Enbrel 8

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Hi all,

I know this post is going to be a little incoherent, but it is my

current state of mind, so please bare with me.

, nice to see you posting again and thank you for the

compliment. Unfortunately, for you, I intend to keep that light

shining for a long time, long time. Brent, wonderful news to hear

you are somewhat recovering.

This has been the hardest week I've endured for a long time with

heightened anxiety. Hardly any sleep, panic attacks galore, where

has Bjork gone? She's " Playing Dead " . Injections are a nightmare, I

can't help but think that the next one is the one that's going to

kill me, that every ache and pain, twitch etc is down to the Enbrel.

Hitting the prog rock hard, Pendragon, Spock's Beard, Dream Theater,

(can't get used to the foreign spelling) LOL Magnum, Genesis. Think

I might have to try some chill out music like Metallica or Halifax

or Placebo. Oh by the way, I'm going to see Mountain tomorrow in

Sheffield, Nantucket Sleighride and all that, apparently its about

illegal drinking(quite appropriate for us). As for Led Zeppelin

lullabies, I saw them in 79 at Knebworth with Todd Rundgren,

Utopia. He was amazing with his magenta hair, I bought a couple of

albums but they didn't live up to his live performance. So, what did

my parents bring home, Procol Harem, Jimi Hendrix, Them, The Troggs.

LOL Can't help but think about 's mum singing " Stairway to

Heaven " and headbanging to the guitar solo, looking up from

her cot suitably impressed. She sounds like some kind of lady. My

mum, well she is 79 and broke her hip and wrist last year and is

recovering well.

I have come to thinking that I have been prescribed a drug that

costs thousands of pounds a year on the NHS, so maybe I am not as

well as I like to think I am. I think I need a little more support

than I am currently getting and am looking for a support group in

the near city of Bradford. On a lighter note, the P is getting

better though and it's been foggy and raining in West Yorkshire

today, for a change, and I'm not laid up on the sofa. My nails look

a lot better especially on my feet. I still can't wear a black

shirt, but maybe soon and black jeans and black......and no hat!!!

Well I've run out of things to say, thank God, I hear you say, and I

heard those prayers. So, soldiers of the line, I will if you will,

Keep the light shining,

Ian.