Can anyone relate?

[Guest guest]

I can't diagnose anything for you, but I could tell

you what I would do in your shoes. I would go to

another doctor, and fast. I wouldn't put it off. If

you don't know one, call the best hospital near you

and ask for a referral.

Good luck,

Roni

--- Justice Family <justice_thunder@...> wrote:

> Hi group,

> I am wondering if any of you have ever experienced

> any of these symptoms and had a doctor remain

> nonchalant.

> My TSH is at 5.89. I have been hypothyroid for 6

> years. I have been taking 100mcg. of levothyroxine.

> To me that hasn't been the best fix, but for years

> my TSH has remained at least in the middle of the

> range.

> In January I felt a painful spot on the side of my

> throat at the level of the thyroid gland. It waxed

> and waned in being tender and then I began to feel

> very fatigued and the goiter that I have seemed to

> be increasing in size. at least something is getting

> bigger in there.

> The 14th of this month is when I next saw the

> doctor and the TSH level was determined and my

> thyroid hormone was increase to the 125mcg level.

> But in these last two weeks the pain in my throat

> has really, really increased, I am having night

> sweats, and am freezing during the day, I am

> exhausted. I have lost four pounds of weight in the

> last two weeks and and a total of 7 pounds since the

> beginning of the year. I fight being underweight.

> This is not good.I am running a lowgrade fever in

> the evenings of a smidge more than 99 degrees. My

> normal body temp is 97.6. The pain now runs up

> behind my ear, it hurts in my ear and at the base of

> my scalp on that side and in the sublingual part of

> my neck as well as that whole lateral side now.

> I went back today and she did a CBC and told me all

> that was normal. My ear does not appear to be

> inflamed ( I didn't think it was) and she really

> feels that all this is just from my hormone level

> being out of whack at present.

> All of this time I have been hypothyroid I have

> never had pain in my throat and neck and head like

> this.

> Does this sound reasonable to any of you? I don't

> yet feel very reassured.

> Thanks for your time.

> Jamye

>

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> removed]

>

>

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[Guest guest]

Hey Krista,

I was wondering where you were! I understand what your feeling, I am

having the fat transfers on the 13th because I didn't want to be flat

chested. I did not have a lift at my insertion and really need it,

so now taking out these implants (I'm a D with implants) out, I was

afraid of what on earth I would look like. I was divorced in 2005

and " thought " that implants would help me, so I ran out and got

them.......needless to say...I am still single. Getting breast

implants was the worse thing I have ever done! ! Most men I

encountered since my divorce, really didn't seem to like them. They

are hard and still droopy since I didn't get a lift. Some men even

told me that they like " soft " breasts. I got the hint! So for me,

getting rid of these toxic monsters are fine with me. I guess I'm

getting use to being single, I don't care anymore what some man

thinks! Not sure if I will ever find one again but at least I can

try to get healthy again for my daughter.

I'm sure Krista, that your husband will love the " new "

you.....healthy, with nice soft breasts! I think when you start

feeling like " Krista " again, you'll be ok with everything! And yes,

you have choices! You can always go and have the fat tranfers. I will

keep you posted once I have mine done.

Only one week for ya...yeah!!

Cherie

>

> Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and

> praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are

> going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of

> these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple

of

> days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A)

bras

> from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of

cute

> lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about

> that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was

> " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me

> laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm,

> these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to

take

> them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me

for

> less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't

> remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice

> round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

them. I

> know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college

> years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they

> small!!!

> I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done

> before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I

> want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know

> even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one

of

> the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc.

So, I

> guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know

> why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

first

> met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without

> implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted

> to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this

> is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else

is

> or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always

go

> back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

years.

> I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health

in

> the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

returns.

> I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I

> adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I

> have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing

> tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems

then

> I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> Love, Krista

>

[Guest guest]

>Krista

NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of

what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec 13,and I

share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams too.

I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either without my

nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my hubby to

touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not want

him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA cup's

that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will love

us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it is

time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many

beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and beautiful.

Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as

pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to mention

that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add

silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really

natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find

uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after

surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. Also

you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get because

our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to have

bigger boobies though!!

Thinkin about ya

Hugs

Leanne

> Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and

> praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are

> going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of

> these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple

of

> days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A)

bras

> from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of

cute

> lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about

> that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was

> " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me

> laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm,

> these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to

take

> them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me

for

> less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't

> remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice

> round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

them. I

> know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college

> years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they

> small!!!

> I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done

> before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I

> want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know

> even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one

of

> the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc.

So, I

> guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know

> why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

first

> met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without

> implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted

> to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this

> is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else

is

> or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always

go

> back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

years.

> I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health

in

> the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

returns.

> I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I

> adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I

> have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing

> tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems

then

> I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> Love, Krista

>

[Guest guest]

Leanne- Thanks for your post. It's good to hear that others are going

through what I am going through. I KNOW in my heart that you are

absolutely right, but knowing it doesn't make it much easier to

accept. I guess I had just wanted big boobies for so long, and now

it's hard to let them go. It is so much easier to find stuff to wear,

to feel sexy, to feel like a woman with the implants. But, I know that

they just aren't " me " you know.

I know that my husband loves and supports me no matter what, he's told

me on many occasions " babe, I did not marry you for your boobs. " And,

I know that, I never question that. I just hope he doesn't feel like

by marrying me he's missing out on something that he would have gotten

by marrying a woman with bigger boobs. These are just my insecurities

speaking, not that he has ever made me feel this way. He has even told

me that he wishes I would have not gotten the implants, and he liked

me just the way I was. But, my mind was already made up by the time I

met him, so he really didn't have a say in the matter. I know that

everything is going to be okay, and you're absolutely right...I could

get bigger boobies as I age and have kids and stuff (although, I've

heard that some women LOSE breast tissue after kids, I really can't

afford that!) :-)

I've been the same way with my husband, not wanting him to touch them

much lately. I guess it's because I don't want him to like them too

much, because they're only going to be there for 6 more days! AH!!!

