Guest guest Posted January 21, 2004 Report Share Posted January 21, 2004 great, Barbara, that you were able to do some writing!!! I finally did too, last week, after months of nothing. i know what you're going through with the stupid memory problems. I try to joke about it too, but it IS emotionally painful. i'm so embarrassed to ask my " new " manager his name every day for the past 6 weeks. I'm serious...every single day. I'm like, " What's your name again? " he just looks at me like I can't be serious. What do i do? at the doctor's office, I don't dare answer the phone to help out the girls in the phone room when we're extremely busy and the phones are ringing off the hook because if I need to page one of the medical assistants, I can't remember their names. Sigh, Sheila BARBARA SCHULZ <beschulz@...> wrote: There is great wisdom in your post. I still have problems with my memory. I joke that my computer has more memory than I do, but it is emotionally painful. I lost my desire to write and my friends told me they were worried because I was so sad all the time. I can tell that my creative side is trying to come back. I was actually able to do some writing last week! Keep the faith, Barb Kemal Kalajdzic <kemalandsheila@...> wrote: yes, yes, yes!!! Very well spoken!!! Hugs, Sheila Aprilcupcake@... wrote:At the worst point in my illness, it was my memory that was greatly affected. I had difficulty remembering where I had left things, and conversations that I had with people sometimes daily. I had two or three traffic violations in a six month period! and I am a great driver. So, I knew something was really wrong. The memory loss however was the most painful. Think about what an important role our memory has in our everyday... Without it we cannot mentally recognize those things that are meaningful to us. Even things like all of the different shades of green in ONE tree. The sweet contours of our childrens face... Our favorite food... The sun on our bodies....When our mind is in " low gear " we don't " remember " that we were able to appreciate and love those things. Colors lose their vibrance, textures lose their appeal because we have forgotten basically that these things are important to our very being. Once my chemistry was more balanced, those things started to return. I think it is more difficult for those of us who have a more creative spirit. Because it is entirely who we are. At least it is for me... There are all sorts of different spirited people on this planet for a reason. We all compliment each other, we all have our purpose. I know that I am here to create and maintain an environment that is beautiful and peaceful for the others. Some of us are " thinkers " some of us are " teachers " some of us are builders etc... We all need each other, none is less important. I just know MY place. So when my passion was sapped, I knew that I was off the path and I could not do my part and that became very depressing for me. The only thing that kept me going, was the knowledge that " this isn't the me that I was, or is supposed to be. " And luckily I found someone to listen and help.... We all inately " know " who and what we are... some of us tend not to listen, or we are too busy wanting to be something we are not, or we let someone else decide. So I think that we can all recognize when something just isn't right. But, because those who care for us are usually trying to tell us what we " should " feel and we " ought " to be. We sometimes second guess ourselves. It took me awhile to trust my instincts, but I have found it to be much more reliable. Things will turn around for you! trust yourself.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2004 Report Share Posted January 21, 2004 does the thyroid meds not help regain your memory? Re: Barbara-memory > great, Barbara, that you were able to do some writing!!! I finally did too, last week, after months of nothing. > > i know what you're going through with the stupid memory problems. I try to joke about it too, but it IS emotionally painful. i'm so embarrassed to ask my " new " manager his name every day for the past 6 weeks. I'm serious...every single day. I'm like, " What's your name again? " he just looks at me like I can't be serious. What do i do? > > at the doctor's office, I don't dare answer the phone to help out the girls in the phone room when we're extremely busy and the phones are ringing off the hook because if I need to page one of the medical assistants, I can't remember their names. > > Sigh, Sheila > > > BARBARA SCHULZ <beschulz@...> wrote: > There is great wisdom in your post. I still have problems with my memory. I joke that my computer has more memory than I do, but it is emotionally painful. I lost my desire to write and my friends told me they were worried because I was so sad all the time. I can tell that my creative side is trying to come back. I was actually able to do some writing last week! > > Keep the faith, > > Barb > > Kemal Kalajdzic <kemalandsheila@...