Guest guest Posted December 26, 2004 Report Share Posted December 26, 2004 Cathy, Sorry that I haven't been posting or anything the past week or so.....I've been a bad Moderator and friend to everyone. And yes, I said the S word. The depression has been bad the past few weeks, which is why I haven't been around. I haven't even been near my computer.....to read or reply to emails. All I've been doing is either laying around in bed or on the couch watching TV or sleeping. I could of cared less about Christmas, shopping for Christmas....anything to do with Christmas. The kids have been driving me crazier than normal....Petey won't stay out of anything, the Girls refuse to listen and constantly mouth off, especially Crystal.......and Gene lets them walk all over me all the time. Nothing new there.....thats an every day occurance around here. Any more, I just don't see any reason to keep breathing. I just hope every night that I'll stop breathing in my sleep and not wake up the next morning. Thats how far in the black hole I've reached. I have reached rock bottom with no sun light in sight. All I do anymore is take up space in this house and thats about it. Whats even worse is that Gene could get a good job right now if he wanted to, but if he did, we'd lose my medical, and then I'd have to go off all of my meds because we wouldn't be able to afford them. Its a no win situation. Either he goes to work or I keep my meds. Needless to say, that really didn't help me get out of my depression! Well, I hope that you had a good Christmas..... Tonia -------Original Message------- hllo . how was your day and how are you feeling. right now i am brokeout in terrible blister on my back. they are red and buring. no ideawhat it is. hope you had a good day. cathy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 26, 2004 Report Share Posted December 26, 2004 >Tonia Im so sorry to hear that you are feeling so down right now. The dreary days cant be helping either...but realize that waking every day and watching even the slightest second of your children smiling and maybe even playing nicely together is enough of a reason to keep going. Its very difficult to have to make those decisions where its either work or not because one or the other is going to cause hardship...that isnt fair in the least and Im sure brings way more stress than anyone can imagine unless they have lived those circumstances. Tonia, I wish you the very best during this impossibly difficult time in your life but know that we are here to listen and lend a sturdy shoulder, come here and vent, cry and scream...we will listen and not judge you! Much love Donna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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