Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she calls you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you doing? " Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on the couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle of the day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, I'm on the phone talking to you. " Tara Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she calls you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you doing? " Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on the couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle of the day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, I'm on the phone talking to you. " Tara Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 Exactly! When they ask for examples that we can most likely provide in profusion to others we just come up blank. Also I can almost predict how she will argue me down and invalidate my perception if I do bring up examples. All she has to do is say I am petty or uptight and I have " lost " . She will always resort to attacking my personality or my character if she can think of nothing better. Any argument at that point is pure defense so what is the point? How can you effectively communicate with someone who just tells you you are disgusting, uptight, petty, precious, selfish, naive, weak, controlled by others, hateful, ineffectual, " insert putdown here " . . . At least with my husband we do not attack each other's character. We simply make our case and explain why we disagree about something. It is so refreshing to argue with someone who is willing to try to understand my perspective and meet me somewhere in between in most things! XOXO > > > > > > > Anger is a problem for me, in more than one way. I both have > > > problems with getting overly > > > > angry and inappropriately angry, and conversely with getting > angry > > > and staying angry, > > > > depending on the situation. > > > > > > and then she added: > > > > > > > On the other side, it is so hard for me to stay mad at nada. If > I > > > loose my anger about what > > > > she's done, at this point I could easily be hoovered. Coming > here > > > and hearing all your > > > > stories reminds me again and again why I chose LC for now. The > > first > > > time I could really > > > > get angry was when I read the first 2 chapters of SABP. One of > > those > > > check lists switched > > > > some kind of, well switch in me. Problem is, when I put down the > > > book, the switch goes > > > > off. So I tried reading it again, and again I got angry. > > > > > > What she wrote about the " switch " is really interesting to me. I > > have > > > noticed that I have a really difficult time articulating my > feelings > > > to my nada. I know now that talking with her is never really > going > > to > > > lead to any kind of light bulb moment for her in fact she is > totally > > > invalidating and defensive. What ever is happening always gets > > turned > > > back onto me or my husband and she has many berating ways to > > > illustrate why I am completely wrong in my perceptions. > > > > > > Before I was NC if she confronted me about why I was unhappy with > > our > > > relationship I had a very difficult time articulating. I could so > > > sanely and clearly relate my feelings and events to others, but > when > > > it came to talking with nada I just felt like a rabbit in the > > > headlights. (thus " headlight syndrome " ) > > > The alternative is that if I wasn't stumbling around looking for > how > > > to express myself or define the problem I was becoming totally > > enraged > > > with her and even sometimes verbally abusive to her in my terror > and > > > rage. This of course just gave her more ammo. > > > > > > I am familiar with some current brain research about the amygdala > > and > > > also fight or flight responses so I do understand some of the > > > physiological and emotional reasons for this, but it is MADDENING > > and > > > contributes to an inability to validate myself when confronted by > my > > > mother. > > > > > > Anyone else experience this " headlight " phenomenon? > > > > > > XOXO > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 I call this behavior " mining " . Always mining for details to be used later in the converstaion. I have learned to always answer by saying how busy I am. Then she can't start planning my time. this really pisses her off sometimes because she claims I have no time for her. I guess I don't have much time for someone who has so little respect or regard for me as a person in my own right and for my marriage and family. > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she calls > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you doing? " > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on the > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle of the > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, I'm > on the phone talking to you. " > > Tara > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 My nada never asks me what I am doing. And I didn't have any of the conversation problems described on this thread - cause my nada is not one for asking people about anything. Instead, she just says whatever is on her mind, and then zones out on anything that other people might be saying to her. It is actually funny to watch, because after she is finished with her pronouncements, she looks very very proud of herself. (I wish I had that skill to be able to zone out on her.) But as I am reading these experiences, I am wondering if this constant asking of what you are doing is some of the enmeshment. Does she want to know what you are doing in order to (in her mind) maintain her enmeshed connection with you? Just a thought - and I know it doesn't do anything to solve the problem. Sylvia > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she calls > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you doing? " > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on the > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle of the > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, I'm > on the phone talking to you. " > > Tara > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 My nada never asks me what I am doing. And I didn't have any of the conversation problems described on this thread - cause my nada is not one for asking people about anything. Instead, she just says whatever is on her mind, and then zones out on anything that other people might be saying to her. It is actually funny to watch, because after she is finished with her pronouncements, she looks very very proud of herself. (I wish I had that skill to be able to zone out on her.) But as I am reading these experiences, I am wondering if this constant asking of what you are doing is some of the enmeshment. Does she want to know what you are doing in order to (in her mind) maintain her enmeshed connection with you? Just a thought - and I know it doesn't do anything to solve the problem. Sylvia > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she calls > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you doing? " > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on the > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle of the > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, I'm > on the phone talking to you. " > > Tara > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 My nada never asks me what I am doing. And I didn't have any of the conversation problems described on this thread - cause my nada is not one for asking people about anything. Instead, she just says whatever is on her mind, and then zones out on anything that other people might be saying to her. It is actually funny to watch, because after she is finished with her pronouncements, she looks very very proud of herself. (I wish I had that skill to be able to zone out on her.) But as I am reading these experiences, I am wondering if this constant asking of what you are doing is some of the enmeshment. Does she want to know what you are doing in order to (in her mind) maintain her enmeshed connection with you? Just a thought - and I know it doesn't do anything to solve the problem. Sylvia > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she calls > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you doing? " > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on the > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle of the > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, I'm > on the phone talking to you. " > > Tara > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 Hmmm... You probably have a point with the enmeshment thing. Tara > > > > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she > calls > > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you > doing? " > > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on > the > > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle > of the > > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, > I'm > > on the phone talking to you. " > > > > Tara > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 Hmmm... You probably have a point with the enmeshment thing. Tara > > > > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she > calls > > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you > doing? " > > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on > the > > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle > of the > > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, > I'm > > on the phone talking to you. " > > > > Tara > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 5, 2007 Report Share Posted April 5, 2007 Hmmm... You probably have a point with the enmeshment thing. Tara > > > > > > > > > Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > > > > > > What are you doing...what are you plans. > > > > > LOL this reminds me of an annoying thing my mom does where she > calls > > you up and the first thing out of her mouth is " What are you > doing? " > > Minor, I know, but annoying. I mean, so what if I was sitting on > the > > couch picking my toe lint? Don't just call someone in the middle > of the > > day and ask them what they're doing! I sometimes responded, " Well, > I'm > > on the phone talking to you. " > > > > Tara > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 , I think I get what you mean now. When my mom was alive, the same thing would happen and I would lose all sense of rationale because all I could do at the time was react to her instead of taking any sort of action. This would come in the form of severe emotional outbursts- crying hysterically or yelling uncontrollably. If this is what you mean, when she was alive, I didn't have the tools I do now, but now when I am faced with a situation where I see myself getting out of control emotionally, I step away from the situation. If it's a phone conversation, I hang up, if its in person, I walk away until I can calm down and think rationally again. Just stopping and walking away has worked wonders- I have to get in a place where I can calm down and be clear. I hope this helps, if not I'll keep trying. > > > > > > > Anger is a problem for me, in more than one way. I both have > > > problems with getting overly > > > > angry and inappropriately angry, and conversely with getting > > angry > > > and staying angry, > > > > depending on the situation. > > > > > > and then she added: > > > > > > > On the other side, it is so hard for me to stay mad at nada. If I > > > loose my anger about what > > > > she's done, at this point I could easily be hoovered. Coming here > > > and hearing all your > > > > stories