Introduction

July 25, 2010

Welcome Stefanie and sorry that you have to be here. This is the one place I

can come and rant when I need to (no appologies necessary - we've all been there

when nada sends us over th edge again) and come for amazing advice from people

who just get it. Your nada definitely sounds like she fits the bpd diagnosis.

I am sorry that you have to deal with suicide threats. To me, that can be the

most un-nerving manipulation strategy that nadas use. It also seems to me to be

the most blatant sign that nada has mental health issues. No sane person would

lay that on anyone they love.

We are glad you have found us Stefanie!

patinage

>

> Hello,

>

> My name is Stefanie and I'm new to this group. I had a recent incident with

my Nada and remembered that once a therepist I was seeing said to me " sounds

like she is BPD " ..I had no idea what that was. This past incident made me

remember this and I researched BPD and OH MY GOSH this is my mother...I didn't

know there was anyone else! That led me to your group I joined Sunaday and I

have been A WTO Goupie since then I have read everything you folks have

written in past week and I feel such a kinship to you all. In your stories I see

the same scared/guilt/always-tring-to-please-mommy child as me. I'm 42 years

old but a part of me is still that girl.

>

> When I was younger..I belived I was a bad lazy child and I just needed to

trying harder to please her. My mother has rages and in the rages she tries to

commit suicide. She would spend time in hospitals but never goes thru out

patient therepy becouse she says..It's not her that has a problems she is

fine...people make her want to kill herself. She is also very mean and verbaly

abusive

>

> My whole life I would hear her on the phone talking about me to her friends.

About what a unhelpful child she has. To what is she gonna do about my weight.

From the time I was 8 I cooked cleaned and took care of my little brother while

mom stayed in bed only to get up by the time dad got home. She has beaten me

black and blue usally on my back.. bit me! and put knives to my throat to get me

to do what she wants and all the time I thought my dad knew. Now I realize he

worked alot to stay away from the insanity of the home. He would always say to

me " take care of your mother " ..I could not go out and play if Mom was in a

suicidle state I had to watcher..Since I was a child I have been her therepy her

religious councler and her dr.

> I have almost lost jobs becouse i have had to take her to dr. appointment for

nonexisting aliments constantly. She likes that people feel sorry for her..she

alway is " sick and week and needs to be taken care of "

>

> Her family of 8 brothers and sister have long abandond her and she has almost

no fiends..she wears people out constantly being needy and confrontational.

Three years ago my sweet father passed away from cancer it happened real fast

and quick. While my Dad was on his death bed I could hear her fliting with a man

on the phone..3 months later she went to Florida to be with him. I was so angry

but at the same time relived becouse she told me now I have to move in with you

and you take care of me...so when she annouced that she ws in love and was going

to Florida I encouraged her. Of coure with in days she hate him too. She still

is with this man beouse she says he is going to leave her money he is much older

then her and she thinks and will let you know that she is the most beautiful

person in the world. So half the year she spends in FL and the Summer she spends

here in NH. She fights with him in Florida then come here and drives me and my

brother crazy.

>

> Well thats very little of the background but it's Summer now she is here and

she is driving me crazy...most recently I am at a point where I want to tell her

all the bad things she has done to me I want to hurt her in a way...I did a bit

of that last week and it didn't go well she told me I'm a liar. I'm making it

all up. She then faked suicide..she screamed until the neighbor lady went and

checked on her and they found her on the ground. She told the hospital that she

took a bottle of prescription sleeping pills...Dr. called me and said " your

mother is a big faker she is healthier them me " there is absolutly nothing in

her system. She told the Dr. that I made her do it. She told everyone else

too...

>

> So sorry so long I didn't intend it to be. I am greatful to have found you

guys and feel so happy others understand.

>

> thanks for listening

> Stefanie

>

June 20, 2011

Junior

well, we are both responsible, you for telling her about it, and me, well, for

supplying her with the yummy bad stuff we should not be eating, LOLOL

thanks,

sugar

' Your mind is your garden, your thoughts are your seeds.

You can grow flowers or you can grow weeds.'

~Be Blessed, Sugar

Introduction

>

> Hello To Everyone,

> I am Lora Leggett and I live near Detroit, Michigan. I am 58 years old

> and

> have been blind since birth. I am married to who is sighted but

> has

> cerebral palsy.

> We have a daughter and a son who are adults now. I have a history of

> diabetes in my family and I found out this past Monday that my blood

> sugar

> tested very high whenI had blood work done. So the doctor has given me

> glyburide once a day 500 mg plus an antibiotic for urinary tract

> infection.

> They said the sugar was 435. I had never heard of a number that high

> except when my brother drove himself to the hospital in 2009 and found

> out

> he was a diabetic among other things and his number was over 600. So I

> have

> had to start modifying my diet big time.

> I started downloading several books from the BARD web site and learning

> about counting carbs and all sorts of things.

> My brother Dan brought one of his meters over and tested me this

> afternoon

> and I was at 156.

> I guess I am not out of the woods yet but he figures I am working on it.

