Re: Digest Number 2880=sensitivity to obesity

January 17, 2004

I had a real flash bah last Wednesday. I had to go to a cardiologist

for an echocardiogram. I was explaining some of my medical history to

the tech. about WLS and she was obviously quite ignorant and said well,

I just don't understand how people can let themselves get that way.

(obviously she didnt see the morbidly obese person lurking inside of my

135 pound body. ) I did my best to talk about hormones, heredity, other

health issues. etc you know the story. she says to me well THEY just

need to exercise more. I asaid it is awfully hard when your knees, feet,

back etc are in awful pain when you do. Then she says well then THEY

should jus t stop eating. I in my usual beating my head on a brick wall

mode tried to explain, and she says - well I eat 2500 + calories a day

and *I* dont gain all that weight. All I could say was well then you are

very lucky, BUT it may catch up wth you someday. and shut my self up.

You know - leaving I felt like the old morbidly obese person I was

before instead of the healthy looking beautiful person I am.... My self

esteem was in a rat hole. I felt my self moving slow and heavy and felt

just HUGE. I had to really look at my self in the mirror to see if the

125 # were back. Then I had to go buy myself a brand new black leather

coat size Med and some med petite sweaters. At least I didn't go on an

eating binge and I feel pretty again. I feel like saying something to

the cardiologist about his employee when I go back tho.

January 17, 2004

> (obviously she didn't see the morbidly obese person lurking inside

of my

> 135 pound body. )

*********** I never know which personality this kinda ignorance

will release with me. The one that says, " Oh? And how long did YOU

live on 300 cal/day, raising kids, working a job and keeping a home? "

Or to try to explain it away.

All I know when I read this statement was your meek 'n mild self

with a furious monster of pent up GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! coming out!

January 17, 2004