reminds me again and again why I chose LC for now. The > > first > > > time I could really > > > > get angry was when I read the first 2 chapters of SABP. One of > > those > > > check lists switched > > > > some kind of, well switch in me. Problem is, when I put down the > > > book, the switch goes > > > > off. So I tried reading it again, and again I got angry. > > > > > > What she wrote about the " switch " is really interesting to me. I > > have > > > noticed that I have a really difficult time articulating my > > feelings > > > to my nada. I know now that talking with her is never really going > > to > > > lead to any kind of light bulb moment for her in fact she is > > totally > > > invalidating and defensive. What ever is happening always gets > > turned > > > back onto me or my husband and she has many berating ways to > > > illustrate why I am completely wrong in my perceptions. > > > > > > Before I was NC if she confronted me about why I was unhappy with > > our > > > relationship I had a very difficult time articulating. I could so > > > sanely and clearly relate my feelings and events to others, but > > when > > > it came to talking with nada I just felt like a rabbit in the > > > headlights. (thus " headlight syndrome " ) > > > The alternative is that if I wasn't stumbling around looking for > > how > > > to express myself or define the problem I was becoming totally > > enraged > > > with her and even sometimes verbally abusive to her in my terror > > and > > > rage. This of course just gave her more ammo. > > > > > > I am familiar with some current brain research about the amygdala > > and > > > also fight or flight responses so I do understand some of the > > > physiological and emotional reasons for this, but it is MADDENING > > and > > > contributes to an inability to validate myself when confronted by > > my > > > mother. > > > > > > Anyone else experience this " headlight " phenomenon? > > > > > > XOXO > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Kisses and Nibbles, > > > > > > Bunny > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 , I think I get what you mean now. When my mom was alive, the same thing would happen and I would lose all sense of rationale because all I could do at the time was react to her instead of taking any sort of action. This would come in the form of severe emotional outbursts- crying hysterically or yelling uncontrollably. If this is what you mean, when she was alive, I didn't have the tools I do now, but now when I am faced with a situation where I see myself getting out of control emotionally, I step away from the situation. If it's a phone conversation, I hang up, if its in person, I walk away until I can calm down and think rationally again. Just stopping and walking away has worked wonders- I have to get in a place where I can calm down and be clear. I hope this helps, if not I'll keep trying. > > > > > > > Anger is a problem for me, in more than one way. I both have > > > problems with getting overly > > > > angry and inappropriately angry, and conversely with getting > > angry > > > and staying angry, > > > > depending on the situation. > > > > > > and then she added: > > > > > > > On the other side, it is so hard for me to stay mad at nada. If I > > > loose my anger about what > > > > she's done, at this point I could easily be hoovered. Coming here > > > and hearing all your > > > > stories reminds me again and again why I chose LC for now. The > > first > > > time I could really > > > > get angry was when I read the first 2 chapters of SABP. One of > > those > > > check lists switched > > > > some kind of, well switch in me. Problem is, when I put down the > > > book, the switch goes > > > > off. So I tried reading it again, and again I got angry. > > > > > > What she wrote about the " switch " is really interesting to me. I > > have > > > noticed that I have a really difficult time articulating my > > feelings > > > to my nada. I know now that talking with her is never really going > > to > > > lead to any kind of light bulb moment for her in fact she is > > totally > > > invalidating and defensive. What ever is happening always gets > > turned > > > back onto me or my husband and she has many berating ways to > > > illustrate why I am completely wrong in my perceptions. > > > > > > Before I was NC if she confronted me about why I was unhappy with > > our > > > relationship I had a very difficult time articulating. I could so > > > sanely and clearly relate my feelings and events to others, but > > when > > > it came to talking with nada I just felt like a rabbit in the > > > headlights. (thus " headlight syndrome " ) > > > The alternative is that if I wasn't stumbling around looking for > > how > > > to express myself or define the problem I was becoming totally > > enraged > > > with her and even sometimes verbally abusive to her in my terror > > and > > > rage. This of course just gave her more ammo. > > > > > > I am familiar with some current brain research about the amygdala > > and > > > also fight or flight responses so I do understand some of the > > > physiological and emotional reasons for this, but it is MADDENING > > and > > > contributes to an inability to validate myself when confronted by > > my > > > mother. > > > > > > Anyone else experience this " headlight " phenomenon? > > > > > > XOXO > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Kisses and Nibbles, > > > > > > Bunny > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 and , I have been the same way for so many years, it has really been work for me to learn to control my anger. I do the same thing , I walk away or hang up. It is funny, my mother now uses the hang up tool. If she is getting angry she will say " I'm going to hang up. " I really have to laugh about that. She hasn't done it with me yet, but she does it