Now i am herxing

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i am so tired and in so much pain. still waiting for the tests to

come back now the fear we all have if they come back negative. I

don't know I am so fed up and just so tired. I went from not sleeping

to sleeping all the time. Now the sweats and the pain. The fogs have

been ok and the depression is very bad. I hate lyme I hate what this

has done to me I hate my life right now. It seems as if this will

never end even though I know it will. but at what cost and will it

get worse. Will I be bed ridden again will I lose my mind more then I

feel I have lost it already. I am on about 10 meds most to control

the mental part of lyme and a few for pain and a few antibotics. I am

so tired. I can't let this win but I feel like I want to give up just

sleep this away. is this possible? does anyone els feel like this? I

just want to go back into remmission. I want a normal life agin fo

now. I am young only married 7 yrs and want children and a life. I

see none of this possible. help.