Re: Pity party for Topper

January 1, 2006

Me too, Pard

hugs

Pity party for Topper

> I've spent a couple of days now chanting... my mantra..... I'm well

> enough to get sick.... getting sick is a good sign..... but... well...

> getting sick sucks.

>

> I went for years and years as a hyper never getting periods, never

> getting sick... I was immune to everything..... then I went long term

> hypo.... through the inexcusable abuse that was called 'under doctor's

> care' and ended up having such low body temp and low metabolic rate that

> my body couldn't support bacterial or viral illness.

>

> It was a cause for celebration the first time I got a cold... it meant

> that my body finally had a body temp high enough to get sick......

>

> Whatever I have come down with this time... just sucks.... it's built up

> for a couple of days, starting with a several short sleep night followed

> by two more.... when I woke with the severe headache I just tried to

> brush it off as lack of sleep..... but it just didn't want to go

> away.....

>

> By the end of that day I was becoming more relaxed and it all just

> stopped.... But I was kept up again that night by rude and inconsiderate

> cretins and went short on sleep again.... I managed to fuddle through

> that day, yesterday.... and it didn't seem so bad..... but I went to bed

> last night, a bit early, actually... but was so headachy and stiff and

> cranky that I just couldn't get comfortable to sleep.... I tried

> valiantly for a couple of hours and then gave up....

>

> So... It's about 7:30 at night.... I've been up since 1:30 this

> morning... the headache is severe enough to bring tears.... I can't lay

> or sit or stand or walk without it throbbing.... I'm not taking any more

> pain meds, they've not touched it in the least (took 1 tab doses three

> times during the day, with no effect I doubt that taking any more will

> help, and I've run out anyway.... took over a year to use up that 30 tab

> bottle... I used to take twice that in just one day).

>

> I'm whinning.... so if you want to stop now... you won't miss

> anything.....

>

> I've worked at hydrating....

> Been REALLY OCD about taking my thyroid doses on time.

> Ate regularly.

> Tried deep breathing and gentle stretches....

> Did my chanting... mantra.... humming thing that is supposed to help calm

> the body, and often does for me.....

> Tried to get involved in a project that actually ended up making me feel

> worse.....

>

> ....and in between all of this I took my temp.... it's 101.. so I do have

> a fever... my normal daytime temp is pretty steady at about 98.4 to

> 98.6....

>

> It's bad enough, still... where I won't be able to lay down to sleep...

> and I don't sleep well sitting up.. not that it hurts any less sitting

> up.....

>

> I've not done any unusual physical activity... no odd lifting or

> bending... but I did do some shoveling the first day after the 'short

> sleep' night.....

>

> My gut is telling me that this is more of an accumulated thing... a bit

> too much physical (shoveling) after a night with not enough

> sleep...followed by two more nights being short on sleep... combined with

> a severe attitude at the person that was keeping me from going to bed on

> time despite my pretty much telling her that I wanted to go to bed.......

>

> So.... I need to do some more relaxing.... and calming.... and mental

> focus realignment (ie getting away from being pissed off and letting it

> go - fuming about it ain't gonna change what happened - I NEED to let it

> go)

>

> I feel too warm but don't want to turn the thermostat down any more (it's

> at 64 right now) cuz if I am fighting a real 'sick bug' my body needs a

> fever to attack the bug and get me well... .but I'm just

>

> arrrrhhhhhhhhggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhffffffftttttt

>

> someone make me feel better......

>

> end of pity party

>

> Topper ()

>

January 1, 2006

>

> I've spent a couple of days now chanting... my mantra..... I'm well

> enough to get sick.... getting sick is a good sign..... but...

well...

> getting sick sucks.

>

> I went for years and years as a hyper never getting periods, never

> getting sick... I was immune to everything..... then I went long

term

> hypo.... through the inexcusable abuse that was called 'under

doctor's

> care' and ended up having such low body temp and low metabolic

rate that

> my body couldn't support bacterial or viral illness.