with my sister who she says has no time for her. Janie mitchell_kristin wrote: , I think I get what you mean now. When my mom was alive, the same thing would happen and I would lose all sense of rationale because all I could do at the time was react to her instead of taking any sort of action. This would come in the form of severe emotional outbursts- crying hysterically or yelling uncontrollably. If this is what you mean, when she was alive, I didn't have the tools I do now, but now when I am faced with a situation where I see myself getting out of control emotionally, I step away from the situation. If it's a phone conversation, I hang up, if its in person, I walk away until I can calm down and think rationally again. Just stopping and walking away has worked wonders- I have to get in a place where I can calm down and be clear. I hope this helps, if not I'll keep trying. > > > > > > > Anger is a problem for me, in more than one way. I both have > > > problems with getting overly > > > > angry and inappropriately angry, and conversely with getting > > angry > > > and staying angry, > > > > depending on the situation. > > > > > > and then she added: > > > > > > > On the other side, it is so hard for me to stay mad at nada. If I > > > loose my anger about what > > > > she's done, at this point I could easily be hoovered. Coming here > > > and hearing all your > > > > stories reminds me again and again why I chose LC for now. The > > first > > > time I could really > > > > get angry was when I read the first 2 chapters of SABP. One of > > those > > > check lists switched > > > > some kind of, well switch in me. Problem is, when I put down the > > > book, the switch goes > > > > off. So I tried reading it again, and again I got angry. > > > > > > What she wrote about the " switch " is really interesting to me. I > > have > > > noticed that I have a really difficult time articulating my > > feelings > > > to my nada. I know now that talking with her is never really going > > to > > > lead to any kind of light bulb moment for her in fact she is > > totally > > > invalidating and defensive. What ever is happening always gets > > turned > > > back onto me or my husband and she has many berating ways to > > > illustrate why I am completely wrong in my perceptions. > > > > > > Before I was NC if she confronted me about why I was unhappy with > > our > > > relationship I had a very difficult time articulating. I could so > > > sanely and clearly relate my feelings and events to others, but > > when > > > it came to talking with nada I just felt like a rabbit in the > > > headlights. (thus " headlight syndrome " ) > > > The alternative is that if I wasn't stumbling around looking for > > how > > > to express myself or define the problem I was becoming totally > > enraged > > > with her and even sometimes verbally abusive to her in my terror > > and > > > rage. This of course just gave her more ammo. > > > > > > I am familiar with some current brain research about the amygdala > > and > > > also fight or flight responses so I do understand some of the > > > physiological and emotional reasons for this, but it is MADDENING > > and > > > contributes to an inability to validate myself when confronted by > > my > > > mother. > > > > > > Anyone else experience this " headlight " phenomenon? > > > > > > XOXO > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Kisses and Nibbles, > > > > > > Bunny > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 and , I have been the same way for so many years, it has really been work for me to learn to control my anger. I do the same thing , I walk away or hang up. It is funny, my mother now uses the hang up tool. If she is getting angry she will say " I'm going to hang up. " I really have to laugh about that. She hasn't done it with me yet, but she does it with my sister who she says has no time for her. Janie mitchell_kristin wrote: , I think I get what you mean now. When my mom was alive, the same thing would happen and I would lose all sense of rationale because all I could do at the time was react to her instead of taking any sort of action. This would come in the form of severe emotional outbursts- crying hysterically or yelling uncontrollably. If this is what you mean, when she was alive, I didn't have the tools I do now, but now when I am faced with a situation where I see myself getting out of control emotionally, I step away from the situation. If it's a phone conversation, I hang up, if its in person, I walk away until I can calm down and think rationally again. Just stopping and walking away has worked wonders- I have to get in a place where I can calm down and be clear. I hope this helps, if not I'll keep trying. > > > > > > > Anger is a problem for me, in more than one way. I both have > > > problems with getting overly > > > > angry and inappropriately angry, and conversely with getting > > angry > > > and staying angry, > > > > depending on the situation. > > > > > > and then she added: > > > > > > > On the other side, it is so hard for me to stay mad at nada. If I > > > loose my anger about what > > > > she's done, at this point I could easily be hoovered. Coming here > > > and hearing all your > > > > stories reminds me again and again why I chose LC for now. The > > first > > > time I could really > > > > get angry was when I read the first 2 chapters of SABP. One of > > those > > > check lists switched > > > > some kind of, well switch in me. Problem is, when I put down the > > > book, the switch goes > > > > off. So I tried reading it again, and again I got angry. > > > > > > What she wrote about the " switch " is really interesting to me. I > > have > > > noticed that I have a really difficult time articulating my > > feelings > > > to my nada. I know now that talking with her is never really going > > to > > > lead