I,m Back - needing support!!!!!!!!

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I have been out of commission for a few months, but I am back, at least stong enough to write. When I joined last December, I was on the verge of a total nervous breakdown. I am not sure what to do now. My doctor tells me my thyroid counts are where they should be, and that is all she will tell me. I now take over 20 different medications a day. I spend my time locked in my home most of the time afraid to go out. I am going with my sister this next week to California to visit another sister that has heart problems. The trip has me terrified, but I have to go. It may be the last time I see her. I'm not sure if there is anything anyone can do for me. I have suffered from depression all my life and no solution has happened yet. Am I missing something, or are my doctors? I guess what I need more than anything is support. I have a real hard time talking to people face to face, so I hope this group will help.