Re: Healing from the heart

[Guest guest]

I have missed yuse guys, we have been moving.

The question was asked, " When did you stop singing? When did you stop

dancing? When did you stop being in awe of stories told?... When someone or

something broke a woman’s heart, all that remains is a defeated chemistry.

Doctors

try and cure breast cancers with drugs; alternative healers use herbs; let us

not forget the deep down healing of a woman's soul. " by Sam Bizer

I filed for divorce. In the early days of the diagnosis, in reading

survivor accounts was particularly impressed with a lady who is convinced what

saved

her life was her determination not to die with her husband's name. My

husband says our marriage was good until the diagnosis. Be that what it may.

I

have seen his worst when I needed him the most. It was not until I got away

from him that I really realized how stressed I have been, especially the last

two years since the diagnosis. The life insurance did not help and is an

issue that needs to be addressed in general.

I went to see oncologist #4 yesterday, in part for upcoming custody hearing.

The first oncologist said I would probably only live three years and that

was with continuous chemo. I have had that fear looming in the shadows for

two years now. This doc was much more encouraging stating that after the first

few years the risk of recurrence decreases to 20%. He did a chest x-ray and

lab work which were good, and sternly recommended a mammogram. He said it

fine I have the port taken out and did not intimidate me with the insistence

of chemo.

I am still the best provider of my health care. It was a bit comical as

they did not have my records yet and I overheard the nurse telling him by my

report that I was ER-, PR- and HER + and he was surprised I knew that.

He will work with the alternative MD and if I have to have a doc,(s) am

grateful I finally found one to work with that is not so arrogant to think that

my only hope is at his hands. I have been trying to do this backwards, heal

physically thinking the emotional would be secondary. Now my emphasis is on

healing from the inside out. Peace of mind, serenity as the cornerstone

rather than an after effect and believe my body will respond accordingly.

Thank

you all for being here.

[Guest guest]

Hello,

I am new to this list and am here because my wonderful dog has cancer.

I hope it is not presumptuous for me to reply to this post, but I

found it very moving and not unlike Henry's in that it seems like the

journey to healing is one of the soul. When I was younger and actually

had time to read I read some of the world's great mythology and people

like ph and Heinrich Zimmer. It seems that all of the

great myths start out with a great loss/shake-up for the hero, who

then has to go to the ends of the earth to heal. Along the way he or

she gets advice, both good and bad, has to sort it out, endures great

hardship and danger, and returns with what was needed to become

complete. It is so amazing to see this in people and how for each

person it is something different. Relationships are a double edged

sword. When do they deplete you and when help you grow? Thank you for

sharing this.

Pam G

donna wrote:

> I have missed yuse guys, we have been moving.

> The question was asked, " When did you stop singing? When did you stop dancing?

When did you stop being in awe of stories told?... When

someone or something broke a woman's heart, all that remains is a defeated

chemistry. Doctors try and cure breast cancers with drugs; alternative healers

use herbs; let us not forget the deep down healing of a woman's soul. " by Sam

Bizer

> I filed for divorce. In the early days of the diagnosis, in reading survivor

accounts was particularly impressed with a lady who is convinced what saved her

life was her determination not to die with her husband's name. My husband says

our marriage was good until the diagnosis. Be that what it may. I have seen

his worst when I needed him the most. It was not until I got away from him that

I really realized how stressed I have been, especially the last

> two years since the diagnosis. The life insurance did not help and

is an issue that needs to be addressed in general. I went to see oncologist #4

yesterday, in part for upcoming custody hearing. The first oncologist said I

would probably only live three years and that was with continuous chemo. I have

had that fear looming in the shadows for two years now. This doc was much more

encouraging stating that after the first few years the risk of recurrence

decreases to 20%. He did a chest x-ray and lab work which were good, and

sternly recommended a mammogram. He said it fine I have the port taken out and

did not intimidate me with the insistence of chemo. I am still the best provider

of my health care. It was a bit comical as they did not have my records yet and

I overheard the nurse telling him by my report that I was ER-, PR- and HER + and

he was surprised I knew that. He will work with the alternative MD and if I have

to have a doc,(s) am grateful I finally found one to work with that is not so

arrogant to think that my only hope is at his hands. I have been trying to do

this backwards, heal physically thinking the emotional would be secondary. Now

my emphasis is on healing from the inside out. Peace of mind, serenity as the

cornerstone rather than an after effect and believe my body will respond

accordingly. Thank you all for being here.