to any kind of light bulb moment for her in fact she is > > totally > > > invalidating and defensive. What ever is happening always gets > > turned > > > back onto me or my husband and she has many berating ways to > > > illustrate why I am completely wrong in my perceptions. > > > > > > Before I was NC if she confronted me about why I was unhappy with > > our > > > relationship I had a very difficult time articulating. I could so > > > sanely and clearly relate my feelings and events to others, but > > when > > > it came to talking with nada I just felt like a rabbit in the > > > headlights. (thus " headlight syndrome " ) > > > The alternative is that if I wasn't stumbling around looking for > > how > > > to express myself or define the problem I was becoming totally > > enraged > > > with her and even sometimes verbally abusive to her in my terror > > and > > > rage. This of course just gave her more ammo. > > > > > > I am familiar with some current brain research about the amygdala > > and > > > also fight or flight responses so I do understand some of the > > > physiological and emotional reasons for this, but it is MADDENING > > and > > > contributes to an inability to validate myself when confronted by > > my > > > mother. > > > > > > Anyone else experience this " headlight " phenomenon? > > > > > > XOXO > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Kisses and Nibbles, > > > > > > Bunny > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 and , I have been the same way for so many years, it has really been work for me to learn to control my anger. I do the same thing , I walk away or hang up. It is funny, my mother now uses the hang up tool. If she is getting angry she will say " I'm going to hang up. " I really have to laugh about that. She hasn't done it with me yet, but she does it with my sister who she says has no time for her. Janie mitchell_kristin wrote: , I think I get what you mean now. When my mom was alive, the same thing would happen and I would lose all sense of rationale because all I could do at the time was react to her instead of taking any sort of action. This would come in the form of severe emotional outbursts- crying hysterically or yelling uncontrollably. If this is what you mean, when she was alive, I didn't have the tools I do now, but now when I am faced with a situation where I see myself getting out of control emotionally, I step away from the situation. If it's a phone conversation, I hang up, if its in person, I walk away until I can calm down and think rationally again. Just stopping and walking away has worked wonders- I have to get in a place where I can calm down and be clear. I hope this helps, if not I'll keep trying. > > > > > > > Anger is a problem for me, in more than one way. I both have > > > problems with getting overly > > > > angry and inappropriately angry, and conversely with getting > > angry > > > and staying angry, > > > > depending on the situation. > > > > > > and then she added: > > > > > > > On the other side, it is so hard for me to stay mad at nada. If I > > > loose my anger about what > > > > she's done, at this point I could easily be hoovered. Coming here > > > and hearing all your > > > > stories reminds me again and again why I chose LC for now. The > > first > > > time I could really > > > > get angry was when I read the first 2 chapters of SABP. One of > > those > > > check lists switched > > > > some kind of, well switch in me. Problem is, when I put down the > > > book, the switch goes > > > > off. So I tried reading it again, and again I got angry. > > > > > > What she wrote about the " switch " is really interesting to me. I > > have > > > noticed that I have a really difficult time articulating my > > feelings > > > to my nada. I know now that talking with her is never really going > > to > > > lead to any kind of light bulb moment for her in fact she is > > totally > > > invalidating and defensive. What ever is happening always gets > > turned > > > back onto me or my husband and she has many berating ways to > > > illustrate why I am completely wrong in my perceptions. > > > > > > Before I was NC if she confronted me about why I was unhappy with > > our > > > relationship I had a very difficult time articulating. I could so > > > sanely and clearly relate my feelings and events to others, but > > when > > > it came to talking with nada I just felt like a rabbit in the > > > headlights. (thus " headlight syndrome " ) > > > The alternative is that if I wasn't stumbling around looking for > > how > > > to express myself or define the problem I was becoming totally > > enraged > > > with her and even sometimes verbally abusive to her in my terror > > and > > > rage. This of course just gave her more ammo. > > > > > > I am familiar with some current brain research about the amygdala > > and > > > also fight or flight responses so I do understand some of the > > > physiological and emotional reasons for this, but it is MADDENING > > and > > > contributes to an inability to validate myself when confronted by > > my > > > mother. > > > > > > Anyone else experience this " headlight " phenomenon? > > > > > > XOXO > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Kisses and Nibbles, > > > > > > Bunny > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 >Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. >What are you doing...what are you plans. >She also wants details...omg..it is so intense. this is so opposite from my nada...my nada is so uninterested in me, that she never ever asks these questions...if I even start to tell her anything that I've been doing in the past year ( I hardly ever speak to her, as she's never interested in anything I do) I can get 2-3 words out, and she interrupts me and changes the subject, or she'll just get up and walk away... Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 Jackie, My mother isn't interested in anything I do or have to do either. All she is interested in is herself, my daughter and especially my oldest grandson, she is somewhat interested in the younger grandson, as tomorrow is his birthday, and she doesn't know how she is going to take him shopping for his birthday. He wants hip-hop clothes, and my nephew who he is living with wants him out of those clothes, and also he can't be with my mother alone. So I don't know how this is going to work. My mother even though it is my daughter and grandson, can't understand how my sister and I don't want people who are ruining and wasting their lives controling ours. I am going to have to put my foot down, we have gone the last 3 Sundays, and again tomorrow to visit my grandson in prison. I am expected to pick his girlfriend and son up, then go get my mother, then sit for 2 hrs. with nothing to do. It is getting old fast, I don't have time for anything for me. I AM GOING TO HAVE TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN!!!!!! Janie sleddog wrote: >Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. >What are you doing...what are you plans. >She also wants details...omg..it is so intense. this is so opposite from my nada...my nada is so uninterested in me, that she never ever asks these questions...if I even start to tell her anything that I've been doing in the past year ( I hardly ever speak to her, as she's never interested in anything I do) I can get 2-3 words out, and she interrupts me and changes the subject, or she'll just get up and walk away... Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 What I was talking about is not actually genuine interest in me, it is her interest in how I can be of service to her. When she asks me what I am doing or what my plans are it usually means that she is wondering what I can do for her or she is looking for something to identify as a problem in my life. When I would talk about my own life, which was infrequent, the conversation always turned into her " thing " . At best her interest in my life would often be in relation to some sort of problem--like having too many things on my plate (the underlying message being therefore I don't have enough time for her). i don't even think this was a totally conscious tactic on her part. Just part of her percieved need to get her needs met by any means necessary. If I confronted her about this she would deny it vehemently and in fact tells everone including me that I am her primary concern. A lot of people hear that and believe her, but that is not the message that comes across in our interactions. In fact i don't believe I should be her primary concern. I have been an adult for 20 plus years and doing well (with the exception of my relationship with her). My children are happy and healthy and involved in school and friends. There is really very little for her to worry about with us except for what she creates. Tara wrote of the enmeshment factor with this behavior and I think that factors in mightily. She has a great need for total enmeshment with my children and me. My husband is perceived as an outsider and she speaks of him this way. If she is denied that enmeshment through clear boundary setting she gets really upset and that is when she strikes out the most. In fact if you even say the word " boundary " in her presence she goes off on a tirade about " unhealthy American nuclear family bullsh*t destroying elders and blaming the mother for all the problems. . etc. etc. " XOXO > > >Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > >What are you doing...what are you plans. > >She also wants details...omg..it is so intense. > > > this is so opposite from my nada...my nada is so uninterested in me, that > she never ever asks these questions...if I even start to tell her anything > that I've been doing in the past year ( I hardly ever speak to her, as she's > never interested in anything I do) I can get 2-3 words out, and she > interrupts me and changes the subject, or she'll just get up and walk > away... > > Jackie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 That is exactly what my mother does!!!! Janie michelle wrote: What I was talking about is not actually genuine interest in me, it is her interest in how I can be of service to her. When she asks me what I am doing or what my plans are it usually means that she is wondering what I can do for her or she is looking for something to identify as a problem in my life. When I would talk about my own life, which was infrequent, the conversation always turned into her " thing " . At best her interest in my life would often be in relation to some sort of problem--like having too many things on my plate (the underlying message being therefore I don't have enough time for her). i don't even think this was a totally conscious tactic on her part. Just part of her percieved need to get her needs met by any means necessary. If I confronted her about this she would deny it vehemently and in fact tells everone including me that I am her primary concern. A lot of people hear that and believe her, but that is not the message that comes across in our interactions. In fact i don't believe I should be her primary concern. I have been an adult for 20 plus years and doing well (with the exception of my relationship with her). My children are happy and healthy and involved in school and friends. There is really very little for her to worry about with us except for what she creates. Tara wrote of the enmeshment factor with this behavior and I think that factors in mightily. She has a great need for total enmeshment with my children and me. My husband is perceived as an outsider and she speaks of him this way. If she is denied that enmeshment through clear boundary setting she gets really upset and that