Re: re:greetings to all/mojo

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Ronika,

My birthday is tomorrow also! I had forgotten and you just reminded me. I battle depression myself and I vent a lot on this list. I take medication to help with the depression.

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re:greetings to all/mojo

Mojo....... Thanks so much for the response. Actually after reading your message and other messages I don't feel so bad! It seems that I start to feel sorry for myself and then I read what other people are going thru and I feel bad for complaining. I think the hardest thing lately has been going thru the chemo, I have been violently sick, that on top of the every day aches and pains makes me one cranky girl! On my personal life.... I think my ex-husband has really messed me up. I have met such a wonderful guy over the past several months he has become my best friend he has been there for me so much. He told me last night that he was in love with me, which scared me. My ex husband use to yell at me all the time for being sick, durring that time I was going thru chemo due to the cervical cancer, so I was sick a lot and didn't feel like going out like a lot for newlyweds our age. Also durring our marriage I had two miscarriages, he told me often that he blamed me for them and he said that I was ruining his life. I think going thru that, I am scared to let someone in again. I have always tried to deal with everything myself and I try not to complain or let other's know how bad I feel. This guy is so wonderful, he has been such a great friend to me, I have been able to open up to him like I have no other person. I guess I am just scared. I have also been battling depression the last couple of weeks...I was curious if you or any one else is also battling depression? Anyway I hope you and all the other lupies out there are doing well. I just realized tomorrow is my birthday, it's sad when you forget your own birthday! Hope you all are having a great week!

Ronika