> I have ordered a talking glucometer and a talking scale. I was very

> uncomfortable when he was showing me the procedure but I hope with time I

> will catch onto it.

> We have a visiting doctor because my husband has been very ill

> recently and is now in bed all of the time.

> Dr. comes once a month so I have not had a chance to talk to him

> since this result came out. My new meter should be here within the week I

> hope.

> So I was told I haven't been called a diabetic yet but friends have told

> me that if that number was 435 I probably am.

> I look forward to learning more from this list.

> Nice to meet all of you I don't know and to see some of you who are

> already friends here.

> Lora

>

June 20, 2011

Junior

well, we are both responsible, you for telling her about it, and me, well, for

supplying her with the yummy bad stuff we should not be eating, LOLOL

thanks,

sugar

' Your mind is your garden, your thoughts are your seeds.

You can grow flowers or you can grow weeds.'

~Be Blessed, Sugar

Introduction

>

> Hello To Everyone,

> I am Lora Leggett and I live near Detroit, Michigan. I am 58 years old

> and

> have been blind since birth. I am married to who is sighted but

> has

> cerebral palsy.

> We have a daughter and a son who are adults now. I have a history of

> diabetes in my family and I found out this past Monday that my blood

> sugar

> tested very high whenI had blood work done. So the doctor has given me

> glyburide once a day 500 mg plus an antibiotic for urinary tract

> infection.

> They said the sugar was 435. I had never heard of a number that high

> except when my brother drove himself to the hospital in 2009 and found

> out

> he was a diabetic among other things and his number was over 600. So I

> have

> had to start modifying my diet big time.

> I started downloading several books from the BARD web site and learning

> about counting carbs and all sorts of things.

> My brother Dan brought one of his meters over and tested me this

> afternoon

> and I was at 156.

> I guess I am not out of the woods yet but he figures I am working on it.

> I have ordered a talking glucometer and a talking scale. I was very

> uncomfortable when he was showing me the procedure but I hope with time I

> will catch onto it.

> We have a visiting doctor because my husband has been very ill

> recently and is now in bed all of the time.

> Dr. comes once a month so I have not had a chance to talk to him

> since this result came out. My new meter should be here within the week I

> hope.

> So I was told I haven't been called a diabetic yet but friends have told

> me that if that number was 435 I probably am.

> I look forward to learning more from this list.

> Nice to meet all of you I don't know and to see some of you who are

> already friends here.

> Lora

>

June 20, 2011

Sugar, I don't mind sharing the responsibility grin.

But no more goodies for Lora smile.

Junior Lolley KG4itd

Liberty County Emergency Coordinator

Re: Introduction

Junior

well, we are both responsible, you for telling her about it, and me, well,

for supplying her with the yummy bad stuff we should not be eating, LOLOL

thanks,

sugar

' Your mind is your garden, your thoughts are your seeds.

You can grow flowers or you can grow weeds.'

~Be Blessed, Sugar

Introduction

>

> Hello To Everyone,

> I am Lora Leggett and I live near Detroit, Michigan. I am 58 years old

> and

> have been blind since birth. I am married to who is sighted but

> has

> cerebral palsy.

> We have a daughter and a son who are adults now. I have a history of

> diabetes in my family and I found out this past Monday that my blood

> sugar

> tested very high whenI had blood work done. So the doctor has given me

> glyburide once a day 500 mg plus an antibiotic for urinary tract

> infection.

> They said the sugar was 435. I had never heard of a number that high

> except when my brother drove himself to the hospital in 2009 and found

> out

> he was a diabetic among other things and his number was over 600. So I

> have

> had to start modifying my diet big time.

> I started downloading several books from the BARD web site and learning

> about counting carbs and all sorts of things.

> My brother Dan brought one of his meters over and tested me this

> afternoon

> and I was at 156.

> I guess I am not out of the woods yet but he figures I am working on it.

> I have ordered a talking glucometer and a talking scale. I was very

> uncomfortable when he was showing me the procedure but I hope with time I

> will catch onto it.

> We have a visiting doctor because my husband has been very ill

> recently and is now in bed all of the time.

> Dr. comes once a month so I have not had a chance to talk to him

> since this result came out. My new meter should be here within the week I

> hope.

> So I was told I haven't been called a diabetic yet but friends have told

> me that if that number was 435 I probably am.

> I look forward to learning more from this list.

> Nice to meet all of you I don't know and to see some of you who are

> already friends here.

> Lora

>

June 20, 2011

Sugar, I don't mind sharing the responsibility grin.

But no more goodies for Lora smile.

Junior Lolley KG4itd

Liberty County Emergency Coordinator

Re: Introduction

Junior

well, we are both responsible, you for telling her about it, and me, well,

for supplying her with the yummy bad stuff we should not be eating, LOLOL

thanks,

sugar

' Your mind is your garden, your thoughts are your seeds.

You can grow flowers or you can grow weeds.'

