Having a setback...late night posts r never good.. [g]

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Hello..

Having a setback. Felt discomfort in my abdomen before going to bed

at 10:30p and woke up 45 minutes later feeling more uncomfortable.

Wide awake now. Not feeling too positive at all right now.

Noticing some worsening of my overall condition today that I hadn't

really picked up on before. Feeling like the latest surgery and now

the inability to eat is really taking it's toll in ways that have yet

to be discovered.

I feel like my circulation is suddenly worse. Standing at the sink

to brush my teeth for 3 minutes and the blood is pooling in my lower

legs and itching so that I have to move and go lay down to get

relief. Attempted to go outside and found I was light headed when

trying to stoop or bend forward. Which might be continuing low blood

pressure which was noted at the hospital. It was down to 89/52

during the night there. I think my coloring is pale and when I cut

my finger today, I hardly bled at all. That is nothing new though. I

feel poor circulation and low blood pressure is really detrimental to

healing. I think I might have a vascular problem but I have asked

the doctor about it before and initial evaluation didn't pick up on

anything. I don't know what they can do to evaluate that anyway

except blood work.

I have been trying the Reglan medication but I am not sure if it is

helping much. At first I was getting cramps with it, but now I am

not getting that. And I am still constipated. I also seem to feel a

little jittery and not sure where that could be coming from. Not a

familiar symptom for me. I still have another week to go before my

appt with the GI doc that specializes in dysmotility.

I realize that there are so many of you on this list that are

struggling with much more difficult problems than I am. I don't feel

I should be complaining. I just feel I am reaching a point that for

me is like a line in the sand. A line that I don't want to cross

over. I have been below my comfort level for quite awhile. Not

able to really satisfy my need for much of anything. Still I could

always set a goal, try to improve something, think I could get back

to a better place. I don't even feel depressed really, just not

wanting to accept what is inevitable I guess. Just seems like you

get to a point where you can't expect to actually improve and gain

ground so what is there to look forward to except getting worse.

I apologize in advance. I can't really read enough of the archives

to get a sense of how comfortable the group is with sharing these

type of feelings. I shouldn't even be up typing at this hour either,

but...

I don't want to bring anyone else down. I just thought there is no

way that some of you have not felt this way before and you are still

here encouraging other people, so I guess you must have gotten past

it. I don't know how. :-)

Well...I got that off my chest. Guess I will go read a book.

Good night,

Adam