-just saying hi - thank you for the energy

[Guest guest]

Dear :

I've been absent for quite a while too, as I've been sick as well...

sounds like you and I have been smacked across the back of the head by the

same evil CP bug at the same time. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been

feeling so poorly too.

Oh, btw... be sure to tell your sister to tell her coworker that her

comments were shared with folks THE WHOLE WORLD OVER, and that we're REALLY

impress with her AMAZING " sensitivity " to your jaundice... she's obviously a

SMOOTH character... Wow. That's amazing. I never cease to be amazed at the

sensitivity in general of some folks in this day and age. It's like saying

" Mommy, look! That black man only has one leg! How does his fat wife lift

him up?? Isn't that really queer!? " Hahahahaha... Demonstrates the

sensitivity of the PARENT, of course, more than the child. Kids are so cute,

until they're poisoned by the damned ADULTS that surround them. Ahhh, but I

digress.

At any rate, I'm very sorry that you've been ill.

I can and do understand, as I've been under a rock for almost two

weeks... It's so amazing how much goes on over the course of that amount of

time. I get all the messages in my mailbox rather than a " read off the web "

listing, and I've tried really hard to skim through every day, though I've

not had the energy to reply to folks - very frustrating - but even that takes

a couple hours a day, and I'm STILL weeks behind it seems. So I apologize

for not being more actively involved, and " You're welcome " to the folks

who've appreciated the break. Go ahead, breathe deeply... I'm still sick and

don't foresee a change in my posting level any immediate moment right away,

as I still am feeling quite poorly.

, Amy, , , Kimber, Mark, Krisinjuly, Madame E. (sorry

for the informality...) and all you others holding your hands up secretly;

thank you all SOOOOOOOOOOO much for your encouraging notes and your care and

love and those prayers that I feel pass through my chest each time you say

them... That energy is something that I truly draw from, and I can't tell you

how much each and every bit means to me - and I'm not kidding one bit. That

energy, based in love and compassion, is what keeps me breathing every day.

I sometimes think we don't fully appreciate how REALLY powerful this stuff

is... it's UNIVERSE-altering, it's WOW-level stuff... Higher

Power-God-Ism-Sacred-History-and-Present-and-Future-and-Passion-and-Love-and-P

eace-and-all-that-is-good-and-all-that-is-love-and-thank-you, I love you.

God bless and keep you all, and may you, and your loved ones, have good

spirits, good attitudes, happy and loving hearts and somehow, anyway, find

good health and peace of mind and prosperous lives.

Love,

Terry in KC

<< Hi everyone! wow, I've noticed we have quite a few new members! If I

haven't welcomed any of you, I'm very sorry, haven't been around much

latley but I'm sure I will get a chance to talk to you all soon, this

is a really great group full of awesome people, and I'm sure you'll

learn alot. I haven't been around much because of not feeling well,

I'm having alot of pain and nausea latley, also running low grade

fever everyday. I'm going in for lithoriprosy soon for kidney stones,

I now have four of them and they aren't moving, and they're getting

bigger, I really don't want to have this done! I have to go to

thyroid doctor again I'm feeling very badly from this thyroid

business too, I'm on beta-blocker for heart rate {it was 125 at docs

the other day} so now here I go again, I'll have to make a decision

about treatment for that now {can't take thyroid meds} I also

discovered today that I'm jaundiced, my skin looks yellow and my eyes

are tinged a little, I look gross and it's depressing, I was at my

sister's hair salon today and one of the girls said " boy you look

really yellow " I felt like crawling into a hole, everyone turned to

look and see. I go back to my GI on Dec. 13, he really needs to do

something, I'm yellow, feel so sick and I'm feverish all the time, I

just feel like something bad is going on and I want answers! sorry to

turn this into a moan and groan session, thank you all for listening.

Have a great pain-free weekend!

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