>

> It was a cause for celebration the first time I got a cold... it

meant

> that my body finally had a body temp high enough to get sick......

>

> Whatever I have come down with this time... just sucks.... it's

built up

> for a couple of days, starting with a several short sleep night

followed

> by two more.... when I woke with the severe headache I just tried

to

> brush it off as lack of sleep..... but it just didn't want to go

> away.....

>

> By the end of that day I was becoming more relaxed and it all just

> stopped.... But I was kept up again that night by rude and

inconsiderate

> cretins and went short on sleep again.... I managed to fuddle

through

> that day, yesterday.... and it didn't seem so bad..... but I went

to bed

> last night, a bit early, actually... but was so headachy and stiff

and

> cranky that I just couldn't get comfortable to sleep.... I tried

> valiantly for a couple of hours and then gave up....

>

> So... It's about 7:30 at night.... I've been up since 1:30 this

> morning... the headache is severe enough to bring tears.... I

can't lay

> or sit or stand or walk without it throbbing.... I'm not taking

any more

> pain meds, they've not touched it in the least (took 1 tab doses

three

> times during the day, with no effect I doubt that taking any more

will

> help, and I've run out anyway.... took over a year to use up that

30 tab

> bottle... I used to take twice that in just one day).

>

> I'm whinning.... so if you want to stop now... you won't miss

> anything.....

>

> I've worked at hydrating....

> Been REALLY OCD about taking my thyroid doses on time.

> Ate regularly.

> Tried deep breathing and gentle stretches....

> Did my chanting... mantra.... humming thing that is supposed to

help calm

> the body, and often does for me.....

> Tried to get involved in a project that actually ended up making

me feel

> worse.....

>

> ....and in between all of this I took my temp.... it's 101.. so I

do have

> a fever... my normal daytime temp is pretty steady at about 98.4 to

> 98.6....

>

> It's bad enough, still... where I won't be able to lay down to

sleep...

> and I don't sleep well sitting up.. not that it hurts any less

sitting

> up.....

>

> I've not done any unusual physical activity... no odd lifting or

> bending... but I did do some shoveling the first day after

the 'short

> sleep' night.....

>

> My gut is telling me that this is more of an accumulated thing...

a bit

> too much physical (shoveling) after a night with not enough

> sleep...followed by two more nights being short on sleep...

combined with

> a severe attitude at the person that was keeping me from going to

bed on

> time despite my pretty much telling her that I wanted to go to

bed.......

>

> So.... I need to do some more relaxing.... and calming.... and

mental

> focus realignment (ie getting away from being pissed off and

letting it

> go - fuming about it ain't gonna change what happened - I NEED to

let it

> go)

>

> I feel too warm but don't want to turn the thermostat down any

more (it's

> at 64 right now) cuz if I am fighting a real 'sick bug' my body

needs a

> fever to attack the bug and get me well... .but I'm just

>

> arrrrhhhhhhhhggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhffffffftttttt

>

> someone make me feel better......

>

> end of pity party

>

> Topper ()

>

Sorry you are having a rought time.. Sounds like you are sick

though..almost sounds like a sinus infection. Have you checked your

tonsils out for inflammation?

Kats3boys

January 1, 2006

Hang in there, Topper....I'm getting over the flu and

everyone else around me has it too. I couldn't sleep,

I went from hot and cold, irritable bowels, and

stabbing headaches that wouldn't go away...it lasted a

couple days....

Maybe what you're feeling right now could be the

flu...on top of everything else we have to deal with

because of our thyroid disorders...can you take

something to help you sleep? Try to relax and be

gentle to yourself....

(((hugs))) M.

> Pity party for

> Topper

>

> > I've spent a couple of days now chanting... my

> mantra..... I'm well

> > enough to get sick.... getting sick is a good

> sign..... but... well...

> > getting sick sucks.

> >

> > I went for years and years as a hyper never

> getting periods, never

> > getting sick... I was immune to everything.....

