Could use some prayers.

[Guest guest]

I must say this Christmas and New Year has been very difficult. As

most of you know, I lost my mother in August of 2003. So I had to

face the holidays for the first time without her. That was hard in

itself. I found out right after Thanksgiving that I was pregnant. The

best news I could have ever received. Then just a few weeks ago, I

found out it was twins......a double blessing. Then a couple of days

before Christmas, I was told there was a 50/50 chance I'd lose the

twins. So my Christmas was spent with this burden of possibly losing

my babies and not having my mother here with me. Then New Years Eve

Day I lost both babies. I almost bled to death, had to have two blood

transfusions, and almost had to have a hysterectomy to stop the

bleeding. Thank God that didn't happen. They went through my belly

button to see if I was bleeding internally, which I wasn't. The

bleeding finally stopped, but now I am left feeling empty, weak, and

depressed. I fully believe this was God's plan. I don't doubt that.

But it's so hard. Believe it or not, I loved those babies. I loved

being pregnant. Please just pray for my husband and me. This is a

difficult time. A lady I work with and am close to is pregnant. She

got pregnant the same time I did. It will be difficult seeing her go

through this. Don't get me wrong, I pray she has a healthy pregnancy.

My husband and I are going wait a until this fall and try again. My

body needs time to heal. Thanks for listening.

God Bless,

-350 lbs

Open RNY 11-30-01