

people cringe like it's not safe to breathe your air.

>

> the only friends I have in real life are a fellow bipolar and a

psychiatric nurse. what does THAT tell you?

>

> oh, hell. again, ignore this. apparently i have a need to write this all

out for muself and I just odn't have the energy to journal it. typing is

much easier.

>

> Jacquie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Lots of deep pressure being sent your way, Jacquie!

Sue

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[Guest guest]

Lots of deep pressure being sent your way, Jacquie!

Sue

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