> then I went long term

> > hypo.... through the inexcusable abuse that was

> called 'under doctor's

> > care' and ended up having such low body temp and

> low metabolic rate that

> > my body couldn't support bacterial or viral

> illness.

> >

> > It was a cause for celebration the first time I

> got a cold... it meant

> > that my body finally had a body temp high enough

> to get sick......

> >

> > Whatever I have come down with this time... just

> sucks.... it's built up

> > for a couple of days, starting with a several

> short sleep night followed

> > by two more.... when I woke with the severe

> headache I just tried to

> > brush it off as lack of sleep..... but it just

> didn't want to go

> > away.....

> >

> > By the end of that day I was becoming more relaxed

> and it all just

> > stopped.... But I was kept up again that night by

> rude and inconsiderate

> > cretins and went short on sleep again.... I

> managed to fuddle through

> > that day, yesterday.... and it didn't seem so

> bad..... but I went to bed

> > last night, a bit early, actually... but was so

> headachy and stiff and

> > cranky that I just couldn't get comfortable to

> sleep.... I tried

> > valiantly for a couple of hours and then gave

> up....

> >

> > So... It's about 7:30 at night.... I've been up

> since 1:30 this

> > morning... the headache is severe enough to bring

> tears.... I can't lay

> > or sit or stand or walk without it throbbing....

> I'm not taking any more

> > pain meds, they've not touched it in the least

> (took 1 tab doses three

> > times during the day, with no effect I doubt that

> taking any more will

> > help, and I've run out anyway.... took over a year

> to use up that 30 tab

> > bottle... I used to take twice that in just one

> day).

> >

> > I'm whinning.... so if you want to stop now... you

> won't miss

> > anything.....

> >

> > I've worked at hydrating....

> > Been REALLY OCD about taking my thyroid doses on

> time.

> > Ate regularly.

> > Tried deep breathing and gentle stretches....

> > Did my chanting... mantra.... humming thing that

> is supposed to help calm

> > the body, and often does for me.....

> > Tried to get involved in a project that actually

> ended up making me feel

> > worse.....

> >

> > ....and in between all of this I took my temp....

> it's 101.. so I do have

> > a fever... my normal daytime temp is pretty steady

> at about 98.4 to

> > 98.6....

> >

> > It's bad enough, still... where I won't be able to

> lay down to sleep...

> > and I don't sleep well sitting up.. not that it

> hurts any less sitting

> > up.....

> >

> > I've not done any unusual physical activity... no

> odd lifting or

> > bending... but I did do some shoveling the first

> day after the 'short

> > sleep' night.....

> >

> > My gut is telling me that this is more of an

> accumulated thing... a bit

> > too much physical (shoveling) after a night with

> not enough

> > sleep...followed by two more nights being short on

> sleep... combined with

> > a severe attitude at the person that was keeping

> me from going to bed on

> > time despite my pretty much telling her that I

> wanted to go to bed.......

> >

> > So.... I need to do some more relaxing.... and

> calming.... and mental

> > focus realignment (ie getting away from being

> pissed off and letting it

> > go - fuming about it ain't gonna change what

> happened - I NEED to let it

> > go)

> >

> > I feel too warm but don't want to turn the

> thermostat down any more (it's

> > at 64 right now) cuz if I am fighting a real 'sick

> bug' my body needs a

> > fever to attack the bug and get me well... .but

> I'm just

> >

> > arrrrhhhhhhhhggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhffffffftttttt

> >

> > someone make me feel better......

> >

> > end of pity party

> >

> > Topper ()

> >

January 1, 2006

Sorry to hear Topper. Here's some organic, chemical free, chicken

soup...... Let us know when you're feeling better and how you did

it.

I am so surprised I haven't got sick with all this stress and in all

these drs offices and labs with sick people, germs, ick. I got my

flu shot, hubby hasn't got his. He usually does. We're going away

for a bit next week, a rest from the stress the last 3 months. My

cancered body comes with us, but it will be a break from the stress.