> wrote: > yes, yes, yes!!! Very well spoken!!! Hugs, Sheila > > Aprilcupcake@... wrote:At the worst point in my illness, it was my memory that was greatly affected. > > I had difficulty remembering where I had left things, and conversations that > I had with people sometimes daily. > I had two or three traffic violations in a six month period! and I am a > great driver. > So, I knew something was really wrong. > > The memory loss however was the most painful. > Think about what an important role our memory has in our everyday... > Without it we cannot mentally recognize those things that are meaningful to > us. > > Even things like all of the different shades of green in ONE tree. > The sweet contours of our childrens face... Our favorite food... > The sun on our bodies....When our mind is in " low gear " we don't > " remember " that we were able to appreciate and love those things. > > Colors lose their vibrance, textures lose their appeal because we have > forgotten basically that these things are important to our very being. > Once my chemistry was more balanced, those things started to return. > > I think it is more difficult for those of us who have a more creative spirit. > Because it is entirely who we are. At least it is for me... > > There are all sorts of different spirited people on this planet for a reason. > We all compliment each other, we all have our purpose. > I know that I am here to create and maintain an environment that > is beautiful and peaceful for the others. > > Some of us are " thinkers " some of us are " teachers " some of us > are builders etc... We all need each other, none is less important. > I just know MY place. > So when my passion was sapped, I knew that I was off the path > and I could not do my part and that became very depressing for me. > The only thing that kept me going, was the knowledge that " this isn't > the me that I was, or is supposed to be. " > And luckily I found someone to listen and help.... > > We all inately " know " who and what we are... some of us tend > not to listen, or we are too busy wanting to be something we are > not, or we let someone else decide. > > So I think that we can all recognize when something just isn't right. > But, because those who care for us are usually trying to tell us > what we " should " feel and we " ought " to be. > We sometimes second guess ourselves. It took me awhile > to trust my instincts, but I have found it to be much more > reliable. > > Things will turn around for you! trust yourself.... > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2004 Report Share Posted January 21, 2004 Hi Barbara! I get the stammering too, but sometimes I just plain blow it! During our best friends' wedding party this summer, I toasted the bride and groom. Okay, the groom has been our best friend for like 7 years. well, I called him by my husband's name...in front of everyone AND recorded on tape.. Thanks for sharing! I don't feel so alone!! Hugs, Sheila BARBARA SCHULZ <beschulz@...> wrote: I've been at my job for 30 years. Imagine how embarrassing it is for me to not remember someone's name. There are some times when I go to say something and it's like my jaw and tongue lock up, and nuttin' but stammerin' comes out. Before I knew I had something to explain my state of being, I thought I was going into alzheimer's! It's a relief to know there's a cause! Barb Kemal Kalajdzic <kemalandsheila@...> wrote: great, Barbara, that you were able to do some writing!!! I finally did too, last week, after months of nothing. i know what you're going through with the stupid memory problems. I try to joke about it too, but it IS emotionally painful. i'm so embarrassed to ask my " new " manager his name every day for the past 6 weeks. I'm serious...every single day. I'm like, " What's your name again? " he just looks at me like I can't be serious. What do i do? at the doctor's office, I don't dare answer the phone to help out the girls in the phone room when we're extremely busy and the phones are ringing off the hook because if I need to page one of the medical assistants, I can't remember their names. Sigh, Sheila BARBARA SCHULZ <beschulz@...> wrote: There is great wisdom in your post. I still have problems with my memory. I joke that my computer has more memory than I do, but it is emotionally painful. I lost my desire to write and my friends told me they were worried because I was so sad all the time. I can tell that my creative side is trying to come back. I was actually able to do some writing last week! Keep the faith, Barb Kemal Kalajdzic <kemalandsheila@...> wrote: yes, yes, yes!!! Very well spoken!!! Hugs, Sheila Aprilcupcake@... wrote:At the worst point in my illness, it was my memory that was greatly affected. I had difficulty remembering where I had left things, and conversations that I had with people sometimes daily. I had two or three traffic violations in a six month period! and I am a great driver. So, I knew something was really wrong. The memory loss however was the most painful. Think about what an important role our memory has in our everyday... Without it we cannot mentally recognize those things that are meaningful to us. Even things like all of the different shades of green in ONE tree. The sweet contours of our childrens face... Our favorite food... The sun on our bodies....When our mind is in " low gear " we don't " remember " that we were able to appreciate and love those things. Colors lose their vibrance, textures lose their appeal because we have forgotten basically that these things are important to our very being. Once my chemistry was more balanced, those things started to return. I think it is more difficult for those of us who have a more creative spirit. Because it is entirely who we are. At least it is for me... There are all sorts of different spirited people on this planet for a reason. We all compliment each other, we all have our purpose. I know that I am here to create and maintain an environment that is beautiful and peaceful for the others. Some of us are " thinkers " some of us are " teachers " some of us are builders etc... We all need each other, none is less important. I just know MY place. So when my passion was sapped, I knew that I was off the path and I could not do my part and that became very depressing for me. The only thing that kept me going, was the knowledge that " this isn't the me that I was, or is supposed to be. " And luckily I found someone to listen and help.... We all inately " know " who and what we are... some of us tend not to listen, or we are too busy wanting to be something we are not, or we let someone else decide. So I think that we can all recognize when something just isn't right. But, because those who care for us are usually trying to tell us what we " should " feel and we " ought " to be. We sometimes second guess ourselves. It took me awhile to trust my instincts, but I have found it to be much more reliable. Things will turn around for you! trust yourself.