Guest guest Posted October 3, 2004 Report Share Posted October 3, 2004 i have finished 3 weeks of daily mindful eating records. i have gone to 3 meetings and have one more week of records and one more meeting that is required. I found myself thinking on this sunday night on maybe ill just skip the meeting tomorrow. i realized as soon as i thought it that i somehow in this insane rationalizing brain of mine..........that maybe what? i know that i was trying to put it off (the class) becuase i know it just postpones the process. Why I ask myself? becuase of fear. The surgery, the recovery and mostly, the real reason is the loss of my sedatives! my bread, rice tortillas etc....i can live without sweets but i love my rice, and the more i sit through these meetings the more its drilled in our heads that about two years after surgery if you are eating rice, breads chips sweets you will gradually stretch out your pouch and gain weight back. that is my challenge......i cannot see how i can eat even just a little of those things and remain healthy. i have a friend that had the surgery...shes lost all her weight and is beautiful. I watch her eat anything day after day, mostly carbs.......i never see her eat veggies or fruit or even dairy......alot of junk. I am watching her and she will be my example of what not to do. why would i go through all of this fear and major life changing procedure to continue to asault my body that way? anyway........i trudge along and will not give up, just feeling it. and i will not postpone any meetings even though i want to. your posts have saved me and gave me the desire to continue on. thank you all cecilia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 3, 2004 Report Share Posted October 3, 2004 Cecilia: Wow! Your head is so in the right place. You've confronted fear and turned it into positive action. That is HUGE!!! That is a skill that will get you where you want to go. Kudos to you! Gemello -148 lbs > > i have finished 3 weeks of daily mindful eating records. > i have gone to 3 meetings and have one more week of records and one > more meeting that is required. I found myself thinking on this > sunday night on maybe ill just skip the meeting tomorrow. > i realized as soon as i thought it that i somehow in this insane > rationalizing brain of mine..........that maybe what? i know that i > was trying to put it off (the class) becuase i know it just > postpones the process. Why I ask myself? becuase of fear. The > surgery, the recovery and mostly, the real reason is the loss of my > sedatives! my bread, rice tortillas etc....i can live without sweets > but i love my rice, and the more i sit through these meetings the > more its drilled in our heads that about two years after surgery if > you are eating rice, breads chips sweets you will gradually stretch > out your pouch and gain weight back. that is my challenge......i > cannot see how i can eat even just a little of those things and > remain healthy. i have a friend that had the surgery...shes lost all > her weight and is beautiful. I watch her eat anything day after day, > mostly carbs.......i never see her eat veggies or fruit or even > dairy......alot of junk. I am watching her and she will be my > example of what not to do. why would i go through all of this fear > and major life changing procedure to continue to asault my body that > way? anyway........i trudge along and will not give up, just > feeling it. and i will not postpone any meetings even though i want > to. your posts have saved me and gave me the desire to continue on. > thank you all > cecilia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 3, 2004 Report Share Posted October 3, 2004 Cecilia: Wow! Your head is so in the right place. You've confronted fear and turned it into positive action. That is HUGE!!! That is a skill that will get you where you want to go. Kudos to you! Gemello -148 lbs > > i have finished 3 weeks of daily mindful eating records. > i have gone to 3 meetings and have one more week of records and one > more meeting that is required. I found myself thinking on this > sunday night on maybe ill just skip the meeting tomorrow. > i realized as soon as i thought it that i somehow in this insane > rationalizing brain of mine..........that maybe what? i know that i > was trying to put it off (the class) becuase i know it just > postpones the process. Why I ask myself? becuase of fear. The > surgery, the recovery and mostly, the real reason is the loss of my > sedatives! my bread, rice tortillas etc....i can live without sweets > but i love my rice, and the more i sit through these meetings the > more its drilled in our heads that about two years after surgery if > you are eating rice, breads chips sweets you will gradually stretch > out your pouch and gain weight back. that is my challenge......i > cannot see how i can eat even just a little of those things and > remain healthy. i have a friend that had the surgery...shes lost all > her weight and is beautiful. I watch her eat anything day after day, > mostly carbs.......i never see her eat veggies or fruit or even > dairy......alot of junk. I am watching her and she will be my > example of what not to do. why would i go through all of this fear > and major life changing procedure to continue to asault my body that > way? anyway........i trudge along and will not give up, just > feeling it. and i will not postpone any meetings even though i want > to. your posts have saved me and gave me the desire to continue on. > thank you all > cecilia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 3, 2004 Report Share Posted October 3, 2004 Cecilia: Wow! Your head is so in the right place. You've confronted fear and turned it into positive action. That is HUGE!!! That is a skill that will get you where you want to go. Kudos to you! Gemello -148 lbs > > i have finished 3 weeks of daily mindful eating records. > i have gone to 3 meetings and have one more week of records and one > more meeting that is required. I found myself thinking on this > sunday night on maybe ill just skip the meeting tomorrow. > i realized as soon as i thought it that i somehow in this insane > rationalizing brain of mine..........that maybe what? i know that i > was trying to put it off (the class) becuase i know it just > postpones the process. Why I ask myself? becuase of fear. The > surgery, the recovery and mostly, the real reason is the loss of my > sedatives! my bread, rice tortillas etc....i can live without sweets > but i love my rice, and the more i sit through these meetings the > more its drilled in our heads that about two years after surgery if > you are eating rice, breads chips sweets you will gradually stretch > out your pouch and gain weight back. that is my challenge......i > cannot see how i can eat even just a little of those things and > remain healthy. i have a friend that had the surgery...shes lost all > her weight and is beautiful. I watch her eat anything day after day, > mostly carbs.......i never see her eat veggies or fruit or even > dairy......alot of junk. I am watching her and she will be my > example of what not to do. why would i go through all of this fear > and major life changing procedure to continue to asault my body that > way? anyway........i trudge along and will not give up, just > feeling it. and i will not postpone any meetings even though i want > to. your posts have saved me and gave me the desire to continue on. > thank you all > cecilia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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