Starting Over......A New Beginning LONG!!!

[Guest guest]

Clear DayThank goodness for a New Start, a New Beginning, New hope of finally

settling into this program and doing what it takes to make this work for me. I

deal with a Hugh amount of daily stress with an ill FIL, problems of my own, and

a host of things that just don't seem to improve. God's test I believe! With

that set aside.....I need to look out for ME!

I sat down last night on this computer posting a chapter in a journal I have

tucked away in a special place the I can go to daily and work on each of my

goals one at a time. The entire picture is HUGH.........each goal is small, a

milestone when reached, a great accomplishment when I complete each. I'm working

on the the 5 pound a month goal, that in itself would be a great accomplishment

for me. The journaling, meeting all the requirements ww has set with their

program. Getting to feel more comfortable with exercise and using it as a

Friend, not something I hate the thought of doing!

I have been a weight watchers 17 months off and on, gaining more weight over

this time then I've lost. 17 months and over $600.00 gone for lack of really

giving myself a chance, or the program a real chance.

From the frustration that sets in when I do good all day and make major slips

in the evenings. From beating myself up, only to realize ~I'm human and will

make mistakes!~ Not everyday will be perfect.

To have the support from a wonderful group of people whom have been there, and

have made their way through that part of the battle, to those of you who have

made goal, I applaud you.......the lifetimes in this group.....I know with a

plan and focus anything can be accomplished. You are what I'm working to meet!

Congratulations on a job well done!

To the strugglers.......I so understand more then you'll every know, the battle

seems never ending, and without a plan, the journal, and the focus I have proven

when you make a great step forward, I talk to Giant step backward, from lack of

planning.

It's funny when you know what you need to do to get the final results. You can

feel it deep inside yourself. Is it I want it so much I keep a road block up,

afraid of the attention! Afraid I might just get this thing nipped in the butt.

I've lost hundreds of pounds over the years. Only to regain what was lost due

to not making the necessary lifestyle changes. I weighted 125 for more than 7

years never ever thinking I'd have to worry about seeing 244 the highest I've

been in a super long time. I'm carrying around some garbage that I haven't

worked through to get a grip on this weightloss. I'm not sure what it is but it

has a hold on me, and I need to find out what it is and get through it, 17

months ago my goal was to be at lifetime by my 50th Birthday. That birthday

comes next months.....with as much as 7-9 pounds more then when I began this

journey. It's to easy not to accept the responsibility for myself, as so much

has gone wrong and changed over this past almost year and a half.

But it's all behind me now.........I have to look forward to~ TODAY~ it's all I

have to work with. The New Beginning....a New Start !!!

Yesterdays gone and I can't change it, I don't know if I'll get a chance at

the tomorrow's.....so I need to stay focused with my ~TODAY'S~

I'm coming back to the journaling challenge, and all the other challenges I

signed up for.

I need the monitor of each challenge to please e-mail if and when you get the

time to help me catch up.

I'm coming back tonight after work to post my journal for today. Weigh-in

tomorrow will be a gain but will be posted H, I want to take back control

of my life and my eating.

Waiting will keep causing more gains then losses, this weeks challenge for me

is get back to journaling and posting everyday this week, what's up with the

accumulative challenge.....where are we at?? the exercise challenge? The Labor

Day challenge???? Want to get that goal met!

I need to get back in and ~Make a difference in this life of mine~

I want to thank all with the diabetic scare.....I need more tests, but started

to workout slowly on the treadmill as I know exercise is a START........proper

eating, and sticking with the Weight Watchers Plan will be a life saver!

Thanks for letting me run off at the mouth!

You have all be a big help in keeping my sanity. You are my lifeline, my

dreams, my hopes, my friends !

There are no words to express what my heart wants to say to each of you who

posted.

You are the Angels under my wings when I just could fly by myself!

Thank You!!!

Patti