is when she strikes out the most. In fact if you even say the word " boundary " in her presence she goes off on a tirade about " unhealthy American nuclear family bullsh*t destroying elders and blaming the mother for all the problems. . etc. etc. " XOXO > > >Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > >What are you doing...what are you plans. > >She also wants details...omg..it is so intense. > > > this is so opposite from my nada...my nada is so uninterested in me, that > she never ever asks these questions...if I even start to tell her anything > that I've been doing in the past year ( I hardly ever speak to her, as she's > never interested in anything I do) I can get 2-3 words out, and she > interrupts me and changes the subject, or she'll just get up and walk > away... > > Jackie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 My mom would ask plans when I was in high school, that stopped. Like you Jackie, I could never get 2 words in a conversation. It was always her going on and on, never asking how I was. I used to put the phone down, walk away for 5 minutes, pick the phone back up and she never knew I was gone. > > >Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > >What are you doing...what are you plans. > >She also wants details...omg..it is so intense. > > > this is so opposite from my nada...my nada is so uninterested in me, that > she never ever asks these questions...if I even start to tell her anything > that I've been doing in the past year ( I hardly ever speak to her, as she's > never interested in anything I do) I can get 2-3 words out, and she > interrupts me and changes the subject, or she'll just get up and walk > away... > > Jackie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 , Wish I could lay the phone down, but I can't. If I just sit and listen, or pretend I am she will say " are you there? " Janie mitchell_kristin wrote: My mom would ask plans when I was in high school, that stopped. Like you Jackie, I could never get 2 words in a conversation. It was always her going on and on, never asking how I was. I used to put the phone down, walk away for 5 minutes, pick the phone back up and she never knew I was gone. > > >Yes....Yes and yes again. My nada still will do that. > >What are you doing...what are you plans. > >She also wants details...omg..it is so intense. > > > this is so opposite from my nada...my nada is so uninterested in me, that > she never ever asks these questions...if I even start to tell her anything > that I've been doing in the past year ( I hardly ever speak to her, as she's > never interested in anything I do) I can get 2-3 words out, and she > interrupts me and changes the subject, or she'll just get up and walk > away... > > Jackie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 > My mother isn't interested in anything I do or have to do either. All > she is >interested in is herself, my daughter and especially my oldest > grandson, she is >somewhat interested in the younger grandson, as tomorrow > is his birthday, happy birthday to you younger son !! since I did not have kids, she's not interested in anything about me.. > I AM GOING TO HAVE TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN!!!!!! yes, you are...this is your life and you should live it as you see fit, not as your nada thinks it should be Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 > My mother isn't interested in anything I do or have to do either. All > she is >interested in is herself, my daughter and especially my oldest > grandson, she is >somewhat interested in the younger grandson, as tomorrow > is his birthday, happy birthday to you younger son !! since I did not have kids, she's not interested in anything about me.. > I AM GOING TO HAVE TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN!!!!!! yes, you are...this is your life and you should live it as you see fit, not as your nada thinks it should be Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 > My mother isn't interested in anything I do or have to do either. All > she is >interested in is herself, my daughter and especially my oldest > grandson, she is >somewhat interested in the younger grandson, as tomorrow > is his birthday, happy birthday to you younger son !! since I did not have kids, she's not interested in anything about me.. > I AM GOING TO HAVE TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN!!!!!! yes, you are...this is your life and you should live it as you see fit, not as your nada thinks it should be Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 6, 2007 Report Share Posted April 6, 2007 >What I was talking about is not actually genuine interest in me, it is her interest in how I can be of service to her. When she asks me what I >am doing or what my plans are it usually means that she is wondering what I can do for her or she is looking for something to identify as a >problem in my life. When I would talk about my own life, which was infrequent, the conversation always turned into her " thing " . At best >her interest in my life would often be in relation to some sort of problem--like having too many things on my plate (the underlying message being therefore I don't have enough time for her). my nada wouldn't even beat around the bush in this manner...she'd just blurt out what she thinks, with no hint of caring or concern..I was playing cards with my husband, dad and brother one time at the parents house..nada comes up to me, and says she wants me to get blah blah blah down from the closet shelf and then vacuum the house because guests were coming...no please, no when you can..just do it now !! I suppose if I had had kids, maybe she'd see me differently, but as it is, she still thinks I'm her slave.. Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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