Re: I'm so depressed ... .

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Dear :

Don't give up!!!. Don't give up!! Things change.

Thank you for reaching out to us, it took courage to tell the truth.

Everything seems black and gloomy right now but things change. We are stuck with this illness, and it is so hard at times to cope with and accept the powerlessness, fear and loneliness it can throw at us.

Depression makes everything seem as if there is no tomorrow. But there is hope in each day.

I was diagnosed a year ago, after years and years of thinking I was crazy and always coming down with the flu. Having a name to my problems helped alot.

I felt hopeless for several months last year and it finally lifted. After flying, I got a nasty sinus infection from the dirty air. Turns out I needed antibiotics but I was so mucked up I just thought it was a regular flare. The antibiotics helped. I can acept that I will have flares and other unexpeceted stuff happen but it all makies me feel scared and vulnerable.

I used to be so active and vibrant and alive. Then boom, nothing was the same, no fun in my life, I could barely work and take care of my kids. Things have changed. Some days I feel really great and then the next day is physically or emotionally dismal. I don't think I will ever bee the same. I have experienced so many losses from this it is ridiculous. I felt like I wasn't myself, and my identity was stripped away.

I am slowly learning new things, new little pleasures it is hard.....

I am new to the group, and sure thank you for your honesty.

Pam

Get an attorney, take whatever steps you can, even if tiny little steps, to reapply for disability.

Do you have family?

Call your doctor and tell him/her that you are in trouble right now, and need help.. Get medications and therapy or support group.

Don't do it alone.

I'm so depressed ... No, I'm not kidding.

Dear Members,

I've been living a lie. I've been thinking about everything. I'm trying to make it seem like everything is okay, but right now I'm screaming that everything ISN'T okay. I don't know what to do with myself half of the time. I'm so depressed and I want these negative feelings to go away. I can't work because I have a chronic illness called Lupus. I was fired from my job because I missed too many days. I then filed for disability and it was denied.

My sickness is getting no better. My financial situation is getting no better. I'm just wondering when will get a break? Not to talk about relgion, but I've always believed that there is a better life than this. There has to be. It is so sad to think that this is all there is and that's not fair if it was. Having the hope of happiness forever gives me something good to think about each day, but that's the only good thing I can think about.

What do I do until I get to my blissful happiness? I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. There are so many things that I want to do right now but I'm not able to do because I'm sick. I'm tired of being sick, you know? All this medicine I'm on for my illness has made me gain so much weight and I want to lose it and I'm trying but it's so hard. Why does everything in life have to be so terribly hard? I wonder what have I done that was so wrong to make things the way that they are?

I understand that I'm going to have this illness for as long as I live. As if that's not depressing enough. I just want to learn how can I cope? I'm having a hard time coping with this and some times I feel I just won't make it through the day. Those days are so terribly long. I don't mean to go on and on but I'm so troubled right now. In real life I have no friends. No one really to vent to. I feel like no one understands what I'm going through. So, what do I do?

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