I just need to vent a little.

October 5, 2004

I have written in only a few times, as I usually find it very

helpful just to read other's posts and replies. But I really need

some support. I feel like I am losing my mind. For almost 10

months my son Dane has been doing so well. At one week old, he was

casted. And he was only casted for 2 weeks before getting fitted

with the DBB. He didn't need surgery. He wore the DBB fulltime

(23/7) until he was six months old in June and since then has been

wearing it only at bedtime. Just in the last few weeks, he has been

extremely restless at night. He sleeps fine until he starts trying

to turn on his side, then he wakes up crying hysterically. I know

this because he still sleeps in our room. He then wakes up every

ten minutes all thru the rest of the night! This has been very hard

on all of us, considering that he started sleeping thru the night at

just eight weeks old. I feel just aweful complaining about this,

but it is really taking it's toll on me. Not to mention my poor

little baby, who can't get a decent night of sleep. Lately I have

been so frustrated around 2-3AM that I just take the DBB off!!! He

then sleeps quietly for the rest of the night. I KNOW this is a

horrible habit that I have gotten into. And I feel sick about it.

But I am soooo exhausted and desperate for sleep and so is Dane. I

just made an appointment for him to get fitted with new shoes and a

new DBB. I honestly don't know if that'll help, but I am hoping.

Thank you for listening. I just needed to vent. No one understands

how hard this has been on me. I feel selfish saying that, but it's

the truth. I waited four long years to have a baby and after going

thru IVF, I never expected to have this happen. I didn't even know

what Clubfoot was until after Dane was born with it. Blah, blah,

blah. Enough of my whining. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely

grateful and I feel VERY blessed to have a healthy beautiful

baby!!!! Thank you again for listening.

Sonja

Dane-10 months

DBB at bedtime

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