My Problem..... ready to pick a fight- most stressfull job ever- dirty dishes

[Guest guest]

OK. So nw I'm pretty sure my 'spouse problem' is realy a 'ME' problem. Maybe

because I

am so exhausted from lack of restorative sleep and I haven't showere in, well

awhile, and

maybe because I have been prevented, by lifes little curveballs, from

going to therapy over the past three weeks- whatever the cause, I have

definately got

myself into a ready to pick a fight over anything mindset. If anyone out there

wants to

play, we could take it outside right now.

yesterday, I dimly recall, I yelled t Honey for " being manipulative " . I don't

even remember

what it was all about, not the foggiest. But it was mean. Despite this, Honey

continues to

be nice to me; has not turned to the bottle; is keeping up her side of the

household

managment; goes to her classes and meeting; even does extra nice stuff for me

like hand

washing my new skirt that I peed on when I was coughing. All that when she has

the

scarey medical tests coming up over the next few weeks.

I am so tired I can't think right. Last time I slept I had this perpetual dream

about the

most stressful job I ever had- working at a shelter for homeless/street kids.

I am going to leave the dirty dishes in the sink an take a nap now.

[Guest guest]

If anyone out there wants to

> play, we could take it outside right now.

I'll be a good sport since we both have FM and will be on an even

playing field.

<--Puts an Eveready battery on shoulder, and invites to knock it off.

(

I can rig up an old bowling ball on a length of chain to use as a

wrecking ball and really attack the dumpster.