Guest guest Posted December 29, 2004 Report Share Posted December 29, 2004 Tonia - I'm really worried about you. I just got to this letter after reading the zillions of others here. Please think about what you're saying. I'm so concerned about how depressed you are right now...... I hope that you're seeing someone but please also keep checking in with us. Is there anything I can do? Barbara wrote: Gene's life would be so much easier if I wasn't in it. He would be able to work, he would have money, less stress, more fun. Even if he had all 3 kids, he'd be better off without me. All I am to him is a huge rock on his back that he doesn't need. Thats why I keep telling him that he'd be better off without me. And, that is why he's got every sharp knife in the house put up out of my reach and sight. Because he knows that I'll try to take care of the problem and end the misery. With me gone, he'd be able to go and get a good job, the kids would be happier because I wouldn't be around to yell at them all the time, they would get everything they want because their daddy gives it to them anyways, my Sister in law would get her wish and would be able to raise 2 little girls that she couldn't have......the works. Tonia Tonia, I am sure that neither the children or Gene would feel lucky especially if you committed suicide. Believe me I had a very close friend whose Mom committed suicide and the guilt she felt was almost unbearable, this happened after high school. I remember when my parents separated a long time ago, I ran to my room and I thought it was all my fault, that is how your daughters would feel, that maybe if they had been better then you still be with them. Please stop thinking this way, not to mention Petey how confused will he be without his Momma. I watch how excited Katelin gets when comes to pick her up, she is so happy to see her, she goes running up and says Hi Momma!!. What does Gene say to you when tell him that he would be better off without you? If he has hidden all the knives then I am thinking that he disagrees with you. Please seek help, you are too valuable to your family and to your cyber family. I will be praying for you, that this deep depression that has you in it's grip will go away. I love you like a sister, so I really mean this CALL ME if you have any more of these notions and you need to talk, scream or just vent. Lin No virus found in this outgoing message.Checked by AVG Anti-Virus.Version: 7.0.298 / Virus Database: 265.6.6 - Release Date: 12/28/2004 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 30, 2004 Report Share Posted December 30, 2004 Hi Tonia, You must realize that you will not be helping Gene but sentencing your children and him to a life of horrible memories. Suicide can be such a selfish act, yes selfish not selfless act, I know personally of kids who went off the deep end, so to speak, and never had a normal day after finding their parent or parents shot gun blasted bodies. Is this what you want for your kids? For Gene. You must remember he is with you because he loves you. I know that I tell Greig all the time he should run for the hills and get himself a healthy woman, that I can't do nearly enough to help with all he does. He tells me that just the cooking and caring are far more than he has ever gotten and doesn't want to think of life with out me. And even his dogs are happier with me in their lives. This is probably how Gene thinks too, And you have children too. Please get help! Felice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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