Ready to give up...

[Guest guest]

Well this week my parents have went away for the week to Sauble

Beach to a nice cabin just off the beach. They left last saturday

but since I had plans for that weekend with the concert (that I

didnt end up getting to go to) and the small get together that night

(which went great) I didnt go with them. I was going to leave on

tuesday to go up since I had the MRI on the monday afternoon. Well

when I woke up on tuesday my wrist and knee where aching so badly

there was just no way I was going to be able to comfortably drive

3.5 hours in a car without cruise control. Well I got up today and

was feeling slightly better. I was waiting to see if my friend

could get time off work to go with me. She didnt call until 2ish.

Being the hottest time of the day (And I was exhausted and just

wanted a nap at that point), I decided to maybe go this evening.

Well this afternoon I went out in the backyard in my bathing suit

tyring to get a little colour (I look like a ghost! I swear!). Well

I was out there for about one minute and I was completly covered in

a thin layer of sweat, plus ended up not feeling well so came in

shortly after. Well around 7 I decided that I would pack up and

start on the 3.5 hour drive. Well I got the car packed, and filled

it with gas and started on my way. I got about 15 minutes away and

had to turn around. I was so hot and sweaty plus sick to my

stomach, had a headache and found it difficult to breath. I am now

resting at my air conditioned home and not planning on moving for a

while. I talked to my parents who didnt seem too disappointed that

I wasnt going to be there. I do have the opportunity to get a ride

up with the people who are also going up, they leave tomorrow

morning. I am just scared that I will get up there and feel

horrible. I mean that would make the last few days horrible for me

and horrible for my parents. I really hate this as I had to cancel

my week in KW because of being sick and now have to cancel this week

as well becasue of health issues. I mean do I only get one day that

I can be 'normal' every 4 months??? I just wanted to go up and see

my nephew at the beach, but now dont feel I can I really dont

know whethere I should go up or not.

Stacey