Guest guest Posted March 30, 2007 Report Share Posted March 30, 2007 I can't diagnose anything for you, but I could tell you what I would do in your shoes. I would go to another doctor, and fast. I wouldn't put it off. If you don't know one, call the best hospital near you and ask for a referral. Good luck, Roni --- Justice Family <justice_thunder@...> wrote: > Hi group, > I am wondering if any of you have ever experienced > any of these symptoms and had a doctor remain > nonchalant. > My TSH is at 5.89. I have been hypothyroid for 6 > years. I have been taking 100mcg. of levothyroxine. > To me that hasn't been the best fix, but for years > my TSH has remained at least in the middle of the > range. > In January I felt a painful spot on the side of my > throat at the level of the thyroid gland. It waxed > and waned in being tender and then I began to feel > very fatigued and the goiter that I have seemed to > be increasing in size. at least something is getting > bigger in there. > The 14th of this month is when I next saw the > doctor and the TSH level was determined and my > thyroid hormone was increase to the 125mcg level. > But in these last two weeks the pain in my throat > has really, really increased, I am having night > sweats, and am freezing during the day, I am > exhausted. I have lost four pounds of weight in the > last two weeks and and a total of 7 pounds since the > beginning of the year. I fight being underweight. > This is not good.I am running a lowgrade fever in > the evenings of a smidge more than 99 degrees. My > normal body temp is 97.6. The pain now runs up > behind my ear, it hurts in my ear and at the base of > my scalp on that side and in the sublingual part of > my neck as well as that whole lateral side now. > I went back today and she did a CBC and told me all > that was normal. My ear does not appear to be > inflamed ( I didn't think it was) and she really > feels that all this is just from my hormone level > being out of whack at present. > All of this time I have been hypothyroid I have > never had pain in my throat and neck and head like > this. > Does this sound reasonable to any of you? I don't > yet feel very reassured. > Thanks for your time. > Jamye > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ Bored stiff? Loosen up... Download and play hundreds of games for free on Games. http://games./games/front Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Hey Krista, I was wondering where you were! I understand what your feeling, I am having the fat transfers on the 13th because I didn't want to be flat chested. I did not have a lift at my insertion and really need it, so now taking out these implants (I'm a D with implants) out, I was afraid of what on earth I would look like. I was divorced in 2005 and " thought " that implants would help me, so I ran out and got them.......needless to say...I am still single. Getting breast implants was the worse thing I have ever done! ! Most men I encountered since my divorce, really didn't seem to like them. They are hard and still droopy since I didn't get a lift. Some men even told me that they like " soft " breasts. I got the hint! So for me, getting rid of these toxic monsters are fine with me. I guess I'm getting use to being single, I don't care anymore what some man thinks! Not sure if I will ever find one again but at least I can try to get healthy again for my daughter. I'm sure Krista, that your husband will love the " new " you.....healthy, with nice soft breasts! I think when you start feeling like " Krista " again, you'll be ok with everything! And yes, you have choices! You can always go and have the fat tranfers. I will keep you posted once I have mine done. Only one week for ya...yeah!! Cherie > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple of > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A) bras > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of cute > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm, > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to take > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me for > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without them. I > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they > small!!! > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one of > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc. So, I > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he first > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else is > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always go > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few years. > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health in > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health returns. > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems then > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > Love, Krista > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 >Krista NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec 13,and I share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams too. I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either without my nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my hubby to touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not want him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA cup's that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will love us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it is time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and beautiful. Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to mention that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. Also you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get because our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to have bigger boobies though!! Thinkin about ya Hugs Leanne > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple of > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A) bras > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of cute > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm, > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to take > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me for > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without them. I > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they > small!!! > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one of > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc. So, I > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he first > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else is > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always go > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few years. > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health in > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health returns. > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems then > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > Love, Krista > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Leanne- Thanks for your post. It's good to hear that others are going through what I am going through. I KNOW in my heart that you are absolutely right, but knowing it doesn't make it much easier to accept. I guess I had just wanted big boobies for so long, and now it's hard to let them go. It is so much easier to find stuff to wear, to feel sexy, to feel like a woman with the implants. But, I know that they just aren't " me " you know. I know that my husband loves and supports me no matter what, he's told me on many occasions " babe, I did not marry you for your boobs. " And, I know that, I never question that. I just hope he doesn't feel like by marrying me he's missing out on something that he would have gotten by marrying a woman with bigger boobs. These are just my insecurities speaking, not that he has ever made me feel this way. He has even told me that he wishes I would have not gotten the implants, and he liked me just the way I was. But, my mind was already made up by the time I met him, so he really didn't have a say in the matter. I know that everything is going to be okay, and you're absolutely right...I could get bigger boobies as I age and have kids and stuff (although, I've heard that some women LOSE breast tissue after kids, I really can't afford that!) :-) I've been the same way with my husband, not wanting him to touch them much lately. I guess it's because I don't want him to like them too much, because they're only going to be there for 6 more days! AH!!! Anyway, thanks again for understanding. 