Anyway, thanks again for understanding. 's Secret has this

really great bra (I bought 2 because I was so impressed!) that adds up

cup size so hopefully people at work won't be looking at me too funny :-).

Love, Krista

> >Krista

>

> NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of

> what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec 13,and I

> share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams too.

> I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either without my

> nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my hubby to

> touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not want

> him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA cup's

> that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will love

> us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it is

> time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many

> beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and beautiful.

> Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as

> pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to mention

> that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add

> silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really

> natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find

> uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after

> surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all. Also

> you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get because

> our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to have

> bigger boobies though!!

>

> Thinkin about ya

> Hugs

> Leanne

>

>

>

>

>

> > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and

> > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are

> > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of

> > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple

> of

> > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A)

> bras

> > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of

> cute

> > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about

> > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was

> > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me

> > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm,

> > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to

> take

> > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me

> for

> > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't

> > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice

> > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

> them. I

> > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college

> > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they

> > small!!!

> > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done

> > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I

> > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know

> > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one

> of

> > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc.

> So, I

> > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know

> > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

> first

> > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without

> > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted

> > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this

> > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else

> is

> > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always

> go

> > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

> years.

> > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health

> in

> > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

> returns.

> > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I

> > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I

> > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing

> > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems

> then

> > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > Love, Krista

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Cherie- Can you believe our days are so close!? Oh my gosh! I'm

really starting to get nervous as you can tell.

Honestly, I think that most men who have been with a woman with

implants and one without implants would prefer the one without. It

seems like a lot of men are into the implants, but I think once they

see what it's all about they aren't that impressed. They just don't

feel the same way as normal breasts, you know what I mean? It's like

fun for them to look at and maybe fun for the first few weeks, but

after that...real boobies are so much nicer.

I'm lucky to have such a supportive husband that loves me

unconditionally. I know he's going to be okay with all of this, it is

just my insecurities speaking. I just wish I had been BORN with more

booby, then I wouldn't have to worry about any of this! :-)

You are absolutely correct, our health is the most important thing. If

we don't have our health, then it doesn't really matter how big our

boobs are, right?

Cherie- I think once you have your own breasts back, and your health

completely returns (and your itchys stop for good!) that you are going

to be in a great place to meet a man. I've heard that a lot of single

women with implants are insecure with meeting men, because intimate

situations are weird....does he know, how do I tell him, what's he

going to think, etc. But, once you are all you then you don't have to

worry about all of that anymore.

This is going to be good! For BOTH of us! Can't believe it is so close!

Love, Krista

> >

> > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking and

> > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you are

> > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have all of

> > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past couple

> of

> > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy (32A)

> bras

> > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection of

> cute

> > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased about

> > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said was

> > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made me

> > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I thought " hm,

> > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have to

> take

> > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew me

> for

> > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he doesn't

> > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with nice

> > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

> them. I

> > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my college

> > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were they

> > small!!!

> > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never done

> > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first thing I

> > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I know

> > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know one

> of

> > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers, etc.

> So, I

> > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't know

> > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

> first

> > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me without

> > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less attracted

> > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of this

> > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone else

> is

> > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can always

> go

> > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

> years.

> > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my health

> in

> > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

> returns.

> > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and that I

> > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-). Luckily, I

> > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start wearing

> > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger problems

> then

> > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > Love, Krista

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Krista,

Your right, I was a bit nervous about my implants. I had one man I

was seeing for while say to me.... " you didn't tell me that you have

THOSE " ! I just never had a good reaction when I told any man I was

seeing. When I told another man I was seeing, he just said " I only

like soft breasts " ! These were not the reaction that I expected at

all. I hope your right and I can find someone someday. I was with

my ex-huband for 10 years and getting out into dating world

again....sucks! I have begun to hate it! I've stopped dating in the

last few months since I knew I was getting rid of the toxic

monsters. I will probably try again next year, I think I only will

because I am very lonely......but hate dating! Ya know, I thought

having new breasts would change things for me.....sure in the hell

didn't think was going to be this! Sick and lonely....hey...maybe

that can be my anti-implant slogan!

Yes, I'm very, very glad that our surgeries are close...I actually

wish it was sooner.

Hugs to you!

Cherie

> > >

> > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking

and

> > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you

are

> > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have

all of

> > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past

couple

> > of

> > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy

(32A)

> > bras

> > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection

of

> > cute

> > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased

about

> > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said

was

> > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made

me

> > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

thought " hm,

> > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have

to

> > take

> > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew

me

> > for

> > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he

doesn't

> > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with

nice

> > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

> > them. I

> > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my

college

> > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were

they

> > > small!!!

> > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never

done

> > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first

thing I

> > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I

know

> > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know

one

> > of

> > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers,

etc.

> > So, I

> > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't

know

> > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

> > first

> > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me

without

> > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less

attracted

> > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of

this

> > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone

else

> > is

> > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can

always

> > go

> > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

> > years.

> > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my

health

> > in

> > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

> > returns.

> > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and

that I

> > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

Luckily, I

> > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start

wearing

> > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

problems

> > then

> > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > Love, Krista

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Cherie,

When you feel better, see if you can find something you're interested in to get involved with. . . You're more likely to find a good man if you start with a common interest. . . And if you don't meet the right one, you'll still have a good time!

I didn't meet my hubby square dancing . . . I had been dancing for years and hadn't found the right one . . . But within a week of meeting my (now) hubby, I showed him what I did for fun . . . When he said "That looks like fun!" I knew I had my man!

We've had our troubles, but when it comes time to dance, we've found that we can put all our troubles behind us and move on.

Hugs,

Rogene

[Guest guest]

Krista,

Oh honey, I have tried on-line dating!! hmmmm.....the stories I

have. I have been on Match.com, E-Harmony and . GOOD LORD!