It will be good. We had reservations, condo and plane, for 2 weeks

in Key West just weeks before this huge thyroid showed up. We had

to cancel those plans. The unrefunded condo deposit hurt. We're

thinking I might up to doing Key West in April. It was supposed to

be my 50th birthday present. We used to live in Key West, so it has

a place in our hearts. It may be that thinking of Key West, my

mental happy place, has helped reduce stress. Going off to my happy

place in my mind...........

Here's your chicken soup, Topper.

jane

>

> I've spent a couple of days now chanting... my mantra..... I'm well

> enough to get sick.... getting sick is a good sign..... but...

well...

> getting sick sucks.

>

> I went for years and years as a hyper never getting periods, never

> getting sick... I was immune to everything..... then I went long

term

> hypo.... through the inexcusable abuse that was called 'under

doctor's

> care' and ended up having such low body temp and low metabolic

rate that

> my body couldn't support bacterial or viral illness.

>

> It was a cause for celebration the first time I got a cold... it

meant

> that my body finally had a body temp high enough to get sick......

>

> Whatever I have come down with this time... just sucks.... it's

built up

> for a couple of days, starting with a several short sleep night

followed

> by two more.... when I woke with the severe headache I just tried

to

> brush it off as lack of sleep..... but it just didn't want to go

> away.....

>

> By the end of that day I was becoming more relaxed and it all just

> stopped.... But I was kept up again that night by rude and

inconsiderate

> cretins and went short on sleep again.... I managed to fuddle

through

> that day, yesterday.... and it didn't seem so bad..... but I went

to bed

> last night, a bit early, actually... but was so headachy and stiff

and

> cranky that I just couldn't get comfortable to sleep.... I tried

> valiantly for a couple of hours and then gave up....

>

> So... It's about 7:30 at night.... I've been up since 1:30 this

> morning... the headache is severe enough to bring tears.... I

can't lay

> or sit or stand or walk without it throbbing.... I'm not taking

any more

> pain meds, they've not touched it in the least (took 1 tab doses

three

> times during the day, with no effect I doubt that taking any more

will

> help, and I've run out anyway.... took over a year to use up that

30 tab

> bottle... I used to take twice that in just one day).

>

> I'm whinning.... so if you want to stop now... you won't miss

> anything.....

>

> I've worked at hydrating....

> Been REALLY OCD about taking my thyroid doses on time.

> Ate regularly.

> Tried deep breathing and gentle stretches....

> Did my chanting... mantra.... humming thing that is supposed to

help calm

> the body, and often does for me.....

> Tried to get involved in a project that actually ended up making

me feel

> worse.....

>

> ....and in between all of this I took my temp.... it's 101.. so I

do have

> a fever... my normal daytime temp is pretty steady at about 98.4 to

> 98.6....

>

> It's bad enough, still... where I won't be able to lay down to

sleep...

> and I don't sleep well sitting up.. not that it hurts any less

sitting

> up.....

>

> I've not done any unusual physical activity... no odd lifting or

> bending... but I did do some shoveling the first day after

the 'short

> sleep' night.....

>

> My gut is telling me that this is more of an accumulated thing...

a bit

> too much physical (shoveling) after a night with not enough

> sleep...followed by two more nights being short on sleep...

combined with

> a severe attitude at the person that was keeping me from going to

bed on

> time despite my pretty much telling her that I wanted to go to

bed.......

>

> So.... I need to do some more relaxing.... and calming.... and

mental

> focus realignment (ie getting away from being pissed off and

letting it

> go - fuming about it ain't gonna change what happened - I NEED to

let it

> go)

>

> I feel too warm but don't want to turn the thermostat down any

more (it's

> at 64 right now) cuz if I am fighting a real 'sick bug' my body

needs a

> fever to attack the bug and get me well... .but I'm just

>

> arrrrhhhhhhhhggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhffffffftttttt

>

> someone make me feel better......

