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[Guest guest]

Hey ladies

The weird thing about my reaction- I've never had any problems with mac. nuts. The reason I think that was it- I had NOTHING else that day (except for the cookies with those in it). . Thought I would share a little with our weekend.

Sam is sick. We're doing breathing treatments more often than I would like. Hoping to keep him out of the hosptial this time around!

He has (as we all have) this gunk going around. Hoping he can kick it soon. He seems to be doing quite a bit better today. WE have our fingers crossed.

Now on to ME. I've copyed & pasted this from another email so I didn't have to write it all out.

Oh yeah, I had a MAJOR (I would say anaphylactic) reaction to macadamina nuts (at least that is the only thing I can possibly think of) on Friday night. It was weird b/c I was doing dishes and started feeling kinda sick to my stomach. Ran to the bathroom thinking it was gas. I felt a bit better- tried to go back to doing dishes and thought I was going to be sick. Sure enough- I started getting very sick. I couldn't understand what was happening at first. It just made no sense. Then I started itching under my arms, on my head, and in my elbow joints. I called Kayla to bring me Sam's benedryl bag (this also had epi-pens in it). I started hurting, and feeling very strange. wasn't home from work yet. I called his brother and told him to call in 10min. and if I didn't answer to rush over b/c I was having a reaction. I started throwing up at that point, and couldn't keep the benedryl down. I was also experiencing some werid symptoms- my ear drums felt swollen- my hearing was very sensitive, and they were throbbing. Then started feeling these shock like feelings on my tonge. I was started to freak. I kept thinking.....this might be it. What am I going to? I yelled for Kayla to get as soon as he pulled in (which I knew would be only minutes). By the time he walked in a few minutes later I was head to toe covered in hives. I was cramping up and sooooo sick. I couldn't move. But, then I started getting light headed. He called the doctor and started calling people to pray! Long story- shorter - after 4 doses of benedryl I started coming out of it. This all started about 7:00pm and I didn't feel better until about 11:00pm then I fell asleep only to wake up an hour later with leg pains. The only thing I can think of- maybe b/c my blood pressure was dropping during the reaction it took the blood from the muscles in my legs- so lack of oxygen was the reason for the cramping? Anyway, now I'm fine. I'm going to get tested and see if I should be carrying an epi-pen for ME! In hind site....at the time I was very scared- but still didn't have the sense to go ahead and rush to the ER- with Sam's epi-pens in hand. It all turned out fine, but it could have been worse! I know I scared - he just kept praying.

The weird thing about my reaction- I've never had any problems with mac. nuts. The reason I think that was it- I had NOTHING else that day (except for the cookies with those in it). Not healthy or smart- but go figure!

Funnny thing (ok- not funny), but when some of you were saying you didn't get allergies until after a pregnancy, I was thinking I was very lucky to have never had any problems! So now I guess I join some of you?!

I'm seriously considering going in for some more testing just to make sure! Guess I'll probably get an epi-pen to carry with me now?

Trish (CO)Kayla (5)- No allergies (4)- E/A (2)- anaphlyatic to egg, severely allergic milk, peanuts, all tree nuts, soy, other foodsE/A including dogs & cats. Asthma & eczema

[Guest guest]

That is part of our recovery...doing things, going

placs, meeting people and just simply doing what feels

down right good to our souls. Keep on with discovering

yourself. I am more than positive that you are going

to be please with what you find.

Take care.

Pam

--- musil321 scorchio321@...> wrote:

> Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on

> the mail. I missed

> you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new

> folks.

>

> I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up

> to find a wonderful,

> patient husband, great daughter and a life with

> activity in it. Who

> needs food when I am this busy?

>

> Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was

> fun. I went to

> two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock

> mainly did the song

> Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he

> make me smile!

> Sure did.

>

> It was great to go and sit right up front and not be

> embarassed that I

> am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know

> this is hard to

> think about but I am just being honest. Worth has

> been a real issue

> for me since the weight loss and I have started to

> feel more worthy.

> Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just

> more acceptable.

> I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures

> of him. It was

> great. He asked for requests and I hollered out

> this very random song

> he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was

> shocked. He pointed

> at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for

> you " . I about

> passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a

> major way. So after

> the show my husband and daughter just said " go with

> your friends and

> see about getting your autograph and we will be

> sleeping in the car. "

> How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the

> tour manager (he

> knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and

> would be down in a bit

> to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this

> is only my second

> time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came

> down the stairs he

> came over and hugged my other friends and came over

> to me and hugged

> me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just

> talked to us for

> about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We

> got more hugs and I

> did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at

> the same time and

> said our goodbyes.

>

> I about danced to the car. I woke up the next

> morning and told my

> husband that it was a total " I could have danced all

> night, kind of

> night " . I think you all will know what I mean.

