how do I get back on the bandwagon?

[Guest guest]

I joined Weight Watchers a few months ago, and then left for a few

months, because I transferred jobs and there were MUCH fewer meeting

times in my new area. Once I settled in, I re-joined a local

group, but with my new job, a lot of my after-work meetings are on

Monday nights and when I know that I will be missing a meeting, I

get into the mindset where I think " it's okay if I mess up today,

because I'm not going to be weighing in for another 2 weeks " . Then

when it's time to go, I find excuses not to, because I know I

haven't done well and I'm afraid and ashamed to step on the scales.

When I rejoined a few months, I thought for sure I would be able

successful, because I really wanted this to work this time. I was

dedicated, and I am so ashamed of the way I look. Plus everything

else was going so right in my life and it seemed like this was the

perfect time to take control of the situation. But then it just

seems so hopeless ... like there's so much weight to lose, and I'll

never get to my goal. The Weight Watchers plan really is sensible,

and not that tricky to follow, yet I still struggle. Where can I

find my will? I know it has to come from inside, but I just can't

seem to find it in me.

Any suggestions, tips, feedback? I'd welcome any help at this point!