hello everyone

[Guest guest]

i saw dr rand wednesday and i must say that i have been tossed into

a depression.

i am wondering if this is the place to 'be' or vent my fears and

such when everyone i talk to in my life (who have not been through

anything like this) is telling me to 'stay positive' and remember

it's almost over, and 'not that bad'.

i really need to know what is ok in here. is it ok to lose it

because i am being scheduled for a mylegram, and that dr rand told

me that that it would be great if, in addition to everything else,

get off of methadone, the only pain reliever i take?

hmmm...one year ago i was a two pack a day smoker and taking enough

morphine to put down the olympic ski team. all that and began my

bachelors degree.

i dunno- i am feeling very robbed and not positive, what do you all

do when that happens? - when the fear is just too much?

thanks, and you are all in my thoughts and prayers.