>

> but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from

> a 80's pop star it

> is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I

> wasn't thinking to

> myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am

> not going to meet

> him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal "

> person (ok no

> comments from people that know me). *grin*

>

> The next day we went to see him again at a festival

> and it was outside

> and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he

> went on I got caught

> up in the show and didn't care that I was in the

> front row right in

> front of him. I was there and having a blast and

> not the ugly fat

> girl. He looked out at the audience and said that

> we were a mighty

> sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my

> self worth but

> still felt great. He looked over at our little

> foursome of women from

> the night before and actually waved at us and even

> said one of my

> friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well,

> we didn't stay to

> meet him cause we had just seen him the day before

> and we wern't even

> sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a

> great weekend for

> me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and

> wore it the next

> day.

>

> My life is different. I am giving myself credit and

> value.

>

> I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage

> and dancing along

> with the other people and enjoying life. (wow

> re-reading this I got a

> bit misty eyed)

>

> I think I will get up each day and just try to stand

> at the front of

> the stage with the other good people.

>

> I like that.

>

> (wondering what my next adventure will be and

> glad I have you all

> to share it with)

>

>

>

>

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Pam you are so good to me.

Thanks you.

>

> > Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on

> > the mail. I missed

> > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new

> > folks.

> >

> > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up

> > to find a wonderful,

> > patient husband, great daughter and a life with

> > activity in it. Who

> > needs food when I am this busy?

> >

> > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was

> > fun. I went to

> > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock

> > mainly did the song

> > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he

> > make me smile!

> > Sure did.

> >

> > It was great to go and sit right up front and not be

> > embarassed that I

> > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know

> > this is hard to

> > think about but I am just being honest. Worth has

> > been a real issue

> > for me since the weight loss and I have started to

> > feel more worthy.

> > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just

> > more acceptable.

> > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures

> > of him. It was

> > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out

> > this very random song

> > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was

> > shocked. He pointed

> > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for

> > you " . I about

> > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a

> > major way. So after

> > the show my husband and daughter just said " go with

> > your friends and

> > see about getting your autograph and we will be

> > sleeping in the car. "

> > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the

> > tour manager (he

> > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and

> > would be down in a bit

> > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this

> > is only my second

> > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came

> > down the stairs he

> > came over and hugged my other friends and came over

> > to me and hugged

> > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just

> > talked to us for

> > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We

> > got more hugs and I

> > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at

> > the same time and

> > said our goodbyes.

> >

> > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next

> > morning and told my

> > husband that it was a total " I could have danced all

> > night, kind of

> > night " . I think you all will know what I mean.

> >

> > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from

> > a 80's pop star it

> > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I

> > wasn't thinking to

> > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am

> > not going to meet

> > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal "

> > person (ok no

> > comments from people that know me). *grin*

> >

> > The next day we went to see him again at a festival

> > and it was outside

> > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he

> > went on I got caught

> > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the

> > front row right in

> > front of him. I was there and having a blast and

> > not the ugly fat

> > girl. He looked out at the audience and said that

> > we were a mighty

> > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my

> > self worth but

> > still felt great. He looked over at our little

> > foursome of women from

> > the night before and actually waved at us and even

> > said one of my

> > friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well,

> > we didn't stay to

> > meet him cause we had just seen him the day before

> > and we wern't even

> > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a

> > great weekend for

> > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and

> > wore it the next

> > day.

> >

> > My life is different. I am giving myself credit and

> > value.

> >

> > I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage

> > and dancing along

> > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow

> > re-reading this I got a

> > bit misty eyed)

> >

> > I think I will get up each day and just try to stand

> > at the front of

> > the stage with the other good people.

> >

> > I like that.

> >

> > (wondering what my next adventure will be and

> > glad I have you all

> > to share it with)

> >

> >

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

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Check it out!

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[Guest guest]

WOW that sounds so wonderful!!! Life is full of wonderful

experiences that were probably there all along but our weight kept us

back!! Enjoy your liberation and continue to live life to the

fullest. You go girl!!!

Huggles

> Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on the mail. I

missed

> you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks.

>

> I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a

wonderful,

> patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it.

Who

> needs food when I am this busy?

>

> Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went

to

> two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the

song

> Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me

smile!

> Sure did.

>

> It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed

that I

> am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard

to

> think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real

issue

> for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more

worthy.

> Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more

acceptable.

> I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It

was

> great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random

song

> he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He

pointed

> at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for you " . I about

> passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So

after

> the show my husband and daughter just said " go with your friends

and

> see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the

car. "

> How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he

> knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a

bit

> to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my

second

> time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs

he

> came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and

hugged

> me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us

for

> about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs

and I

> did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and

> said our goodbyes.

>

> I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my

> husband that it was a total " I could have danced all night, kind of

> night " . I think you all will know what I mean.

>

> but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop

star it

> is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking

to

> myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am not going to

meet

> him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal " person (ok no

> comments from people that know me). *grin*

>

> The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was

outside

> and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got

caught

> up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in

> front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat

> girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty

> sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but

> still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women

from

> the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my

> friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay

to

> meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't

even

> sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for

> me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next

> day.

>

> My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value.

