oncologist today

[Guest guest]

I finally get to see an oncologist after three weeks of waiting. I

am so nervous I can hardly stand myself. I had some microscopic

findings in my surgical pathology report and have had no way to get my

questions answered about them so my mind has blown them all out op

proportion. I have come to the conclusion that the fear is much worse

than the disease, and inaccessible dr's only add to the fear. I know

that I can face whatever treatments lie ahead but I cannot stand to be

both afraid and in the dark about what lies ahead. Because of all the

waiting I have pages and pages of questions so hopefully I will have a

patient and understanding onc. If I don't I know for sure that I will

have to wait forever but will have to find one that is.

Forgive all the ratteling on and I know that I don't make much

sense but the fear and nerves are doing my typing.

Wish me luck and say a little prayer for me.

in Denver