weigh in and rant (contains strong language)

[Guest guest]

First, the good news is I lost another pound - I'm down to 169.2, and

up to 45.2 pounds lost.

Now, the venting: 45.2!!!! Why do I still see NO difference? I'm

still a fat-ass, I still have a disgusting gut, big thighs, huge

hips, and, oh, the goddam backfat!!! I know a few clothes are fitting

better, but when I see my naked body in the mirror, it all just looks

the same!

All right, so I know the BIG problem (besides me being so bloomin'

FAT) is the goddam gym. I NEEEEEEEED to go. But I'm so TIRED! I'm at

my office job right now, worked the retail job already. Work the

retail job again tomorrow, am hoping-*hoping* to go to the gym after.

I'm scheduled 1pm to 9pm. I need some sleep, I've just got to get at

least 8 hours tonight, so let's say I get up at 11am, get some

groceries before work, then make sure to take gym clothes with me so

can go straight from work. Of course, I also need to try to stay late

if I can, an hour or two, because they overpaid me on this week's

check, and are going to take it back out of my next two checks, which

will also have deductions for benefits, and I don't want them to be

too puny! I'm so frustrated and feel sooooooooooo overworked! Yet,

I'm still not working enough, I haven't done the second draft on my

music feature article, I'm not ahead - I haven't been bidding on

enough future pieces. UGH! I went off on a couple (retail) coworkers

today, just snapped from being hungry (I was way overdue for my lunch

break), tired, overworked, and underappreciated.

(sigh)

ok, I'm done. =+)

Catalina