>

> I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along

> with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I

got a

> bit misty eyed)

>

> I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front

of

> the stage with the other good people.

>

> I like that.

>

> (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you

all

> to share it with)

[Guest guest]

Great, great post my sweet little . I would wax on about how moving it all was...but I'm off to do my gazillions of errands before the big day...musil321 wrote:

Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on the mail. I missed you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks. I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a wonderful, patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. Who needs food when I am this busy? Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went to two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the song Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me smile! Sure did. It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed that I am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard to think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real issue for me since the weight loss and I have started

to feel more worthy. Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more acceptable. I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It was great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random song he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He pointed at me and said, "ok, we are going to try it just for you". I about passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So after the show my husband and daughter just said "go with your friends and see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the car." How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a bit to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my second time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs he came over and

hugged my other friends and came over to me and hugged me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us for about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs and I did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and said our goodbyes. I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my husband that it was a total "I could have danced all night, kind of night". I think you all will know what I mean. but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop star it is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking to myself "poor guy has to hug the fat girl" or "I am not going to meet him cause I am too fat." I know he saw a "normal" person (ok no comments from people that know me). *grin*The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was outside and a

blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got caught up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women from the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay to meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't even sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next day. My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value. I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing

along with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I got a bit misty eyed)I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front of the stage with the other good people. I like that. (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you all to share it with)

[Guest guest]

Girl, you were there for me and still are. I know no

other way to be to you. I can never repay you for

take this journey with me. Thank you from the bottom

of my heart. I truly will NEVER EVER forget you. I

miss you and pray for you and about you for a much

sucessful journey.

As always, much love to you and a great big hug dear.

Pam

--- musil321 scorchio321@...> wrote:

> Pam you are so good to me.

>

> Thanks you.

>

>

> >

> > > Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up

> on

> > > the mail. I missed

> > > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the

> new

> > > folks.

> > >

> > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken

> up

> > > to find a wonderful,

> > > patient husband, great daughter and a life with

> > > activity in it. Who

> > > needs food when I am this busy?

> > >

> > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It

> was

> > > fun. I went to

> > > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's

> rock

> > > mainly did the song

> > > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh

> yes, he

> > > make me smile!

> > > Sure did.

> > >

> > > It was great to go and sit right up front and

> not be

> > > embarassed that I

> > > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I

> know

> > > this is hard to

> > > think about but I am just being honest. Worth

> has

> > > been a real issue

> > > for me since the weight loss and I have started

> to

> > > feel more worthy.

> > > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am

> just

> > > more acceptable.

> > > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking

> pictures

> > > of him. It was

> > > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out

> > > this very random song

> > > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I

> was

> > > shocked. He pointed

> > > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just

> for

> > > you " . I about

> > > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a

> > > major way. So after

> > > the show my husband and daughter just said " go

> with

> > > your friends and

> > > see about getting your autograph and we will be

> > > sleeping in the car. "

> > > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to

> the

> > > tour manager (he

> > > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and

> > > would be down in a bit

> > > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because

> this

> > > is only my second

> > > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he

> came

> > > down the stairs he

> > > came over and hugged my other friends and came

> over

> > > to me and hugged

> > > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he

> just

> > > talked to us for

> > > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy.

> We

> > > got more hugs and I

> > > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left

> at

> > > the same time and

> > > said our goodbyes.

> > >

> > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next

> > > morning and told my

> > > husband that it was a total " I could have danced

> all

> > > night, kind of

> > > night " . I think you all will know what I mean.

>

> > >

> > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug

> from

> > > a 80's pop star it

> > > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug.

> I

> > > wasn't thinking to

> > > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I

> am

> > > not going to meet

> > > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a

> " normal "

> > > person (ok no

> > > comments from people that know me). *grin*

> > >

> > > The next day we went to see him again at a

> festival

> > > and it was outside

> > > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he

> > > went on I got caught

> > > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the

> > > front row right in

> > > front of him. I was there and having a blast

> and

> > > not the ugly fat

> > > girl. He looked out at the audience and said

> that

> > > we were a mighty

> > > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for

> my

> > > self worth but

> > > still felt great. He looked over at our little

> > > foursome of women from

> > > the night before and actually waved at us and

> even

> > > said one of my

> > > friends names in a song. How cool is that?

> Well,

> > > we didn't stay to

> > > meet him cause we had just seen him the day

> before

> > > and we wern't even

> > > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what

> a

> > > great weekend for

> > > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large

> and

> > > wore it the next

> > > day.

> > >

> > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit

> and

> > > value.

> > >

> > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the

> stage

> > > and dancing along

> > > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow

> > > re-reading this I got a

> > > bit misty eyed)

> > >

> > > I think I will get up each day and just try to

> stand

> > > at the front of

> > > the stage with the other good people.

> > >

> > > I like that.

> > >

> > > (wondering what my next adventure will be

> and

> > > glad I have you all

> > > to share it with)

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > __________________________________

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> > Find restaurants, movies, travel and more fun for

> the weekend.

> Check it out!

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>

>

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