Cindi Re: 2 months on Armour feel better, then b...

December 17, 2004

I know how you feel about doctors. All they want is your money and get the hell

out. I have given up on them and just selfmedicating and going by my symptoms. I

had 3 doctors that would not give me any meds for my thyroid. I was planning on

going to a doctor again to see if he would give me meds,but, I knew it would be

a waste of time and my bloodpressure would probably go up. I already told off

one doctor. He only got smart right back to me. But I felt so much better doing

it. LOL

FlyingDreams@... wrote:

This month has been really stressful - hubby out of town 2 wks in a

row and going back to the dr - that always stresses me out. Tends

to make me depressed for at least a week. I knew my results would

be out of normal. 3.04 TSH last time and I still felt like crap.

I knew going on much more meds I would be much lower and that the dr

would be saying drop your meds. That stress alone is driving me

crazy. Having to beg for meds that I finally found to help me is

upsettting. My Mom felt better in 2 months on meds. It was

immediate relief for her and not for me. 3 months on synthroid not

a single tiny bit of relief. 2 months on armour (5 months total on

meds) and I get relief and hope to get my life back. That's why

after reading about drs dropping meds when someone on paper (test

results) was to them hyper was in fact still hypo and needed more

meds. The sad fact is that I could have defended and begged for the

correct meds better only a week ago and here I am in a complete

brain fog and unable to defend myself. She upset me greatly, I knew

she would. Top dr. - what a joke! Why should I have to beg for my

meds!?!?!??! I'm so angry. She mentioned 3x's I seemed angry. How

dare she! I wish I told her off! How dare she piss off an already

pissed off patient. Was she trying to get rid of me? What is the

motivation of her saying that??!?!? Why shouldn't I be! I waited 15

yrs to get these meds and you want to take them away from me?!?!

Give me a break. She tried to push the antidepressants on me.

After being on them for 14 yrs with no relief only a pill to get me

out of the drs office without a cure. I had a really bad day. I

got lost on the way there. In such a state of drowsiness I lost my

way. And mind you normally you could take me blindfold anywhere and

I could tell you where is North, South, etc. I'm so out of it.

Here I was thinking finally I was getting relief. 2 month of a

little taste of normal. Some energy, motivation and less brain fog

and here it is back and the dr says ok less meds. Excuse me but

that doesn't make sence. I'm so sick of trying to get well.

Defending and begging for meds. And the dr asks me why I am angry?

Get real! 15 yrs of my life GONE. Give me those years back! The

best time of my life, in my prime and it's all gone, gone gone never

to be seen again. Give me a break! 37 yrs old and it's gone. Why

shouldn't I be angry. She even admitted to me that I probably knew

more than her. How depressing is that?!?!? Asked me what tests to

do. What's the deal with that!?!?! I have absolutely NO confidence

in the drs on this planet. I hear so much bad and very little

good. All they want is a paycheck and they could care less about

their patients. They consider us all a big paycheck nothing more

nothing less. I'd like to sue them for the loss of the last 15

years! I wanted and planned to do so much and it's all gone. Gone,

gone, gone!

Thanks for listening,

Yeh, I AM angry!

December 17, 2004