Where are the cute men? You must have been sooooooooo lucky to

find your guy!! I have met so many men and still have not found

the right one. I'm a bit picky....cute would be nice! That's seems

to be difficult to find. I am 42 and the men my age haven't really

took care of themselves or at least the ones who have, want woman who

look like Pamela . I'm blonde but I don't look like Pam.

I've lost a lot of weight, got " toxic boobs " and even got braces at

38....still haven't attracted a man that I am looking for. I call

myself the " GEEK MAGANET...if your ugly...you think I'm really

cute'! The thought of just one more endless date with a

geek....just kills me!

I pray to God everynight to just bring my " cute " prince to my front

door....hey....I can dream!

Hugs to you....lucky girl!

Cherie

> > > > >

> > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've

been

> > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been

thinking

> > and

> > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything

you

> > are

> > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you

have

> > all of

> > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past

> > couple

> > > > of

> > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really

all

> > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy

> > (32A)

> > > > bras

> > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful,

and I

> > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a

selection

> > of

> > > > cute

> > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am

pleased

> > about

> > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he

said

> > was

> > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This

made

> > me

> > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

> > thought " hm,

> > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might

have

> > to

> > > > take

> > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only

knew

> > me

> > > > for

> > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he

> > doesn't

> > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife

with

> > nice

> > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me

without

> > > > them. I

> > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my

> > college

> > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy

were

> > they

> > > > > small!!!

> > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've

never

> > done

> > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the

first

> > thing I

> > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left.

So, I

> > know

> > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I

know

> > one

> > > > of

> > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom

has

> > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers,

> > etc.

> > > > So, I

> > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I

don't

> > know

> > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me

when he

> > > > first

> > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me

> > without

> > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less

> > attracted

> > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how

all of

> > this

> > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if

anyone

> > else

> > > > is

> > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can

> > always

> > > > go

> > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a

few

> > > > years.

> > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and

my

> > health

> > > > in

> > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my

health

> > > > returns.

> > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery

and

> > that I

> > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

> > Luckily, I

> > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start

> > wearing

> > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

> > problems

> > > > then

> > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > > > Love, Krista

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Rogene,

So did you meet your hubby? Honey, I need all the advice I can get.

Thanks!

Cherie

>

> Cherie,

>

> When you feel better, see if you can find something you're

interested in to get involved with. . . You're more likely to find a

good man if you start with a common interest. . . And if you don't

meet the right one, you'll still have a good time!

>

> I didn't meet my hubby square dancing . . . I had been dancing for

years and hadn't found the right one . . . But within a week of

meeting my (now) hubby, I showed him what I did for fun . . . When he

said " That looks like fun! " I knew I had my man!

>

> We've had our troubles, but when it comes time to dance, we've

found that we can put all our troubles behind us and move on.

>

> Hugs,

>

> Rogene

>

[Guest guest]

Krista

Honey, all these mind thoughts are perfectly normal.

Not that we like them, or that they are good thoughts

they are thoughts of the unknown. You are going into

an unknown territory. It is certainly scarey, the unknown

always is. Look at pictures of people you think of as

beautiful, sexy and all that like.....Kate Hudson, Kira

Knightly, the list goes on.......that have beautiful small

breasts. Look at women with big hard round breasts

knowing that they ( the fake boobs) dont feel as sensual

and do feel fake, and dont have the same sexual feel as

natural breast do, and know eventually, they will have

more surgery, and may be sick as hell.

Confidence is extremely sensual........that is something

you can work anytime, anywhere, anyhow........embrace

that......it is all yours ! !

Love you ~ DedeSee what's new at AOL.com and Make AOL Your Homepage.

[Guest guest]

Hi Krista, Do you remember the name of the bras that you bought at

Secret? I definitely could use a good one that adds a cup

size once I'm explanted!

> > >Krista

> >

> > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of

> > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec

13,and I

> > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams

too.

> > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either

without my

> > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my

hubby to

> > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not

want

> > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA

cup's

> > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will

love

> > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it

is

> > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many

> > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and

beautiful.

> > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as

> > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to

mention

> > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add

> > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really

> > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find

> > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after

> > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all.

Also

> > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get

because

> > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to

have

> > bigger boobies though!!

> >

> > Thinkin about ya

> > Hugs

> > Leanne

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking

and

> > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you

are

> > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have

all of

> > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past

couple

> > of

> > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy

(32A)

> > bras

> > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection

of

> > cute

> > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased

about

> > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said

was

> > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made

me

> > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

thought " hm,

> > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have

to

> > take

> > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew

me

> > for

> > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he

doesn't

> > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with

nice

> > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

> > them. I

> > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my

college

> > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were

they

> > > small!!!

> > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never

done

> > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first

thing I

> > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I

know

> > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know

one

> > of

> > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers,

etc.

> > So, I

> > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't

know

> > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

> > first

> > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me

without

> > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less

attracted

> > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of

this

> > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone

else

> > is

> > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can

always

> > go

> > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

> > years.

> > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my

health

> > in

> > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

> > returns.

> > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and

that I

> > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

Luckily, I

> > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start

wearing

> > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

problems

> > then

> > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > Love, Krista

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Krista,

What you are going through is perfectly normal. I think most women feel a sense of loss when they explant. But I bet you will feel differently about your natural breasts than you did before your implants. I think you will appreciate how nice and soft they feel.

It's also possible that they will end up being a bit larger than before you had implants. Mine are, and so are those of a lot women. Mine went from from A to B, but I am no heavier than I was before. I think the body may be stimulated by the implants to put on breast tissue.

Hey Krista, maybe you can cut out a bunch of photos of hot, small breasted women and glue them into a notebook or tack them on a (private) wall, to remind you of how hot YOU will be with NATURAL breasts!

Love, Bindi

[Guest guest]

Hey Steph- I was wondering what happened to you! How are you? Are you

still having chest pains? Have you decided to go through with the explant?