's Secret has this really great bra (I bought 2 because I was so impressed!) that adds up cup size so hopefully people at work won't be looking at me too funny :-). Love, Krista > >Krista > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec 13,and I > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams too. > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either without my > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my hubby to > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not want > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA cup's > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will love > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it is > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and beautiful. > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to mention > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. Also > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get because > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to have > bigger boobies though!! > > Thinkin about ya > Hugs > Leanne > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple > of > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A) > bras > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of > cute > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm, > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to > take > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me > for > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > them. I > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they > > small!!! > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one > of > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc. > So, I > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > first > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else > is > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always > go > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > years. > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health > in > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > returns. > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems > then > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > Love, Krista > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Hi Cherie- Can you believe our days are so close!? Oh my gosh! I'm really starting to get nervous as you can tell. Honestly, I think that most men who have been with a woman with implants and one without implants would prefer the one without. It seems like a lot of men are into the implants, but I think once they see what it's all about they aren't that impressed. They just don't feel the same way as normal breasts, you know what I mean? It's like fun for them to look at and maybe fun for the first few weeks, but after that...real boobies are so much nicer. I'm lucky to have such a supportive husband that loves me unconditionally. I know he's going to be okay with all of this, it is just my insecurities speaking. I just wish I had been BORN with more booby, then I wouldn't have to worry about any of this! :-) You are absolutely correct, our health is the most important thing. If we don't have our health, then it doesn't really matter how big our boobs are, right? Cherie- I think once you have your own breasts back, and your health completely returns (and your itchys stop for good!) that you are going to be in a great place to meet a man. I've heard that a lot of single women with implants are insecure with meeting men, because intimate situations are weird....does he know, how do I tell him, what's he going to think, etc. But, once you are all you then you don't have to worry about all of that anymore. This is going to be good! For BOTH of us! Can't believe it is so close! Love, Krista > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple > of > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A) > bras > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of > cute > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm, > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to > take > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me > for > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > them. I > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they > > small!!! > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one > of > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc. > So, I > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > first > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else > is > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always > go > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > years. > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health > in > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > returns. > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems > then > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > Love, Krista > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Krista, Your right, I was a bit nervous about my implants. I had one man I was seeing for while say to me.... " you didn't tell me that you have THOSE " ! I just never had a good reaction when I told any man I was seeing. When I told another man I was seeing, he just said " I only like soft breasts " ! These were not the reaction that I expected at all. I hope your right and I can find someone someday. I was with my ex-huband for 10 years and getting out into dating world again....sucks! I have begun to hate it! I've stopped dating in the last few months since I knew I was getting rid of the toxic monsters. I will probably try again next year, I think I only will because I am very lonely......but hate dating! Ya know, I thought having new breasts would change things for me.....sure in the hell didn't think was going to be this! Sick and lonely....hey...maybe that can be my anti-implant slogan! Yes, I'm very, very glad that our surgeries are close...I actually wish it was sooner. Hugs to you! Cherie > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple > > of > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A) > > bras > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of > > cute > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm, > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to > > take > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me > > for > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > > them. I > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they > > > small!!! > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one > > of > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc. > > So, I > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > > first > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else > > is > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always > > go > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > > years. > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health > > in > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > > returns. > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems > > then > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Cherie, When you feel better, see if you can find something you're interested in to get involved with. . . You're more likely to find a good man if you start with a common interest. . . And if you don't meet the right one, you'll still have a good time! I didn't meet my hubby square dancing . . . I had been dancing for years and hadn't found the right one . . . But within a week of meeting my (now) hubby, I showed him what I did for fun . . . When he said "That looks like fun!" I knew I had my man! We've had our troubles, but when it comes time to dance, we've found that we can put all our troubles behind us and move on. Hugs, Rogene Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Krista, Oh honey, I have tried on-line dating!! hmmmm.....the stories I