I'm so depressed ... No, I'm not kidding.

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Dear Members,

I've been living a lie. I've been thinking about everything. I'm trying to make it seem like everything is okay, but right now I'm screaming that everything ISN'T okay. I don't know what to do with myself half of the time. I'm so depressed and I want these negative feelings to go away. I can't work because I have a chronic illness called Lupus. I was fired from my job because I missed too many days. I then filed for disability and it was denied.

My sickness is getting no better. My financial situation is getting no better. I'm just wondering when will get a break? Not to talk about relgion, but I've always believed that there is a better life than this. There has to be. It is so sad to think that this is all there is and that's not fair if it was. Having the hope of happiness forever gives me something good to think about each day, but that's the only good thing I can think about.

What do I do until I get to my blissful happiness? I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. There are so many things that I want to do right now but I'm not able to do because I'm sick. I'm tired of being sick, you know? All this medicine I'm on for my illness has made me gain so much weight and I want to lose it and I'm trying but it's so hard. Why does everything in life have to be so terribly hard? I wonder what have I done that was so wrong to make things the way that they are?

I understand that I'm going to have this illness for as long as I live. As if that's not depressing enough. I just want to learn how can I cope? I'm having a hard time coping with this and some times I feel I just won't make it through the day. Those days are so terribly long. I don't mean to go on and on but I'm so troubled right now. In real life I have no friends. No one really to vent to. I feel like no one understands what I'm going through. So, what do I do?

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Dear ,

Please believe me when I say that you CAN feel better about this terrible disease........You CAN learn to cope.! I feel your Pain.....and the anger and frustration.....you are NOT alone......I too have no friends in `REAL LIFE 'as you put it , and if it weren't for this group I would have no one to vent to ......or to share the good times with.My family is not around to help me through each day or to listen to me cry myself to sleep sometimes from loneliness, and despair.

I was told by one of my doctors when I was first diagnosed, to "Make friends with your Lupus".......I wanted to slap her! I will never make friends with my Lupus but I HAVE managed to find a sort of Peace.....that I hope and Pray that you can find too.

I was also denied disability twice and had to hire an attorney before I was accepted.DO NOT GIVE UP......find an attorney that will represent you and will only charge a percentage of your amount you will get after you are accepted.

Are you on antidepressants? If you are not call your doctor and tell him how you are feeling......and ask for help.NOW......I can't stress how important this is ......without my antidepressants, I would be suicidal.!.......and I still have` break through meltdowns ' once in a while.

You can get through this .......if you could not ......then you would not see all the members of this group on line everyday......I can promise you that each and every one of us has been exactly where you are right now.

I have asked.....WHY ME ?.....and the only answer I ever get is another question:

"WHY NOT ME !"

And I know how long those days can be especially when you have no friends or family around, and when the sun is shining and the world so bright and fresh in its new springtime......but you can't enjoy it right?.......That's my biggest heart ache about this disease.....I used to live for the outdoors and my gardening ,and my two big dogs to romp with at the lake.

It has taken time, but I have made my peace and can cope most of the time .....I'm not saying that you will ever get to the point where you will be completely at ease with it ......THAT would be a lie.....and you don't need that right now.

If you want to you can Email me at my Email address and I will look for you every day first thing every time I turn on my computer we can have An Email friendship........I'm sure other members will have some better answers for you.....some other ways to help you get through this terrible time right now.and in the years ahead..

I'm so depressed ... No, I'm not kidding.

Dear Members,

I've been living a lie. I've been thinking about everything. I'm trying to make it seem like everything is okay, but right now I'm screaming that everything ISN'T okay. I don't know what to do with myself half of the time. I'm so depressed and I want these negative feelings to go away. I can't work because I have a chronic illness called Lupus. I was fired from my job because I missed too many days. I then filed for disability and it was denied.

My sickness is getting no better. My financial situation is getting no better. I'm just wondering when will get a break? Not to talk about relgion, but I've always believed that there is a better life than this. There has to be. It is so sad to think that this is all there is and that's not fair if it was. Having the hope of happiness forever gives me something good to think about each day, but that's the only good thing I can think about.

What do I do until I get to my blissful happiness? I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. There are so many things that I want to do right now but I'm not able to do because I'm sick. I'm tired of being sick, you know? All this medicine I'm on for my illness has made me gain so much weight and I want to lose it and I'm trying but it's so hard. Why does everything in life have to be so terribly hard? I wonder what have I done that was so wrong to make things the way that they are?

I understand that I'm going to have this illness for as long as I live. As if that's not depressing enough. I just want to learn how can I cope? I'm having a hard time coping with this and some times I feel I just won't make it through the day. Those days are so terribly long. I don't mean to go on and on but I'm so troubled right now. In real life I have no friends. No one really to vent to. I feel like no one understands what I'm going through. So, what do I do?

-."The LUPIES Store" Come check out our store...http://www.cafepress.com/thelupies"The LUPIES Web Page"http://www.itzarion.com/lupusgroup.html"The LUPIES online photo albums!" Check out what your fellow Lupies look like...http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?username=lupies

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-- I'm so depressed ... No, I'm not kidding.

Dear Members,

I've been living a lie. I've been thinking about everything. I'm trying to make it seem like everything is okay, but right now I'm screaming that everything ISN'T okay. I don't know what to do with myself half of the time. I'm so depressed and I want these negative feelings to go away. I can't work because I have a chronic illness called Lupus. I was fired from my job because I missed too many days. I then filed for disability and it was denied.

My sickness is getting no better. My financial situation is getting no better. I'm just wondering when will get a break? Not to talk about relgion, but I've always believed that there is a better life than this. There has to be. It is so sad to think that this is all there is and that's not fair if it was. Having the hope of happiness forever gives me something good to think about each day, but that's the only good thing I can think about.

What do I do until I get to my blissful happiness? I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. There are so many things that I want to do right now but I'm not able to do because I'm sick. I'm tired of being sick, you know? All this medicine I'm on for my illness has made me gain so much weight and I want to lose it and I'm trying but it's so hard. Why does everything in life have to be so terribly hard? I wonder what have I done that was so wrong to make things the way that they are?

I understand that I'm going to have this illness for as long as I live. As if that's not depressing enough. I just want to learn how can I cope? I'm having a hard time coping with this and some times I feel I just won't make it through the day. Those days are so terribly long. I don't mean to go on and on but I'm so troubled right now. In real life I have no friends. No one really to vent to. I feel like no one understands what I'm going through. So, what do I do?

-."The LUPIES Store" Come check out our store...http://www.cafepress.com/thelupies"The LUPIES Web Page"http://www.itzarion.com/lupusgroup.html"The LUPIES online photo albums!" Check out what your fellow Lupies look like...http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?username=lupies

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