Yes, but of course I remember the name of the bra! I think you are

really going to like it. Here it is:

Body By ®

Padded demi bra

Adds a full cup size to your shape without losing its smooth, modern

look in soft, high-tech microfiber. Underwire cups, adjustable straps

and back closure. Imported nylon/Lycra® spandex.

Sizes 32A-B; 34-36A-C; 38B. #154-237 $39.50.

Good to hear from you!

Love, Krista

> > > >Krista

> > >

> > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think all of

> > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec

> 13,and I

> > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird dreams

> too.

> > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either

> without my

> > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my

> hubby to

> > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do not

> want

> > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA

> cup's

> > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they will

> love

> > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then it

> is

> > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how many

> > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and

> beautiful.

> > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat as

> > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to

> mention

> > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can add

> > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look really

> > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find

> > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after

> > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all.

> Also

> > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get

> because

> > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight to

> have

> > > bigger boobies though!!

> > >

> > > Thinkin about ya

> > > Hugs

> > > Leanne

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've been

> > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been thinking

> and

> > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything you

> are

> > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you have

> all of

> > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past

> couple

> > > of

> > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really all

> > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy

> (32A)

> > > bras

> > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful, and I

> > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a selection

> of

> > > cute

> > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am pleased

> about

> > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he said

> was

> > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This made

> me

> > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

> thought " hm,

> > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might have

> to

> > > take

> > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only knew

> me

> > > for

> > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he

> doesn't

> > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife with

> nice

> > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me without

> > > them. I

> > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my

> college

> > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy were

> they

> > > > small!!!

> > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've never

> done

> > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the first

> thing I

> > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left. So, I

> know

> > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I know

> one

> > > of

> > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom has

> > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers,

> etc.

> > > So, I

> > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I don't

> know

> > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me when he

> > > first

> > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me

> without

> > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less

> attracted

> > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how all of

> this

> > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if anyone

> else

> > > is

> > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can

> always

> > > go

> > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a few

> > > years.

> > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and my

> health

> > > in

> > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my health

> > > returns.

> > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery and

> that I

> > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

> Luckily, I

> > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start

> wearing

> > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

> problems

> > > then

> > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > > Love, Krista

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Oh! That was Bindi who said I should hang pictures up! Sorry!

Dede- I agree that confidence is the most important thing that we can

have. Confidence is the sexiest thing, not big boobs! I wish every

woman would see that!

Love, Krista

> >

> > Krista

> > Honey, all these mind thoughts are perfectly normal.

> > Not that we like them, or that they are good thoughts

> > they are thoughts of the unknown. You are going into

> > an unknown territory. It is certainly scarey, the unknown

> > always is. Look at pictures of people you think of as

> > beautiful, sexy and all that like.....Kate Hudson, Kira

> > Knightly, the list goes on.......that have beautiful small

> > breasts. Look at women with big hard round breasts

> > knowing that they ( the fake boobs) dont feel as sensual

> > and do feel fake, and dont have the same sexual feel as

> > natural breast do, and know eventually, they will have

> > more surgery, and may be sick as hell.

> > Confidence is extremely sensual........that is something

> > you can work anytime, anywhere, anyhow........embrace

> > that......it is all yours ! !

> > Love you ~ Dede

> >

> >

> >

> > ************************************** See what's new at

> http://www.aol.com

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Bindi- I sure hope you're right, girl. I saw a lot of pictures of

women on the other forum that look bigger after explant, I just

thought it was because they'd gained weight since they got their

implants. I on the other hand have not gained a pound since junior

high!!! Ugh! Almost 30 years old and I can still wear little girls

clothes! Boy, how I'd like to get a little junk in my trunk one day!

I sure hope they are a little bigger. I'm expecting the worst but

hoping for the best! I do think I will appreciate them more now, and I

definitely think I can accept them better now too.

Again, I LOVE the idea of hanging up pictures. Great idea!

Love, Krista

>

> Dear Krista,

> What you are going through is perfectly normal. I think most women

feel a sense of loss when they explant. But I bet you will feel

differently about your natural breasts than you did before your

implants. I think you will appreciate how nice and soft they feel.

>

> It's also possible that they will end up being a bit larger than

before you had implants. Mine are, and so are those of a lot women.

Mine went from from A to B, but I am no heavier than I was before. I

think the body may be stimulated by the implants to put on breast tissue.

>

> Hey Krista, maybe you can cut out a bunch of photos of hot, small

breasted women and glue them into a notebook or tack them on a

(private) wall, to remind you of how hot YOU will be with NATURAL

breasts!

>

> Love, Bindi

>

[Guest guest]

I've been very busy with work so I haven't had alot of time to go

online lately. I'm doing ok...I've been taking hot epsom salt baths

which seem to help and I haven't had the chest pains in a couple of

weeks. How are you doing? I have my explant scheduled for this

Thursday Nov 8 and I'm so nervous!! I read that you have yours

scheduled for one day after mine. Both in the same week how exciting!

Thank you so much for the name of the bra. I'm going to go on their

webiste right now to check it out!

> > > > >Krista

> > > >

> > > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think

all of

> > > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec

> > 13,and I

> > > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird

dreams

> > too.

> > > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either

> > without my

> > > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my

> > hubby to

> > > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do

not

> > want

> > > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA

> > cup's

> > > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they

will

> > love

> > > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then

it

> > is

> > > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how

many

> > > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and

> > beautiful.

> > > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat

as

> > > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to

> > mention

> > > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can

add

> > > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look

really

> > > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find

> > > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after

> > > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all.

> > Also

> > > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get

> > because

> > > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight

to

> > have

> > > > bigger boobies though!!

> > > >

> > > > Thinkin about ya

> > > > Hugs

> > > > Leanne

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've

been

> > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been

thinking

> > and

> > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything

you

> > are

> > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you

have

> > all of

> > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past

> > couple

> > > > of

> > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really

all

> > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy

> > (32A)

> > > > bras

> > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful,

and I

> > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a

selection

> > of

> > > > cute

> > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am

pleased

> > about

> > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he

said

> > was

> > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This

made

> > me

> > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

> > thought " hm,

> > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might

have

> > to

> > > > take

> > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only

knew

> > me

> > > > for

> > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he

> > doesn't

> > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife

with

> > nice

> > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me

without

> > > > them. I

> > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my

> > college

> > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy

were

> > they

> > > > > small!!!

> > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've

never

> > done

> > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the

first

> > thing I

> > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left.

So, I

> > know

> > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I

know

> > one

> > > > of

> > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom

has

> > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers,

> > etc.

> > > > So, I

> > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I

don't

> > know

> > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me

when he

> > > > first

> > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me

> > without

> > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less

> > attracted

> > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how

all of

> > this

> > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if

anyone

> > else

> > > > is

> > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can

> > always

> > > > go

> > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a

few

> > > > years.

> > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and

my

> > health

> > > > in

> > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my

health

> > > > returns.

> > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery

and

> > that I

> > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

> > Luckily, I

> > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start

> > wearing

> > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

> > problems

> > > > then

> > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > > > Love, Krista

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Dede,

My only hobby in the last year was trying to get better and I have

not been successful. Hopefully explant will make difference. I'll

tell ya, if I have this done and don't feel better.....I'm done!

Can ya tell I really feel like total crap today?

Cherie

>

> Cherie ~

> I am sick and lonely too....

> boo hoo........

> It can be very trying....

> Hobbies can help.......

> When you get your strength

> and health back, watch out world !

> Hugs Dede

>

>

>

> ************************************** See what's new at

http://www.aol.com

>

[Guest guest]

Cherie,

Hang in there. I have to say though... I thought I would have them

out and presto... I'm feeling better. Not exactly...

I am getting better slowly... but it is still my hobby trying to get

better.

Don't get discouraged... it takes time.

> >

> > Cherie ~

> > I am sick and lonely too....

> > boo hoo........

> > It can be very trying....

> > Hobbies can help.......

> > When you get your strength

> > and health back, watch out world !

> > Hugs Dede

> >

> >

> >

> > ************************************** See what's new at

> http://www.aol.com

> >

>

[Guest guest]

,

How long did you have your implants? Were they saline?

Cherie

> > >

> > > Cherie ~

> > > I am sick and lonely too....

> > > boo hoo........

> > > It can be very trying....

> > > Hobbies can help.......

> > > When you get your strength

> > > and health back, watch out world !

> > > Hugs Dede

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > > ************************************** See what's new at

> > http://www.aol.com

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Cherie- First of all-You need to start thinking more positive. Come on

now! I know you are going through a lot, but I am going to tell you

that positive thought is so so so important! How many women here agree

with me?! All of you, I bet!

Don't say that good things like that don't happen to you, because that

is just negative thought, and absolutely not true! I believe with all

my heart that if you think good things will happen to you, then they will!

Have you read the book " The Secret? " It is all about the power of

positive thinking. It's a great book. I really think you would like it

and benefit from it.

Second- I love my husband to death but part of me wishes that he did

not have to go through all of this with me. Not only is this all

affecting me, but it is affecting him and that makes it all double

hard. So, I do think there might be a reason why you are single right

now, but it doesn't have to be that way forever! There is a reason for

everything in life.

Please hang in there! Your surgery is close and I think this is going

to be so good for you.

I'm going to continue praying for you.

Love, Krista

> > > > > > > >

> > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days.

> I've

> > > been

> > > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been

> > > thinking

> > > > > and

> > > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and

> everything

> > > you

> > > > > are

> > > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you

> > > have

> > > > > all of

> > > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these

> past

> > > > > couple

> > > > > > > of

> > > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is

> really

> > > all

> > > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy

> bitsy

> > > > > (32A)

> > > > > > > bras

> > > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so

> beautiful,

> > > and I

> > > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a

> > > selection

> > > > > of

> > > > > > > cute

> > > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am

> > > pleased

> > > > > about

> > > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing

> he

> > > said

> > > > > was

> > > > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? "

> This

> > > made

> > > > > me

> > > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

> > > > > thought " hm,

> > > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I

> might

> > > have

> > > > > to

> > > > > > > take

> > > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband

> only

> > > knew

> > > > > me

> > > > > > > for

> > > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know

> he

> > > > > doesn't

> > > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a

> wife

> > > with

> > > > > nice

> > > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me

> > > without

> > > > > > > them. I

> > > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of

> my

> > > > > college

> > > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and

> boy

> > > were

> > > > > they

> > > > > > > > small!!!

> > > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've

> > > never

> > > > > done

> > > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the

> > > first

> > > > > thing I

> > > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby

> left.

> > > So, I

> > > > > know

> > > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me.

> I

> > > know

> > > > > one

> > > > > > > of

> > > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my

> Mom

> > > has

> > > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-

> workers,

> > > > > etc.

> > > > > > > So, I

> > > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow.

> I

> > > don't

> > > > > know

> > > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me

> > > when he

> > > > > > > first

> > > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to

> me

> > > > > without

> > > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be

> less

> > > > > attracted

> > > > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about

> how

> > > all of

> > > > > this

> > > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if

> > > anyone

> > > > > else

> > > > > > > is

> > > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I

> can

> > > > > always

> > > > > > > go

> > > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to

> in a

> > > few

> > > > > > > years.

> > > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me

> and

> > > my

> > > > > health

> > > > > > > in

> > > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my

> > > health

> > > > > > > returns.

> > > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the

> surgery

> > > and

> > > > > that I

> > > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

> > > > > Luckily, I

> > > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to

> start

> > > > > wearing

> > > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this

> sounds

> > > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

> > > > > problems

> > > > > > > then

> > > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > > > > > > Love, Krista

> > > > > > > >

> > > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Steph- I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better and that you

are going through with the explant. Yes, we are one day apart! We'll

have to exchange notes on how each other are doing.

I'm doing pretty good. I've been taking it so easy lately, not doing

much but sleeping and working. The sleep seems to help me the most

lately. I've been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster, but I think

that's to be expected. I am ready to get this all over with and start

on recovery and detoxing.