have. I have been on Match.com, E-Harmony and . GOOD LORD! Where are the cute men? You must have been sooooooooo lucky to find your guy!! I have met so many men and still have not found the right one. I'm a bit picky....cute would be nice! That's seems to be difficult to find. I am 42 and the men my age haven't really took care of themselves or at least the ones who have, want woman who look like Pamela . I'm blonde but I don't look like Pam. I've lost a lot of weight, got " toxic boobs " and even got braces at 38....still haven't attracted a man that I am looking for. I call myself the " GEEK MAGANET...if your ugly...you think I'm really cute'! The thought of just one more endless date with a geek....just kills me! I pray to God everynight to just bring my " cute " prince to my front door....hey....I can dream! Hugs to you....lucky girl! Cherie > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking > > and > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you > > are > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have > > all of > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past > > couple > > > > of > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy > > (32A) > > > > bras > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection > > of > > > > cute > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased > > about > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said > > was > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made > > me > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I > > thought " hm, > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have > > to > > > > take > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew > > me > > > > for > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he > > doesn't > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with > > nice > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > > > > them. I > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my > > college > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were > > they > > > > > small!!! > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never > > done > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first > > thing I > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I > > know > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know > > one > > > > of > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, > > etc. > > > > So, I > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't > > know > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > > > > first > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me > > without > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less > > attracted > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of > > this > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone > > else > > > > is > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can > > always > > > > go > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > > > > years. > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my > > health > > > > in > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > > > > returns. > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and > > that I > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). > > Luckily, I > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start > > wearing > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger > > problems > > > > then > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2007 Report Share Posted November 2, 2007 Rogene, So did you meet your hubby? Honey, I need all the advice I can get. Thanks! Cherie > > Cherie, > > When you feel better, see if you can find something you're interested in to get involved with. . . You're more likely to find a good man if you start with a common interest. . . And if you don't meet the right one, you'll still have a good time! > > I didn't meet my hubby square dancing . . . I had been dancing for years and hadn't found the right one . . . But within a week of meeting my (now) hubby, I showed him what I did for fun . . . When he said " That looks like fun! " I knew I had my man! > > We've had our troubles, but when it comes time to dance, we've found that we can put all our troubles behind us and move on. > > Hugs, > > Rogene > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Krista Honey, all these mind thoughts are perfectly normal. Not that we like them, or that they are good thoughts they are thoughts of the unknown. You are going into an unknown territory. It is certainly scarey, the unknown always is. Look at pictures of people you think of as beautiful, sexy and all that like.....Kate Hudson, Kira Knightly, the list goes on.......that have beautiful small breasts. Look at women with big hard round breasts knowing that they ( the fake boobs) dont feel as sensual and do feel fake, and dont have the same sexual feel as natural breast do, and know eventually, they will have more surgery, and may be sick as hell. Confidence is extremely sensual........that is something you can work anytime, anywhere, anyhow........embrace that......it is all yours ! ! Love you ~ DedeSee what's new at AOL.com and Make AOL Your Homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Hi Krista, Do you remember the name of the bras that you bought at Secret? I definitely could use a good one that adds a cup size once I'm explanted! > > >Krista > > > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec 13,and I > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams too. > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either without my > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my hubby to > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not want > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA cup's > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will love > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it is > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and beautiful. > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to mention > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. Also > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get because > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to have > > bigger boobies though!! > > > > Thinkin about ya > > Hugs > > Leanne > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple > > of > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A) > > bras > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of > > cute > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm, > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to > > take > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me > > for > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > > them. I > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they > > > small!!! > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one > > of > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc. > > So, I > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > > first > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else > > is > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always > > go > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > > years. > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health > > in > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > > returns. > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems > > then > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Dear Krista, What you are going through is perfectly normal. I think most women feel a sense of loss when they explant. But I bet you will feel differently about your natural breasts than you did before your implants. I think you will appreciate how nice and soft they feel. It's also possible that they will end up being a bit larger than before you had implants. Mine are, and so are those of a lot women. Mine went from from A to B, but I am no heavier than I was before. I think the body may be stimulated by the implants to put on breast tissue. Hey Krista, maybe you can cut out a bunch of photos of hot, small breasted women and glue them into a notebook or tack them on a (private) wall, to remind you of how hot YOU will be with NATURAL