~Be Blessed, Sugar

Introduction

>

> Hello To Everyone,

> I am Lora Leggett and I live near Detroit, Michigan. I am 58 years old

> and

> have been blind since birth. I am married to who is sighted but

> has

> cerebral palsy.

> We have a daughter and a son who are adults now. I have a history of

> diabetes in my family and I found out this past Monday that my blood

> sugar

> tested very high whenI had blood work done. So the doctor has given me

> glyburide once a day 500 mg plus an antibiotic for urinary tract

> infection.

> They said the sugar was 435. I had never heard of a number that high

> except when my brother drove himself to the hospital in 2009 and found

> out

> he was a diabetic among other things and his number was over 600. So I

> have

> had to start modifying my diet big time.

> I started downloading several books from the BARD web site and learning

> about counting carbs and all sorts of things.

> My brother Dan brought one of his meters over and tested me this

> afternoon

> and I was at 156.

> I guess I am not out of the woods yet but he figures I am working on it.

> I have ordered a talking glucometer and a talking scale. I was very

> uncomfortable when he was showing me the procedure but I hope with time I

> will catch onto it.

> We have a visiting doctor because my husband has been very ill

> recently and is now in bed all of the time.

> Dr. comes once a month so I have not had a chance to talk to him

> since this result came out. My new meter should be here within the week I

> hope.

> So I was told I haven't been called a diabetic yet but friends have told

> me that if that number was 435 I probably am.

> I look forward to learning more from this list.

> Nice to meet all of you I don't know and to see some of you who are

> already friends here.

> Lora

>

June 20, 2011

,

If you do have a low blood sugar it is " cured " more quickly with regular

soda rather that a piece of candy bar. The reason being that soda has a

sugar n it that is a more simple sugar than what is found in candy bars.

The candy bar takes longer to digest and break down to glucose. Even

better, it is good to have some glucose tablets in the home which are

available in any drug store. You need to chew up only one and your sugar

level will go up about 15 points. It takes only about 15 minutes to start

working while soda will take longer and a candy bar will take even longer

than that-plus you don't know how much of a candy bar to eat to get the same

effect as one glucose tablet.

_____

From: blind-diabetics

[mailto:blind-diabetics ] On Behalf Of Lora Leggett

Sent: Sunday, June 19, 2011 6:01 AM

To: blind-diabetics

Subject: Re: Introduction

My brother Dan described to me yesterday about one time when it happened to

him and how he had the presence of mind to overcome it before he passed out.

He had some pop in the refrigerator and after he had that and relaxed for a

while the symptoms went away.

I have had small episodes of feeling what I call the queezy Willies for a

couple years now if I don't eat especially after I get up.

I wonder how long I have been a diabetic or something close. I will mention

before you feel too sorry vfor me that I was sometimes drinking a two liter

bottle of pop in a day or maybe a day and a half sometimes. That is the

hardest part.

I had Dan pick up about 15 bottles just the Saturday before on the 11th and

I found this all out on the 13th.

I sold one of them to our friend Jim who is our boarder for a dollar.

I really do not want to sell them all at this point but as of yet I have not

opened another one.

If I should start feeling woozy I have a couple Little Debbie nutty buddies

in my butter compartment and can break a very tiny piece off. You guys will

probgably say all this will pass including my obsession with food.

Introduction

> >>

> >> Hello To Everyone,

> >> I am Lora Leggett and I live near Detroit, Michigan. I am 58 years old

> >> and

> >> have been blind since birth. I am married to who is sighted but

> >> has

> >> cerebral palsy.

> >> We have a daughter and a son who are adults now. I have a history of

> >> diabetes in my family and I found out this past Monday that my blood

> >> sugar

> >> tested very high whenI had blood work done. So the doctor has given me

> >> glyburide once a day 500 mg plus an antibiotic for urinary tract

> >> infection.

> >> They said the sugar was 435. I had never heard of a number that high

> >> except

> >> when my brother drove himself to the hospital in 2009 and found out he

> >> was

> >

> >> a

> >> diabetic among other things and his number was over 600. So I have had

> to

> >> start modifying my diet big time.

> >> I started downloading several books from the BARD web site and

> learning

> >> about counting carbs and all sorts of things.

> >> My brother Dan brought one of his meters over and tested me this

> >> afternoon

> >> and I was at 156.

> >> I guess I am not out of the woods yet but he figures I am working on

> it.

> >> I have ordered a talking glucometer and a talking scale. I was very

> >> uncomfortable when he was showing me the procedure but I hope with

> time I

> >> will catch onto it.

> >> We have a visiting doctor because my husband has been very ill

> >> recently and is now in bed all of the time.

> >> Dr. comes once a month so I have not had a chance to talk to

> him

> >> since this result came out. My new meter should be here within the

> week I

> >> hope.

> >> So I was told I haven't been called a diabetic yet but friends have

> told

> >> me

> >> that if that number was 435 I probably am.

> >> I look forward to learning more from this list.

> >> Nice to meet all of you I don't know and to see some of you who are

> >> already

> >> friends here.

> >> Lora

> >>

June 20, 2011