Please do keep in touch and let me know how you are doing after

Thursday. Good luck and yes, do get bra. It is fabulous!

Love, Krista

> > > > > >Krista

> > > > >

> > > > > NO!!!!!!!!!!! you are not sounding self centered. I think

> all of

> > > > > what you said is totally normal. I am having my surgery Dec

> > > 13,and I

> > > > > share ALL of your concerns and been having really weird

> dreams

> > > too.

> > > > > I worry that my husband will not find me attractive either

> > > without my

> > > > > nice round c cups, I have even gone so far as not wanting my

> > > hubby to

> > > > > touch mine or look at them too much right now because I do

> not

> > > want

> > > > > him to get too use to the way I look now compared to my 36 AA

> > > cup's

> > > > > that I will have soon!!! Is that not CRAZY?? I think they

> will

> > > love

> > > > > us no matter how big our boob's are and if they do not, then

> it

> > > is

> > > > > time to find new Husbands! We will be just fine. Look how

> many

> > > > > beautiful celeb's are out there that are totally flat and

> > > beautiful.

> > > > > Cameron ,Charlize theron,and all of the model's are flat

> as

> > > > > pancakes!! being flat is totally in style. I just want to

> > > mention

> > > > > that you can buy bra's that have pocket's in them and you can

> add

> > > > > silicone inserts they are mastectomy bra's. they look

> really

> > > > > natural and you can get them without underwire (whch I find

> > > > > uncomfortable). Krista you will be so much happier after

> > > > > surgery,then you can put your mind at ease once and for all.

> > > Also

> > > > > you know what?? the older you get the bigger your boobies get

> > > because

> > > > > our body fat increases. unfortunate we have to gain weight

> to

> > > have

> > > > > bigger boobies though!!

> > > > >

> > > > > Thinkin about ya

> > > > > Hugs

> > > > > Leanne

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few days. I've

> been

> > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've been

> thinking

> > > and

> > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and everything

> you

> > > are

> > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad you

> have

> > > all of

> > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster these past

> > > couple

> > > > > of

> > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it is really

> all

> > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new itsy bitsy

> > > (32A)

> > > > > bras

> > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so beautiful,

> and I

> > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a

> selection

> > > of

> > > > > cute

> > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I am

> pleased

> > > about

> > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first thing he

> said

> > > was

> > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too little? " This

> made

> > > me

> > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, I

> > > thought " hm,

> > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I might

> have

> > > to

> > > > > take

> > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My husband only

> knew

> > > me

> > > > > for

> > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I know he

> > > doesn't

> > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having a wife

> with

> > > nice

> > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining me

> without

> > > > > them. I

> > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums (of my

> > > college

> > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, and boy

> were

> > > they

> > > > > > small!!!

> > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which I've

> never

> > > done

> > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, the

> first

> > > thing I

> > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby left.

> So, I

> > > know

> > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to me. I

> know

> > > one

> > > > > of

> > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that my Mom

> has

> > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-workers,

> > > etc.

> > > > > So, I

> > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out somehow. I

> don't

> > > know

> > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted to me

> when he

> > > > > first

> > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted to me

> > > without

> > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to be less

> > > attracted

> > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking about how

> all of

> > > this

> > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to know if

> anyone

> > > else

> > > > > is

> > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself that I can

> > > always

> > > > > go

> > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want to in a

> few

> > > > > years.

> > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for me and

> my

> > > health

> > > > > in

> > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when my

> health

> > > > > returns.

> > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the surgery

> and

> > > that I

> > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd Krista :-).

> > > Luckily, I

> > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have to start

> > > wearing

> > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this sounds

> > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have bigger

> > > problems

> > > > > then

> > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > > > > Love, Krista

> > > > > >

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Yes Krista, I have " The Secret " video and I've done some studying on

it. For a long time there I was extremely postive. Positive thoughts,

affirmations and visualization. Really careful with the words I say

and think. Then, my illness got worse. I suppose that I have to

take the responsiblity of having made the decision of having these

implants put in and it will take a long time to get well. Even

though you can be a positive person, you also have the reprecussions

of your past thoughts and choices. I was in high hopes of feeling

better before surgery, not the case. The positive thing that I have

seen was in recent months was finally figuring out that my illness

was from the implants. Even then, I have gotten worse. I guess I

don't understand all of this and it still can take a long time to see

results. It can be very difficult to be positive and happy when you

itch all day and your nose feels like it's going to explode. Are you

practing the law of attraction?

Hug to you!

Cherie

> > > > > > > > >

> > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few

days.

> > I've

> > > > been

> > > > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've

been

> > > > thinking

> > > > > > and

> > > > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and

> > everything

> > > > you

> > > > > > are

> > > > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad

you

> > > > have

> > > > > > all of

> > > > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)

> > > > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster

these

> > past

> > > > > > couple

> > > > > > > > of

> > > > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it

is

> > really

> > > > all

> > > > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new

itsy

> > bitsy

> > > > > > (32A)

> > > > > > > > bras

> > > > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so

> > beautiful,

> > > > and I

> > > > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a

> > > > selection

> > > > > > of

> > > > > > > > cute

> > > > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I

am

> > > > pleased

> > > > > > about

> > > > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first

thing

> > he

> > > > said

> > > > > > was

> > > > > > > > > " those look tiny! Are those going to be too

little? "

> > This

> > > > made

> > > > > > me

> > > > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them,

I

> > > > > > thought " hm,

> > > > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I

> > might

> > > > have

> > > > > > to

> > > > > > > > take

> > > > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!! " My

husband

> > only

> > > > knew

> > > > > > me

> > > > > > > > for

> > > > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I

know

> > he

> > > > > > doesn't

> > > > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having

a

> > wife

> > > > with

> > > > > > nice

> > > > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining

me

> > > > without

> > > > > > > > them. I

> > > > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums

(of

> > my

> > > > > > college

> > > > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were,

and

> > boy

> > > > were

> > > > > > they

> > > > > > > > > small!!!

> > > > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which

I've

> > > > never

> > > > > > done

> > > > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams,

the

> > > > first

> > > > > > thing I

> > > > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby

> > left.

> > > > So, I

> > > > > > know

> > > > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to

me.

> > I

> > > > know

> > > > > > one

> > > > > > > > of

> > > > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that

my

> > Mom

> > > > has

> > > > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-

> > workers,

> > > > > > etc.

> > > > > > > > So, I

> > > > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out

somehow.

> > I

> > > > don't

> > > > > > know

> > > > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted

to me

> > > > when he

> > > > > > > > first

> > > > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted

to

> > me

> > > > > > without

> > > > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking " is he going to

be

> > less

> > > > > > attracted

> > > > > > > > > to me? " I guess I hadn't even started thinking

about

> > how

> > > > all of

> > > > > > this

> > > > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.

> > > > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to

know if

> > > > anyone

> > > > > > else

> > > > > > > > is

> > > > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself

that I

> > can

> > > > > > always

> > > > > > > > go

> > > > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want

to

> > in a

> > > > few

> > > > > > > > years.

> > > > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for

me

> > and

> > > > my

> > > > > > health

> > > > > > > > in

> > > > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when

my

> > > > health

> > > > > > > > returns.

> > > > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the

> > surgery

> > > > and

> > > > > > that I

> > > > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd

Krista :-).

> > > > > > Luckily, I

> > > > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have

to

> > start

> > > > > > wearing

> > > > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)

> > > > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this

> > sounds

> > > > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have

bigger

> > > > > > problems

> > > > > > > > then

> > > > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here.

> > > > > > > > > Love, Krista

> > > > > > > > >

> > > > > > > >

> > > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Rogene ~

Ya know, I think sometimes when people

try to instill " The Secret " into their

lives, they dont realize part of that secret

is acceptence that you made a choice you wish

you had made different, and to use it as an

education, not a blame game and feel bad for it.

Feel good you got the education, and can perhaps

teach others what you learned. In the case of implants,

choices are being made with faulty information, lots and

lots of it. So the educaton is even bigger......

You learn not to trust the people you grew up

learning to respect and trust, as well as to do

more research.

Part of the Secret is to learn not to beat yourself

up. Learn that if nothing else, you learned something

new....even if you had to hear it over and over...., you

might not have learned it til the 5th time....then you

can pat yourself on the back for finally getting it.

If I didnt take everything that was dealt to me, and

turn it upside down I would have dug a hole to China

and buried myself long ago......

Everyone has read my story.....

I havent been dealt a bad deck of cards...

I have been dealt a deck with lots of education......

I am lucky.....because I am worth the education......

Love and hope to all ~ Dede

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Krista, honey, we had to get counselling to help us deal with this. did not understand either, and it was too hard to keep explaining. We found a wonderful psychologist who was willing to come to our home. Things changed, because had a better understanding of what I was going through. He wrote me a beautiful letter, saying that he knew that it was not my fault. There were times when he would slip and cause me some stress, then he would have to read the letter again.

Honey, things will get better; however, you will need plenty of love and support. Do not allow any toxic people into your life, because they will only pull you down.

We are all here for you....love you.........Lea

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Re: Can anyone relate?

