Sorry it has been so long

June 25, 2002

I haven't posted for quite a long time, not even sure when was the

last time. I had a stent placed in Feb, removed in April. While it

was in I was always in pain and nauseated, after it was removed

things started to get better, then I developed Meniere's Disease, an

inner ear problem. I was able to get completely off of the pain meds,

but still did not feel very good since the meniere's causes quite a

lot of nausea. The meniere's seems to be settling down quite a bit,

but now i am back in severe pain with my pancreas. I know I need to

see a doctor again, but I do not want to go back to my former GI, he

just doesnot know what to do for me. I have talked to the PA in my

family doctors office, and she will refer me elsewhere when i am

ready. Right now I have plenty of pain meds, so I am going to wait

until after July 15. We have quite a few plans that I really don't

want to upset if I can help it.

On July 6 my husbands birth father, who he has never met, is coming

to spend the night and meet our kids. It is quite a stressful time

for me, I am trying to keep my husband calm so that he can enjoy

meeting his father. I have gone through the same experience so I do

know exactly what he is feeling. On July 11, my husbands birthday, we

are going to our cabin in the upper peninsula of Michigan for the

weekend with our youngest son. After this I will go back to the

doctor, I know I cannot possibly go on like this for much longer.

Most days after work, I am so tired i just lay in front of the tv. no

energy at all. If I look at the computer screen too long I get dizzy,

that is the meniere's again, if I eat I am in pain and nauseated,

sometimes I wonder if all this is worth living for. Today is one of

those days.

But I do have some good news, i am getting a raise finally, after 1

1/2 years, I really do deserve this I just wish it had come sooner,

but at least the stress of feeling unappreciated at work will ease

for a while.

i better close now, I need to lay down for a while. I will try to

post more often, I do read daily, when I am feeling up to it. Maybe I

will be able to make it to the chat room soon.

Sharon in Michigan

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