sabotaging my health

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Debbie,

Sorry you're feeling so down. I can totally relate.. only I'm

sabotaging myself with alcohol. I don't know why I continue down this

path. I too told myself that enough was enough and I was going to start

to get my health back.... unfortunately, I've been saying this for

several months. I just hope I can stick to it. I know the affects that

alcohol has on our bodies and it scares me (but not enough to stop).

I just can't imagine why I've gone thru all this, only to hurt my

health.

BTW... group.... don't email me about AA... I've been there, done that.

thanx for listening..

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Message: 23

Date: Sat, 20 Apr 2002 18:23:07 -0700

Subject: Reflections

Ok, you guys know I rarely post unless it is to be funny. For some

reason I feel a need to bare my soul. I used to be anal about taking my

supliments and protein. Through out this last winter I have stopped. I

have no idea why. Why in heaven's name would I sabatoge something I

wanted so badly. I haven't gained any weight, but I have let my self go

so that I feel like doggy poop! I have ZERO energy, zero self esteem,

zero interest in just about anything. I would sit here and read all of

the posts from this wonderful list and still would do nothing.

Well, maybe the winter doldroms are over. I don't know what it is, but

today I decided that I had had enough. I was tired of feeling so bad. I

was tired of treating my self so badly. So, today it was back to the

protein and FACING fully the fact that I am only hurting myself. Wish me

luck. I need to get the " habit " back. And thanks for being here.

Debbie in Gig Harbor

original RNY Jan. 1999

70 cm by-passed and 1oz pouch

Dr. Weber, Seattle, WA

Revision and additional by-pass Feb. 2001

by Dr. Weber, Seattle, WA

170cm by-passed TRANSECTED pouch

Starting weight 320

lowest weight 200

current weight 208(down from 267 before revision due to SLD)

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