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2004 Report Share Posted January 21, 2004 Hi Barbara, Right on! glad people at your work are supportive...awesome that you're talking about this disease!!! Hugs, Sheila BARBARA SCHULZ <beschulz@...> wrote: Unfortunately, this disorder is not given enough publicity. The first time I heard about it was when my dog was diagnosed with it. My mom never mentioned she had a thyroid disorder. I have made it a point to inform my relatives, esp. the females and tell them to get tested. I was recently diagnosed with Hashimoto's and when I sent them info on it, they all made appts. to get tested. I think that others, other than friends, have enough on their minds and don't care about anyone elses problems. They only take notice when it affects them. If the subject does come up, I try to " educate " them, quote a few statistics and they are usu. surprised to hear what I have to say. Folks at work were very understanding when I told them what was wrong with me. I let the publisher know my diagnosis and we had a nice chat. I gave him as much information as I could find on it. I have also asked the others in my dept. to let me know if they see any changes in me that I may not notice. For me, I put on 20 lbs. quickly, so folks who know me usu. take notice of that first. I have lost two lbs. and it was hard work. I'm tall so people tell me that the extra pounds don't show much, but pictures tell a different story. As far as society goes, I am who I am with all the " warts " that life sends me. Cher <hary722001@...> wrote: Do you all find everyone supportive or understanding about this being hypo related? The few times I have started to address it as the culprit, people treat me like I am a hyprochondriac making excuses. I have the same brain freeze. And it is so difficult because I'm in sales. Sales people are suppose to be very verbal and remember names. I keep wondering how long I can keep covering up these episodes without sacrificing my career. It makes it harder that my age and physical appearance don't support a chronic condition. I caught the disorder early enough and am vigiliant about diet and exercise so I have minimized the damaged. Of course I have gained a lot of weight, but still within the norm for society. I agree that the memory is the most devastating part of this disorder. At the worst point in my illness, it was my memory that was greatly affected. > > I had difficulty remembering where I had left things, and conversations that > I had with people sometimes daily. > I had two or three traffic violations in a six month period! and I am a > great driver. > So, I knew something was really wrong. > > The memory loss however was the most painful. > Think about what an important role our memory has in our everyday... > Without it we cannot mentally recognize those things that are meaningful to > us. > > Even things like all of the different shades of green in ONE tree. > The sweet contours of our childrens face... Our favorite food... > The sun on our bodies....When our mind is in " low gear " we don't > " remember " that we were able to appreciate and love those things. > > Colors lose their vibrance, textures lose their appeal because we have > forgotten basically that these things are important to our very being. > Once my chemistry was more balanced, those things started to return. > > I think it is more difficult for those of us who have a more creative spirit. > Because it is entirely who we are. At least it is for me... > > There are all sorts of different spirited people on this planet for a reason. > We all compliment each other, we all have our purpose. > I know that I am here to create and maintain an environment that > is beautiful and peaceful for the others. > > Some of us are " thinkers " some of us are " teachers " some of us > are builders etc... We all need each other, none is less important. > I just know MY place. > So when my passion was sapped, I knew that I was off the path > and I could not do my part and that became very depressing for me. > The only thing that kept me going, was the knowledge that " this isn't > the me that I was, or is supposed to be. " > And luckily I found someone to listen and help.... > > We all inately " know " who and what we are... some of us tend > not to listen, or we are too busy wanting to be something we are > not, or we let someone else decide. > > So I think that we can all recognize when something just isn't right. > But, because those who care for us are usually trying to tell us > what we " should " feel and we " ought " to be. > We sometimes second guess ourselves. It took me awhile > to trust my instincts, but I have found it to be much more > reliable. > > Things will turn around for you! trust yourself.... > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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