feelings of regret??/depressed

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Thanks to my friend who's studying psychology, she asked me if i

would regret having the surgery because i would be saying " goodbye "

to an old familiar face that i've known for the past 24 years of my

life. Seriously now, has anybody here who's doing the surgery more

so for appearance purposes felt guilty after the surgery?? I'm not

going to lie, i'm doing this more so for cosmetic purposes because

i'm tired of people judging me before they get to know me, i thought

that nonesense would've stopped at high school,,,it didn't. I know

that i might've developed feelings of social anxiety disorder as a

result of this, like i think people are judging me and laughing at me

and 60% of the time, i'm right *sigh* I refuse to date any guy

because of my insecurities about my jaw and how i was devastated when

my ex out of the blue just contacted me days after new year's and

called me a very upsetting word that isn't a curse word but is a very

negative adjective. I told my 2 OSs some horror tales and the one

got all teary eyed, (a guy!!) too. I just hope I can overcome all

this emotional pain because i'm been through too much in my young

life already not refering to what i put up and it's all just

overwhelming sometimes. Sorry to put this on the board,,,i'm too

embarrased to tell my friends this but since nobody here knows me, at

least i got this off my chest ) lia