Count down to 3:00 PM today to do funeral paperwork :-(

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Hi all,

This is it. Count down to the final paperwork today -- Sunday, April 18th. I

am going between make sure I look sane: comb hair, nice outfit and make the

apartment looks good. I got documents pulled from every box and storage out. It

is best that I stay offline for a time. I know I will finally feel a little

better when this paper signing part is over.

I still find it < > since he is still in

hospital, even though it is the morgue. What I mean he was in the hospital for

weeks

at a time. So it still feels like he is just away :-(. When they get here at

3:00 PM, I will not be able to fool myself any longer. I know what is going on,

but it is like some bad dream or vague disbelief. I never knew his illness

would go so fast. But when I count the months he did have the projected eight to

ten months. For all it is worth. Healthy folks out there. Do not smoke. And

get your chest x-ray yearly or as required. I read that only the earliest

staged lung cancer has a decent survival rate.

And yes, this is my first experience with making final arrangements. I was

overseas when my Mother died in 1977. Years later, with my father my Step Mom

was there. For those who I wrote to about Bill's Mom she said to tell all THANK

YOU for concerns about her health. She called 911 last night and was taken to

the ER. She was given three hours of dialysis and is recovering. She got over

stressed and ill being off schedule with her visit to me two weeks ago. She is

now stable but too ill to travel here. I will take pictures. Caro