breasts! Love, Bindi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Hey Steph- I was wondering what happened to you! How are you? Are you still having chest pains? Have you decided to go through with the explant? Yes, but of course I remember the name of the bra! I think you are really going to like it. Here it is: Body By ® Padded demi bra Adds a full cup size to your shape without losing its smooth, modern look in soft, high-tech microfiber. Underwire cups, adjustable straps and back closure. Imported nylon/Lycra® spandex. Sizes 32A-B; 34-36A-C; 38B. #154-237 $39.50. Good to hear from you! Love, Krista > > > >Krista > > > > > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of > > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec > 13,and I > > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams > too. > > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either > without my > > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my > hubby to > > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not > want > > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA > cup's > > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will > love > > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it > is > > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many > > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and > beautiful. > > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as > > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to > mention > > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add > > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really > > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find > > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after > > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. > Also > > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get > because > > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to > have > > > bigger boobies though!! > > > > > > Thinkin about ya > > > Hugs > > > Leanne > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking > and > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you > are > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have > all of > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past > couple > > > of > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy > (32A) > > > bras > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection > of > > > cute > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased > about > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said > was > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made > me > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I > thought " hm, > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have > to > > > take > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew > me > > > for > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he > doesn't > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with > nice > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > > > them. I > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my > college > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were > they > > > > small!!! > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never > done > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first > thing I > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I > know > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know > one > > > of > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, > etc. > > > So, I > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't > know > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > > > first > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me > without > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less > attracted > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of > this > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone > else > > > is > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can > always > > > go > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > > > years. > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my > health > > > in > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > > > returns. > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and > that I > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). > Luckily, I > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start > wearing > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger > problems > > > then > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Oh! That was Bindi who said I should hang pictures up! Sorry! Dede- I agree that confidence is the most important thing that we can have. Confidence is the sexiest thing, not big boobs! I wish every woman would see that! Love, Krista > > > > Krista > > Honey, all these mind thoughts are perfectly normal. > > Not that we like them, or that they are good thoughts > > they are thoughts of the unknown. You are going into > > an unknown territory. It is certainly scarey, the unknown > > always is. Look at pictures of people you think of as > > beautiful, sexy and all that like.....Kate Hudson, Kira > > Knightly, the list goes on.......that have beautiful small > > breasts. Look at women with big hard round breasts > > knowing that they ( the fake boobs) dont feel as sensual > > and do feel fake, and dont have the same sexual feel as > > natural breast do, and know eventually, they will have > > more surgery, and may be sick as hell. > > Confidence is extremely sensual........that is something > > you can work anytime, anywhere, anyhow........embrace > > that......it is all yours ! ! > > Love you ~ Dede > > > > > > > > ************************************** See what's new at > http://www.aol.com > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Bindi- I sure hope you're right, girl. I saw a lot of pictures of women on the other forum that look bigger after explant, I just thought it was because they'd gained weight since they got their implants. I on the other hand have not gained a pound since junior high!!! Ugh! Almost 30 years old and I can still wear little girls clothes! Boy, how I'd like to get a little junk in my trunk one day! I sure hope they are a little bigger. I'm expecting the worst but hoping for the best! I do think I will appreciate them more now, and I definitely think I can accept them better now too. Again, I LOVE the idea of hanging up pictures. Great idea! Love, Krista > > Dear Krista, > What you are going through is perfectly normal. I think most women feel a sense of loss when they explant. But I bet you will feel differently about your natural breasts than you did before your implants. I think you will appreciate how nice and soft they feel. > > It's also possible that they will end up being a bit larger than before you had implants. Mine are, and so are those of a lot women. Mine went from from A to B, but I am no heavier than I was before. I think the body may be stimulated by the implants to put on breast tissue. > > Hey Krista, maybe you can cut out a bunch of photos of hot, small breasted women and glue them into a notebook or tack them on a (private) wall, to remind you of how hot YOU will be with NATURAL breasts! > > Love, Bindi > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 I've been very busy with work so I haven't had alot of time to go online lately. I'm doing ok...I've been taking hot epsom salt baths which seem to help and I haven't had the chest pains in a couple of weeks. How are you doing? I have my explant scheduled for this Thursday Nov 8 and I'm so nervous!! I read that you have yours scheduled for one day after mine. Both in the same week how exciting! Thank you so much for the name of the bra. I'm going to go on their webiste right now to check it out! > > > > >Krista > > > > > > > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of > > > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec > > 13,and I > > > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams > > too. > > > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either > > without my > > > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my > > hubby to > > > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not > > want > > > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA > > cup's > > > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will > > love > > > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it > > is > > > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many > > > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and > > beautiful. > > > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as > > > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to > > mention > > > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add > > > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really > > > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find > > > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after > > > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. > > Also > > > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get > > because > > > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to > > have > > > > bigger boobies though!! > > > > > > > > Thinkin about ya > > > > Hugs > > > > Leanne > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking > > and > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you > > are > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have > > all of > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past > > couple > > > > of > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy > > (32A) > > > > bras > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection > > of > > > > cute > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased > > about > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said > > was > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made > > me > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I > > thought " hm, > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have > > to > > > > take > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew > > me > > > > for > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he > > doesn't > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with > > nice > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without > > > > them. I > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my > > college > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were > > they > > > > > small!!! > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never > > done > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first > > thing I > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I > > know > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know > > one > > > > of > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, > > etc. > > > > So, I > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't > > know > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he > > > > first > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me > > without > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less > > attracted > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of > > this > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone > > else > > > > is > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can > > always > > > > go > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few > > > > years. > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my > > health > > > > in > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health > > > > returns. > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and > > that I > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). > > Luckily, I > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start > > wearing > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger > > problems > > > > then > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Dede, My only hobby in the last year was trying to get better and I have not been successful. Hopefully explant will make difference. I'll tell ya, if I have this done and don't feel better.....I'm done! Can ya tell I really feel like total crap today? Cherie > > Cherie ~ > I am sick and lonely too.... > boo hoo........ > It can be very trying.... > Hobbies can help....... > When you get your strength > and health back, watch out world ! > Hugs Dede > > > > ************************************** See what's new at http://www.aol.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Cherie, Hang in there. I have to say though... I thought I would have them out and presto... I'm feeling better. Not exactly... I am getting better slowly... but it is still my hobby trying to get better. Don't get discouraged... it takes time. > > > > Cherie ~ > > I am sick and lonely too.... > > boo hoo........ > > It can be very trying.... > > Hobbies can help....... > > When you get your strength > > and health back, watch out world ! > > Hugs Dede > > > > > > > > ************************************** See what's new at > http://www.aol.com > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 , How long did you have your implants? Were they saline? Cherie > > > > > > Cherie ~ > > > I am sick and lonely too.... > > > boo hoo........ > > > It can be very trying.... > > > Hobbies can help....... > > > When you get your strength > > > and health back, watch out world ! > > > Hugs Dede > > > > > > > > > > > > ************************************** See what's new at > > http://www.aol.com > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Cherie- First of all-You need to start thinking more positive. Come on now! I know you are going through a lot, but I am going to tell you that positive thought is so so so important! How many women here agree with me?! All of you, I bet! Don't say that good things like that don't happen to you, because that is just negative thought, and absolutely not true! I believe with all my heart that if you think good things will happen to you, then they will! Have you read the book " The Secret? " It is all about the power of positive thinking. It's a great book. I really think you would like it and benefit from it. Second- I love my husband to death but part of me wishes that he did not have to go through all of this with me. Not only is this all affecting me, but it is affecting him and that makes it all double hard. So, I do think there might be a reason why you are single right now, but it doesn't have to be that way forever! There is a reason for everything in life. Please hang in there! Your surgery is close and I think this is going to be so good for you. I'm going to continue praying for you. Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. > I've > > > been > > > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been > > > thinking > > > > > and > > > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and > everything > > > you > > > > > are > > > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you > > > have > > > > > all of > > > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these > past > > > > > couple > > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is > really > > > all > > > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy > bitsy > > > > > (32A) > > > > > > > bras > > > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so > beautiful, > > > and I > > > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a > > > selection > > > > > of > > > > > > > cute > > > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am > > > pleased > > > > > about > > > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing > he > > > said > > > > > was > > > > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " > This > > > made > > > > > me > > > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I > > > > > thought " hm, > > > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I > might > > > have > > > > > to > > > > > > > take > > > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband > only > > > knew > > > > > me > > > > > > > for > > > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know > he > > > > > doesn't > > > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a > wife > > > with > > > > > nice > > > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me > > > without > > > > > > > them. I > > > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of > my > > > > > college > > > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and > boy > > > were > > > > > they > > > > > > > > small!!! > > > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've > > > never > > > > > done > > > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the > > > first > > > > > thing I > > > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby > left. > > > So, I > > > > > know > > > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. > I > > > know > > > > > one > > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my > Mom > > > has > > > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co- > workers, > > > > > etc. > > > > > > > So, I > > > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. > I > > > don't > > > > > know > > > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me > > > when he > > > > > > > first > > > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to > me > > > > > without > > > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be > less > > > > > attracted > > > > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about > how > > > all of > > > > > this > > > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if > > > anyone > > > > > else > > > > > > > is > > > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I > can > > > > > always > > > > > > > go > > > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to > in a > > > few > > > > > > > years. > > > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me > and > > > my > > > > > health > > > > > > > in > > > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my > > > health > > > > > > > returns. > > > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the > surgery > > > and > > > > > that I > > > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). > > > > > Luckily, I > > > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to > start > > > > > wearing > > > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this > sounds > > > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger > > > > > problems > > > > > > > then > > > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Steph- I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better and that you are going through with the explant. Yes, we are one day apart! We'll have to exchange notes on how each other are doing. I'm doing pretty good. I've been taking it so easy lately, not doing much but sleeping and working. The sleep seems to help me the most lately. I've been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster, but I think that's to be expected. I am ready to get this all over with and start on recovery and detoxing. Please do keep in touch and let me know how you are doing after Thursday. Good luck and yes, do get bra. It is fabulous! Love, Krista > > > > > >Krista > > > > > > > > > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think > all of > > > > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec > > > 13,and I > > > > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird > dreams > > > too. > > > > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either > > > without my > > > > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my > > > hubby to > > > > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do > not > > > want > > > > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA > > > cup's > > > > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they > will > > > love > > > > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then > it > > > is > > > > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how > many > > > > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and > > > beautiful. > > > > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat > as > > > > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to > > > mention > > > > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can > add > > > > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look > really > > > > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find > > > > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after > > > > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. > > > Also > > > > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get > > > because > > > > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight > to > > > have > > > > > bigger boobies though!! > > > > > > > > > > Thinkin about ya > > > > > Hugs > > > > > Leanne > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've > been > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been > thinking > > > and > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything > you > > > are > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you > have > > > all of > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past > > > couple > > > > > of > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really > all > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy > > > (32A) > > > > > bras > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, > and I > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a > selection > > > of > > > > > cute > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am > pleased > > > about > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he > said > > > was > > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This > made > > > me > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I > > > thought " hm, > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might > have > > > to > > > > > take > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only > knew > > > me > > > > > for > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he > > > doesn't > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife > with > > > nice > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me > without > > > > > them. I > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my > > > college > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy > were > > > they > > > > > > small!!! > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've > never > > > done > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the > first > > > thing I > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. > So, I > > > know > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I > know > > > one > > > > > of > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom > has > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, > > > etc. > > > > > So, I > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I > don't > > > know > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me > when he > > > > > first > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me > > > without > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less > > > attracted > > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how > all of > > > this > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if > anyone > > > else > > > > > is > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can > > > always > > > > > go > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a > few > > > > > years. > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and > my > > > health > > > > > in > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my > health > > > > > returns. > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery > and > > > that I > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). > > > Luckily, I > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start > > > wearing > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger > > > problems > > > > > then > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2007 Report Share Posted November 3, 2007 Yes Krista, I have " The Secret " video and I've done some studying on it. For a long time there I was extremely postive. Positive thoughts, affirmations and visualization. Really careful with the words I say and think. Then, my illness got worse. I suppose that I have to take the responsiblity of having made the decision of having these implants put in and it will take a long time to get well. Even though you can be a positive person, you also have the reprecussions of your past thoughts and choices. I was in high hopes of feeling better before surgery, not the case. The positive thing that I have seen was in recent months was finally figuring out