My world came crashing in

[Guest guest]

Dear Lupie Friends,

I had not been on the PC all week-end. As I was reading posts, there

was a good amount from our Dearest Friends . She always had a way with

her posts. There was posts of her failing health, which I wish I could

understand better. And of course birthday wishes, as she always did. A welcome

back

to ... And even some wonderful advice to our members. I was so happy

that her brother was so good to her and worked on her van, she was so proud of

him, you could just read it in her post. Her signature of " knowledge is power "

and we all know she was a very powerful woman.

When I got to that dreaded post, my world literally crashed. I can't

believe how much she had meant to me. I just wish I could have told her just

how

much of a good friend she was. I had to shut down the PC. I had to call my

sister, as I know she would understand. My family just doesn't understand the

relationships we can form on this magic box. I was going to unsub from every

one of my lists, as I was hurting so bad.....but as I sat in my craft room,

remembering , she would not want that and would want her memory (good

memories) going. I spent a while today in 's website that she just worked

so hard on updating.

I was thinking back to when I first joined the group. had me

laughing my butt off. I can still see her painting that mural in her living

room, naked as the day she was born, and have her mom walk in.....and the time

she

got stuck in the tub....she really could get this group out of a slump.....I

am going to miss her daily....My sister moved back to FL and we were planning

on going soon, and I had high hopes of meeting .

Deanna...please don't over work yourself. I can feel the hurt you are

hurting, and yes was family....but we don't want you to take on too

much either. We need each other to lean on here, and we are here for you just

as

much as you are for us.

Love & Friendship,

Ellen