stress and flares

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Hi yall...Chippy Chipmunk here...

I have heard many times that stress can bring on flares...I do not know

all the aspects of the testing stuff yall talk about. I do know that I

was borderline on the first Lupus screening and my ANA was low on the

second so...but I do have the discoid lupus rash....so my PCP diagnosed

it as discoid lupus...

Stress...I am beginning to get really stressed out. I take two

buisprone daily, nerve pill, and one anti depressant, lexapro...and I

can feel the stress building up again...it is much like a rubber band

tightening in the pit of my stomach...

What is causing my stress...My daughter is back on sea rotation in the

Navy and has been deployed on and off for the past month. She literally

had her hands pinned under a tomahawk missile last week. If she would

not have had her gloves on, she would have cut off her fingers...I do

not like it when she is at sea...

Remember the Cole = October 12, 2000 in the Port of Arden in

Yemen...when creatures bombed the Cole and killed seventeen sailors...my

daughter was on that ship and missed being blown apart by two feet. So

I do not look too kindly at deployments...I actually want to throw up

everytime I think of it.

My son in law was in the Red Sea when the Shock and Awe campaign began

the war in Iraq...He was shooting off tomahawk missiles...I saw it on

CNN and literally threw up from the stress...It felt like my head was

gonna blow up on my shoulders...

As the time nears for my daughter to go to her six month deployment I

already have figured out the destination...and I know I will be in a

major flare by then...If I just sit here, I dwell so much on it...

All of you who have son and daughters that live near you, I envy you so

much. My son in law, daughter and my grandson live one thousand three

hundred seventy two miles from me...and that is one way...I get to see

my grandson maybe twice per year. And that is really hard on me. I am

missing so much of his firsts...but South Louisiana is my home. I even

see houses for sale here and dream of them moving in them...it would be

so nice for me to have my family near me.

I spent all of mothers' day alone...but i spend every holiday alone...so

it should have not mattered that much....but it does cause I get lonely

for my family...Mine is very small...

I am scared...I am scared that the same thing will happen again since my

daughter is back to sea...and we may not be so lucky this time...It was

only an angel and God that saved her...nothing more...I hope we are just

as lucky if anything should happen again...

It is so hard having a kid in the military during these times...America

military are being used for target practice in Iraq...even American

civilians are not safe in that country. I just want this mess to be

over so that all our boys and girls can come back home to their

families...Let the Iraquis take care and rebuild their own country with

their own money...we rid them of their head creature...now let them

stand on their feed and rebuild their country...

I am very proud of my military children...but they do give up so much to

serve their country...more than many may realize.

My son in law was not even there when his son was born...He was in that

hell hole called the Persian Gulf and I was here for my daughter and my

grandson...and this hurts him to this day...he wanted to be there for

his son...

So if you ever see anyone that is or has served our country, please

thank them...for serving and for sacrificing so much so that we can

remain safe and free...

And email me yall...maybe if I am busy writing emails back and forth, I

will not dwell on this and get so keyed up....thanks chippy