that my illness was from the implants. Even then, I have gotten worse. I guess I don't understand all of this and it still can take a long time to see results. It can be very difficult to be positive and happy when you itch all day and your nose feels like it's going to explode. Are you practing the law of attraction? Hug to you! Cherie > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. > > I've > > > > been > > > > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been > > > > thinking > > > > > > and > > > > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and > > everything > > > > you > > > > > > are > > > > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you > > > > have > > > > > > all of > > > > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.) > > > > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these > > past > > > > > > couple > > > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is > > really > > > > all > > > > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy > > bitsy > > > > > > (32A) > > > > > > > > bras > > > > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so > > beautiful, > > > > and I > > > > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a > > > > selection > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > cute > > > > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am > > > > pleased > > > > > > about > > > > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing > > he > > > > said > > > > > > was > > > > > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " > > This > > > > made > > > > > > me > > > > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I > > > > > > thought " hm, > > > > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I > > might > > > > have > > > > > > to > > > > > > > > take > > > > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband > > only > > > > knew > > > > > > me > > > > > > > > for > > > > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know > > he > > > > > > doesn't > > > > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a > > wife > > > > with > > > > > > nice > > > > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me > > > > without > > > > > > > > them. I > > > > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of > > my > > > > > > college > > > > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and > > boy > > > > were > > > > > > they > > > > > > > > > small!!! > > > > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've > > > > never > > > > > > done > > > > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the > > > > first > > > > > > thing I > > > > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby > > left. > > > > So, I > > > > > > know > > > > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. > > I > > > > know > > > > > > one > > > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my > > Mom > > > > has > > > > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co- > > workers, > > > > > > etc. > > > > > > > > So, I > > > > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. > > I > > > > don't > > > > > > know > > > > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me > > > > when he > > > > > > > > first > > > > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to > > me > > > > > > without > > > > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be > > less > > > > > > attracted > > > > > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about > > how > > > > all of > > > > > > this > > > > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago. > > > > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if > > > > anyone > > > > > > else > > > > > > > > is > > > > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I > > can > > > > > > always > > > > > > > > go > > > > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to > > in a > > > > few > > > > > > > > years. > > > > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me > > and > > > > my > > > > > > health > > > > > > > > in > > > > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my > > > > health > > > > > > > > returns. > > > > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the > > surgery > > > > and > > > > > > that I > > > > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). > > > > > > Luckily, I > > > > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to > > start > > > > > > wearing > > > > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-) > > > > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this > > sounds > > > > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger > > > > > > problems > > > > > > > > then > > > > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > > > > > Love, Krista > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2007 Report Share Posted November 4, 2007 Rogene ~ Ya know, I think sometimes when people try to instill " The Secret " into their lives, they dont realize part of that secret is acceptence that you made a choice you wish you had made different, and to use it as an education, not a blame game and feel bad for it. Feel good you got the education, and can perhaps teach others what you learned. In the case of implants, choices are being made with faulty information, lots and lots of it. So the educaton is even bigger...... You learn not to trust the people you grew up learning to respect and trust, as well as to do more research. Part of the Secret is to learn not to beat yourself up. Learn that if nothing else, you learned something new....even if you had to hear it over and over...., you might not have learned it til the 5th time....then you can pat yourself on the back for finally getting it. If I didnt take everything that was dealt to me, and turn it upside down I would have dug a hole to China and buried myself long ago...... Everyone has read my story..... I havent been dealt a bad deck of cards... I have been dealt a deck with lots of education...... I am lucky.....because I am worth the education...... Love and hope to all ~ Dede See what's new at AOL.com and Make AOL Your Homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2007 Report Share Posted November 4, 2007 Krista, honey, we had to get counselling to help us deal with this. did not understand either, and it was too hard to keep explaining. We found a wonderful psychologist who was willing to come to our home. Things changed, because had a better understanding of what I was going through. He wrote me a beautiful letter, saying that he knew that it was not my fault. There were times when he would slip and cause me some stress, then he would have to read the letter again. Honey, things will get better; however, you will need plenty of love and support. Do not allow any toxic people into your life, because they will only pull you down. We are all here for you....love you.........Lea ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~` Re: Can anyone relate? Cherie- I do know exactly how you are feeling, I think most of us onthis forum do. I try to stay as positive as possible on the outside(mostly for my husband's sake,) but deep down I am scared, depressed,defeated by my illness, extremely guilt ridden by many reasons mostlythe choices that I have made. I know how you feel, I do. My husbandand I love each other and I know we'll get through this but truth betold, things have not been the same since I starting getting sick andcould no longer keep up with him. It's difficult to watch yourmarriage go from a high point to a low point in such a short amount oftime over something you can't control, but that you've caused. I'vebeen fighting with a lot of inner turmoil. We all are, I believe.That's why we all come to this forum everyday, for help, guidance,love, reassurance and to give all of that back to each other.I do believe that you will get back to that place of being positiveagain. It is going to take some time and dedication, but there is noreason why you can't (and me too, yes I need to take my own advicemost of the time.)What is the law of attractive?Love, Krista> > > > > > > > > >> > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few > days. > > > I've > > > > > been> > > > > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've > been > > > > > thinking > > > > > > > and> > > > > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and > > > everything > > > > > you > > > > > > > are> > > > > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad > you > > > > > have > > > > > > > all of> > > > > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)> > > > > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster > these > > > past > > > > > > > couple > > > > > > > > > of> > > > > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it > is > > > really > > > > > all> > > > > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new > itsy > > > bitsy > > > > > > > (32A) > > > > > > > > > bras> > > > > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so > > > beautiful, > > > > > and I> > > > > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a > > > > > selection > > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > > cute> > > > > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I > am > > > > > pleased > > > > > > > about> > > > > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first > thing > > > he > > > > > said > > > > > > > was> > > > > > > > > > "those look tiny! Are those going to be too > little?" > > > This > > > > > made > > > > > > > me> > > > > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, > I > > > > > > > thought "hm,> > > > > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I > > > might > > > > > have > > > > > > > to > > > > > > > > > take> > > > > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!!" My > husband > > > only > > > > > knew > > > > > > > me > > > > > > > > > for> > > > > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I > know > > > he > > > > > > > doesn't> > > > > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having > a > > > wife > > > > > with > > > > > > > nice> > > > > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining > me > > > > > without > > > > > > > > > them. I> > > > > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums > (of > > > my > > > > > > > college> > > > > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, > and > > > boy > > > > > were > > > > > > > they> > > > > > > > > > small!!! > > > > > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which > I've > > > > > never > > > > > > > done> > > > > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, > the > > > > > first > > > > > > > thing I> > > > > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby > > > left. > > > > > So, I > > > > > > > know> > > > > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to > me. > > > I > > > > > know > > > > > > > one > > > > > > > > > of> > > > > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that > my > > > Mom > > > > > has> > > > > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-> > > workers, > > > > > > > etc. > > > > > > > > > So, I> > > > > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out > somehow. > > > I > > > > > don't > > > > > > > know> > > > > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted > to me > > > > > when he > > > > > > > > > first> > > > > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted > to > > > me > > > > > > > without> > > > > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking "is he going to > be > > > less > > > > > > > attracted> > > > > > > > > > to me?" I guess I hadn't even started thinking > about > > > how > > > > > all of > > > > > > > this> > > > > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.> > > > > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to > know if > > > > > anyone > > > > > > > else > > > > > > > > > is> > > > > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself > that I > > > can > > > > > > > always > > > > > > > > > go> > > > > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want > to > > > in a > > > > > few > > > > > > > > > years.> > > > > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for > me > > > and > > > > > my > > > > > > > health > > > > > > > > > in> > > > > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when > my > > > > > health > > > > > > > > > returns.> > > > > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the > > > surgery > > > > > and > > > > > > > that I> > > > > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd > Krista :-). > > > > > > > Luckily, I> > > > > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have > to > > > start > > > > > > > wearing> > > > > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)> > > > > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this > > > sounds> > > > > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have > bigger > > > > > > > problems > > > > > > > > > then> > > > > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > > > > > > Love, Krista> > > > > > > > > >> > > > > > > > >> > > > > > > >> > > > > > >> > > > > >> > > > >> > > >> > >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2007 Report Share Posted November 4, 2007 Dede- I know you are right, I do know that. I know that I was lied to. I was young and naive and thought because the FDA had approved them and was told they are only salt water, that I was completely safe. I do blame them, really I do. But, every once in awhile I have to remember that I have to take responsibility for all of my actions and decisions in life, including this one. I've made some terrible decisions, but I've owned up to them, I don't try and deny them or blame them on someone else. I do blame the FDA mostly, but I still feel like I need to take some of that blame too. One of my good girl friends just got the new silicones last month, and when I told her of ALL of the problems I am having with my implants, she just kind of shrugged it off and said something like " oh well I did ALL of this research and the odds are SO low that anything bad could ever happen, and my immune system is so strong, that I don't think any of that would ever happen to me. " The truth is that she ONLY looked at the pro-implant sites, OF COURSE she is only going to find positive stuff there. So, if and when something bad happens with her implants, does that mean she shouldn't take any responsibility? I think not. This is all I'm trying to say. When we are going into all of this, we don't want to hear the negative things. It's out there, we just don't seek it out. So, in a way, we should take SOME responsibility. We are the ones that are choosing to have plastic bags stuffed into our chests, the FDA and PS aren't making that decision for us. I was the one who chose not to seek enough information out, or listen to the little bit of it that I did find. I guess I just wish that I would have just accepted by body as it was. That is mostly what I feel guilty about. I wouldn't be going into my 3rd boob surgery if I just could have accepted. That is my guilt. Love, Krista > > Krista, Cherie, and Everyone Here > Please, Please, Please..............I am on my knees begging.... > DO NOT blame yourself for what has happened > to you with these implants. Put the blame where it > belongs. Right on the FDA, drug companies, doctors, > and the media. You were lied to. THEY did you > wrong. You made your decisions based on trusting > their word. You were raised believing as adults, you > could trust and respect people in these positions in > society. As it turns out, they are some of the worst > and deceptive people on the planet. In my book > purposely advertising and selling a product that can > potentially kill people is the same as pre-meditated > murder. I also believe that it is " intent to harm " > They know that 30 percent of people with implants > will have toxic spills that can potentially kill them, so > they know that lots of people could die from their > product. So, girls....this frees you from blame. > You made your choices with the best of your > ability, with the information you were given by these > honest, trust worthy, respectful, and highly > respected ........demons. Dont let them also have > your integrity, and your self respect. They dont > deserve it ! ! > Love and Blessings ~ Dede > > > > > ************************************** See what's new at http://www.aol.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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