Cherie- I do know exactly how you are feeling, I think most of us onthis forum do. I try to stay as positive as possible on the outside(mostly for my husband's sake,) but deep down I am scared, depressed,defeated by my illness, extremely guilt ridden by many reasons mostlythe choices that I have made. I know how you feel, I do. My husbandand I love each other and I know we'll get through this but truth betold, things have not been the same since I starting getting sick andcould no longer keep up with him. It's difficult to watch yourmarriage go from a high point to a low point in such a short amount oftime over something you can't control, but that you've caused. I'vebeen fighting with a lot of inner turmoil. We all are, I believe.That's why we all come to this forum everyday, for help, guidance,love, reassurance and to give all of that back to each other.I do believe that you will get back to that place of being positiveagain. It is going to take some time and dedication, but there is noreason why you can't (and me too, yes I need to take my own advicemost of the time.)What is the law of attractive?Love, Krista> > > > > > > > > >> > > > > > > > > > Hi Ladies- Sorry that I have not posted in a few > days. > > > I've > > > > > been> > > > > > > > > > keeping up on reading all of your posts, and I've > been > > > > > thinking > > > > > > > and> > > > > > > > > > praying for all of you (especially you, Dede and > > > everything > > > > > you > > > > > > > are> > > > > > > > > > going through with your Dad, I'm so sorry, I'm glad > you > > > > > have > > > > > > > all of> > > > > > > > > > these wonderful ladies to support you.)> > > > > > > > > > I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster > these > > > past > > > > > > > couple > > > > > > > > > of> > > > > > > > > > days. I am one week to surgery now and I think it > is > > > really > > > > > all> > > > > > > > > > starting to set in for me now. I bought some new > itsy > > > bitsy > > > > > > > (32A) > > > > > > > > > bras> > > > > > > > > > from 's Secret. They are really all so > > > beautiful, > > > > > and I> > > > > > > > > > certainly don't remember them having this wide of a > > > > > selection > > > > > > > of > > > > > > > > > cute> > > > > > > > > > lil bras 5 years ago before I had my implants, so I > am > > > > > pleased > > > > > > > about> > > > > > > > > > that. I showed the bras to my hubby and the first > thing > > > he > > > > > said > > > > > > > was> > > > > > > > > > "those look tiny! Are those going to be too > little?" > > > This > > > > > made > > > > > > > me> > > > > > > > > > laugh a little because when I first looked at them, > I > > > > > > > thought "hm,> > > > > > > > > > these should fit, but I'll have to wait and see, I > > > might > > > > > have > > > > > > > to > > > > > > > > > take> > > > > > > > > > them back and try and find some 32AA's!!!" My > husband > > > only > > > > > knew > > > > > > > me > > > > > > > > > for> > > > > > > > > > less then 2 months before I got my implants and I > know > > > he > > > > > > > doesn't> > > > > > > > > > remember how little they were. He is used to having > a > > > wife > > > > > with > > > > > > > nice> > > > > > > > > > round C cups, so he is having a hard time imagining > me > > > > > without > > > > > > > > > them. I> > > > > > > > > > know that I am too, I dug out some old photo albums > (of > > > my > > > > > > > college> > > > > > > > > > years and such) to see how small they really were, > and > > > boy > > > > > were > > > > > > > they> > > > > > > > > > small!!! > > > > > > > > > > I also keep having dreams about the surgery, which > I've > > > > > never > > > > > > > done> > > > > > > > > > before (and this is my 4th surgery.) In my dreams, > the > > > > > first > > > > > > > thing I> > > > > > > > > > want to know when I wake up is if I have any booby > > > left. > > > > > So, I > > > > > > > know> > > > > > > > > > even in my subconscious this is of great concern to > me. > > > I > > > > > know > > > > > > > one > > > > > > > > > of> > > > > > > > > > the hardest parts about all of this for me is that > my > > > Mom > > > > > has> > > > > > > > > > implants, my sister, 75% of friends, some of my co-> > > workers, > > > > > > > etc. > > > > > > > > > So, I> > > > > > > > > > guess I feel like I am going to feel left out > somehow. > > > I > > > > > don't > > > > > > > know> > > > > > > > > > why. I know that my hubby was initially attracted > to me > > > > > when he > > > > > > > > > first> > > > > > > > > > met me, so I know he is still going to be attracted > to > > > me > > > > > > > without> > > > > > > > > > implants, but I just keep thinking "is he going to > be > > > less > > > > > > > attracted> > > > > > > > > > to me?" I guess I hadn't even started thinking > about > > > how > > > > > all of > > > > > > > this> > > > > > > > > > is going to affect him until just a few days ago.> > > > > > > > > > Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just wanted to > know if > > > > > anyone > > > > > > > else > > > > > > > > > is> > > > > > > > > > or has felt this same way. I keep telling myself > that I > > > can > > > > > > > always > > > > > > > > > go> > > > > > > > > > back for the fat transfers with Dr. Huang if I want > to > > > in a > > > > > few > > > > > > > > > years.> > > > > > > > > > I keep telling myself that this will be better for > me > > > and > > > > > my > > > > > > > health > > > > > > > > > in> > > > > > > > > > the long run, and that it will all be worth it when > my > > > > > health > > > > > > > > > returns.> > > > > > > > > > I just hope that I'm not too emotional after the > > > surgery > > > > > and > > > > > > > that I> > > > > > > > > > adjust okay to being back to little booby'd > Krista :-). > > > > > > > Luckily, I> > > > > > > > > > have the whole winter to adjust back before I have > to > > > start > > > > > > > wearing> > > > > > > > > > tank tops and swim suits again. :-)> > > > > > > > > > Thanks for listening everyone. I hope none of this > > > sounds> > > > > > > > > > self-centered because I know so many of you have > bigger > > > > > > > problems > > > > > > > > > then> > > > > > > > > > I, I'm just being a little emotional here. > > > > > > > > > > Love, Krista> > > > > > > > > >> > > > > > > > >> > > > > > > >> > > > > > >> > > > > >> > > > >> > > >> > >> >>

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Dede- I know you are right, I do know that. I know that I was lied to.

I was young and naive and thought because the FDA had approved them

and was told they are only salt water, that I was completely safe. I

do blame them, really I do. But, every once in awhile I have to

remember that I have to take responsibility for all of my actions and

decisions in life, including this one. I've made some terrible

decisions, but I've owned up to them, I don't try and deny them or

blame them on someone else. I do blame the FDA mostly, but I still

feel like I need to take some of that blame too.

One of my good girl friends just got the new silicones last month, and

when I told her of ALL of the problems I am having with my implants,

she just kind of shrugged it off and said something like " oh well I

did ALL of this research and the odds are SO low that anything bad

could ever happen, and my immune system is so strong, that I don't

think any of that would ever happen to me. " The truth is that she ONLY

looked at the pro-implant sites, OF COURSE she is only going to find

positive stuff there. So, if and when something bad happens with her

implants, does that mean she shouldn't take any responsibility? I

think not. This is all I'm trying to say. When we are going into all

of this, we don't want to hear the negative things. It's out there, we

just don't seek it out. So, in a way, we should take SOME

responsibility. We are the ones that are choosing to have plastic bags

stuffed into our chests, the FDA and PS aren't making that decision

for us. I was the one who chose not to seek enough information out, or

listen to the little bit of it that I did find.

I guess I just wish that I would have just accepted by body as it was.

That is mostly what I feel guilty about. I wouldn't be going into my

3rd boob surgery if I just could have accepted. That is my guilt.

Love, Krista

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> Krista, Cherie, and Everyone Here

> Please, Please, Please..............I am on my knees begging....

> DO NOT blame yourself for what has happened

> to you with these implants. Put the blame where it

> belongs. Right on the FDA, drug companies, doctors,

> and the media. You were lied to. THEY did you

> wrong. You made your decisions based on trusting

> their word. You were raised believing as adults, you

> could trust and respect people in these positions in

> society. As it turns out, they are some of the worst

> and deceptive people on the planet. In my book

> purposely advertising and selling a product that can

> potentially kill people is the same as pre-meditated

> murder. I also believe that it is " intent to harm "

> They know that 30 percent of people with implants

> will have toxic spills that can potentially kill them, so

> they know that lots of people could die from their

> product. So, girls....this frees you from blame.

> You made your choices with the best of your

> ability, with the information you were given by these

> honest, trust worthy, respectful, and highly

> respected ........demons. Dont let them also have

> your integrity, and your self respect. They dont

> deserve it ! !

> Love and Blessings ~ Dede

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