>

> end of pity party

>

> Topper ()

>

January 1, 2006

--- topper2@... wrote:

> I've spent a couple of days now chanting... my

> mantra..... I'm well

> enough to get sick.... getting sick is a good

> sign..... but... well...

> getting sick sucks.

>

***** mucho snippage *****

{{{{{{{{{{Topper}}}}}}}}}} I hate to say it, but it

sounds like you may have the 'flu. If you are running

a fever of 101, then you are well and truly one sick

puppy. I'm sorry. I've had a headache all day, but I

also feel like my BP is up. I'll check it when I get

home from work tonight in about 2 hours. I haven't

had the 'flu for about 21 years now, and trust me, I

haven't missed it a bit. You do not need to turn down

the thermostat anymore than it is now. I've been

keeping my house at 65 degrees and it's a little cool.

Just drink plenty of fluids and keep to your eating

and dosing schedule and just chill. Getting involved

in a project won't help, you need to REST, even though

you don't feel like it. We love you and need you to

get well as fast as possible.

Kathy >^,,^<

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January 2, 2006

It's the next morning.... I spend some time in IM with Tina... doing some pain analysis.. that works so much better with someone else that can actually think about more than the HURT..... She came up with some relaxation things for migraine to try and it worked wonders.... I was able to fall asleep so quickly that I have no idea how long it took.... I slept very deep and very sound and woke up feeling tons better... but, sad to say, not enough... I was waken by a bad dream.. not a nightmare.. but a bad one that unsettled me and wouldn't let me relax to sleep again... so I got up.....

Once I was up and had finished my potty break I was ravenous and chowed down a meal before even considering meds... a GOOD thing that I do my natural sublingually... so I ate a mini meal and then took my first thyroid dose of the day...

I didn't feel real ambitious... and since I'd eaten I couldn't take my temp... so I don't know yet where that stands. I feel sleepy but I'm gonna wait a couple more hours before I take a nap....

My tonsils are they're happy abnormal size and of normal color, my glands aren't swollen.. but my muscles on the same side of my head as my headache are very tight....

My breathing is clear.. but it's awfully dry in the house.... I'm gonna be working extra hard on bringing up humidity and sucking down water to keep my hydrated.

I feel like I'm watching for something to happen.... I don't 'feel' sick... right now I just feel sleepy.... not fatigued... not tired... not exhausted... .just sleepy... like it's time to lay down and sleep... but I want to wait until I take my next scheduled thyroid dose before I lay down.. then I'll have three hours to sleep if that is what my body wants..... and not mess up thyroid dosing to throw things off there, too......

For those that aren't too familiar with me..... I had RAI and they killed off my gland, I have no remaining function... so I'm completely dependant on hormone replacement.... from over a decade of dealing moronic stupid uncaring docs I became more and more and more hypo from insufficient hormone levels, a combo of using the wrong type of med for me and at too low a dose. I developed really bad chronic hypo problems, many of which have been greatly reduced or have gone completely since I started self treating with natural.

But...from all of this I now find that I'm a totally lousy converter and need to multi-dose my hormone.... If I don't I start to crash..... So I try my best to keep on top of the dosing schedule that works for me... if I don't I end up dealing with problems resulting from my levels dropping....

sigh..... life is SUCH fun!

So.... I'm going on the assumption that my body is fighting a bug.. hence the fever yesterday... and likely today... I was still hungry after my dose so I ate another bowl of soup... so still can't take my temp... I'll do it after my nap, before I eat again.

I'm well enough to get sick... my body can respond to invaders and I can FEEL a change..... I'm no longer a walking zombie that feels nothing but pain and cares about nothing but how soon the pain stops.....

.... my mantra for today!

Topper ()

On Mon, 02 Jan 2006 02:12:44 -0000 "kats3boys" writes:

Sorry you are having a rought time.. Sounds like you are sick though..almost sounds like a sinus infection. Have you checked your tonsils out for inflammation?Kats3boys

January 2, 2006