From Caro: VERY Happy with group prayer results/all other prayers too :-D

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In a message dated 4/2/2004 5:00:16 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

aase.m@... writes:

> Thought chain for Caro and Bill

Thank you everybody. I am beginning to read my emails. I was too stressed

before but let me tell you; all of these prayers from many of my online friends

have worked. The results for whatever reason are amazing. Here are some

positive happenings:

The timing, in the way that Bill's final illness pointed me out to our

doctors that I need help. Thank God we choose to go to the same doctor. That was

unique, as the doctor was our recommended EDS GP doctor.

That finally, a social worker would sit at his bedside and help him finally

apply for his SSD ... from his bed by phone. This action resulted in the timely

phone appointment day of Monday, March 22, 2004. He performed poorly to the

interviewers questions and she had to speak with me instead. So all paperwork

from that time is coming addressed to me. This same interview generated an SSI

application. However, It was that very night that he went back to the ER. He

did not want to go. I wanted him to go. I was concerned that he was so stiff

and could not tie his shoes. I did that. He was in pain and did not want me to

see it. This, the last time he was in my home.

I also suppose my absence from being at the hospital after his four

admissions, showed medical staff how difficult it was for me to get to the

hospital.

They could not understand how he kept saying I was more ill then he, what with

his double lung, liver and brain cancer. The two times I did go to the

hospital, the nurses tried to persuade ME to go to the ER. That felt bad. The

day I

was there last Sunday, March 28th he was sitting up watching TV. He was

concerned about a special chair for me. He knew I could stay there longer if I

laid on

my side. When I was ready to leave, he stood and walked to the hall

surprising me. The next day we called, he was moaning about pain and barely

talking.

The next day Tuesday he could answer the phone but no longer talk. Another day

and I knew not to call. I was notified that the cancer had become aggressive

.... and mention of days. This status changed one more time and I was told to

have family members arrive pronto. Family means his Mom. With that, she arrived

Friday afternoon to see him instead of a planned Saturday. With this my MIL saw

her son alive and able to hold his hand. She being a nurse was knowledgeable

of his final condition more than me. Bill passed the next day at 345 PM

4/3/04.

And so the paperwork continued to arrive. I received the usual SSI " not

eligible letter " the day before he died. But, that allowed me to see that page

two

talked about a < > and how to write a plan. I presume that allows

me to finally explain how my SSD funds for Bill was used. Another thought, I

think my GP doctor was concerned when he found I gave up my pain prescriptions

for Bill medications. I tolerated that for four months.

Meanwhile, somewhere, somehow these doctors signed me up for our state aging

group. I had just had my 55 birthday. So I was registered last week and the

food started TODAY Monday. The food was frozen so they included a new microwave.

[Of course I had one years ago, but it burned out last year.] This delivery

today included county food bank foods. Besides the Entenmann's marshmallow

chocolate cake, can soups that just happened to be my favorite, favorite Mott's

brand applesauce with cinnamon, favorite maple cinnamon oatmeal, here was my own

brand of coffee: Maxwell house, fresh day old Italian bread and 14 dinner

meals. The social worker person said he apologized that they were all the

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flavor. They were all Roast Beef with mushroom and gravy, veggies and baked

potato with roll. One of my favorites. So, I feel I AM in the midst of a

miracle. I also feel a little strange that I have all this food and why I could

not

accomplished this nutrition when Bill was home. Now add to this, Meals on

wheels, a hot meal with a bag lunch and fresh salad and soup. I am in heaven

meal

wise. That is my little ramble of appreciation everyone. Thank you all. Caro.