Re: Hi this is my first post from a young diabetic, and I just need to vent :)

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> QUESTION #1 HAS ANYONE ELSE EVER HAD A BS THIS HIGH (1862)???

> No I was only around 600 but the CDE at the hospital was talking about somene

who lived after being in the 2000's she had that other disorder that is

called " diabetic stroke "

> QUESTION #2 IF YOU HAVE BEEN IN A DIABETIC COMA... DO U HAVE MEMORY

> LOSS FROM THE TIME BEFORE YOUR COMA?

> Terrible memory loss, and Ive been depressed ever since. i was in a coma

right before my 25th birthday. They say it will get better and I hope it does.

-Ellen

Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

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> So

> basically I don't care right about now about my kidneys or my eyes or

> anything like that, I just DON'T want to poke myself anymore!!!!

> It's all so depressing, I am only being honest (once again) when I

> say that I have tried to kill myself 3 times b/c of my health

> problems and diabetes and having no Dad b/c he died so young of the

> same thing I have.  My very good buddy at work Henry died just last

> week of diabetes (ketoacidosis we think but maybe heart failure?

>

I really think you ought to talk to your doctor about how your feeling. By

not testing your BS you are slowly killing yourself. If you hate the finger

sticks that much (by the way try one of the newer kits like the freestyle flash)

there is the glucowatch (866 GLWatch) or glucowatch.com. it will test your

sugar through your skin. Not quiet as accurate but a good alternative, better

than

not testing. Ketoacidosis can lead to heart failure as the circulatory system

collapses, I went through that first hand. Im not trying to be harsh, as I

understand. Ive watched my mother slowly die of this over the years and Im

scared about my own future. Im only 25 myself so I know its diffficult to be

young

and sick but try to think of it this way, this is the only life you have, try

to concentrate on the day, such as control your sugars each day so you will

feel good in the moment, and think less about the long term

<< when Grandma weighs 280# and eats sugar all the time and

takes Glucophage or some other pill for her diabetes... like ummmm

yea, well she's got something a little different hun! >>

Reminds me of that DHS witch when I was trying to get state health insurance,

she said " you could have been working a lot of people hear have diabetes " .

They one) dont have the same type and ther is a difference 2) werent in a coma

(May 04) and resusitated. Its frustrating to have a difficult to manage disease

that no one seems to understand, but everyone (the gen public) thinks they

are an expert on.

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I would suggest finding something you do believe in. A sport, a hobby,

finishing college. Stop worrying about the future and think about the now. Focus

on

making each day happier as it could be the last (and that is really true for

anyone, sick or not). The following website helped me a lot when I thought no

one with diabetes lived long

Famous Diabetics--Actors

<< my damn HbA1C under 10 or my BS's under 200

regularly, from when I used to test regularly, and everyone who calls

me non-compliant is not even a diabetic so how the hell are they

gonna demand that I do all that I need to do???!!!!!

WOULD SOMEBODY PLEASE ANSWER ME ON ALL THIS???  HAS ANYONE ELSE WITH

TYPE I DIABETES EVER FELT LIKE THIS?????????????????????

>>

I have gotten my A1C to 6.4, but it required testing before I ate, and an

hour afterword. I have to watch it costantly. It seems as if you are just

getting

completely burned out which is understandable but dangerous. Say all that you

have said to us to your doctor, tell him/her exactly what is going on. If

your doctor wont help you get a better one. Overall i would suggest you begin to

focus on each day, the small picture instead of the big one. Find some things

to do that make you happy, such as college, or working out, painting etc. Your

still here, no one's life is guarenteed. Someone without an illness might be

hit by a bus tomorrow. Start living each day like it was your last. I hope

things get better for you, feel free to email me if you want to talk. Im a new

type one (May 04) and your age (25). Personally ive been recently frustrated by

the expense of this all, as i cant get health insurance even when I called

places specializing in cancer and aids patients. Made me feel great, they can

get

insurance and I cant. WTH. So it is very normal to be frustrated by this, but

you need to start focusing on each days and find some ways to take care of

yourself that are acceptable (like the watch instead of pokes)

-Ellen

Oklahoma City, Oklahoma