Turning away Friends???

[Guest guest]

Okay...who are my friends...that is my big question. I have been

dealing with people who I thought were my friends before my WLS.

All I hear now is negativity on how much I have changed. When in

all reallity I know that they are the ones who are not accepting me

for who I am...or should I say who I became to be. The only thing

that has changed is my body and my self esteem. Who can I count on?

I feel so alone with no where to go. I hate sitting at this darn

computer. I hate watching TV. I hate being in the kitchen.

I Love going for walks. I love meeting new people. I love my Support

group. I miss my WLS family. I feel so alone. What else can I do.

I have accepted the way of change...I know I have to let go of my

past. I know I am not the only one who feels this way. Am I

bringing this on myself? I think not...I could be wrong though.

I am 19 months out...have lost 211 lbs. Now that is what I am

greatfull for. All I need now is...well when I find out I will let

you know.

I will never forget the Love and attention I got form Robyn, Sheryl

and JudyAnn while I was in the hospital for 5 whole long and

miserable weeks. But they showed me what friends should be. I

thank them for that.

I want and still feel the need for acceptence in this world that we

live in. I desire to have a husband who loves me for who I am and

that can show me love right back. Well, I am a prisoner in my own

house. I can't work, don't have the means to move on my own. Does

that mean it is forever...I think not. I will prevail.

I know friends will come and go...This is why I yern to succeed in

what ever lies ahead of me.

Thanks for letting me babble I could go on but it would take a book

to finish...lol Love to all.