Re: ep-new member- too all

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

Saskia, I never got around to welcoming you to the group, as unfortunate as

our circumstances may be.

, I'd love it if we could all gather together in a big circle and do a

group hug (((((HUG))))). Boy, that felt good! I'm really sorry to hear you

all have been thru this nightmare that haunts us all, but I hope we provide

the support and understanding that is so hard to find out there in the " real

world. "

-- M.

>

> Hi and welcome!

>

> I have also recently joined the group and the support I already got

> out of it is wonderfull. You will feel at home in no time!

>

> I am sorry to hear about your loss ... hang in there, we are here for

> you!

>

> Love,

> Saskia

> mom of two angels Stefaan and

> http://www.geocities.com/svaneyge

>

>> Hello all- I just recently joined the group and this

>> is my first time posting..

>> I am not sure how I feel. Sometimes I think I am

>> doing ok but other times I see a baby or something and

>> I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness or angry.

This is definitely one of the hardest things

>> I have ever been though and like I said since

>> everything happened so fast sometimes I feel like it

>> was all a dream turned into a nightmare.... thanks for

>> listening. good luck to everyone out there.

>>

>> __________________________________________________

>>

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

Saskia, I never got around to welcoming you to the group, as unfortunate as

our circumstances may be.

, I'd love it if we could all gather together in a big circle and do a

group hug (((((HUG))))). Boy, that felt good! I'm really sorry to hear you

all have been thru this nightmare that haunts us all, but I hope we provide

the support and understanding that is so hard to find out there in the " real

world. "

-- M.

>

> Hi and welcome!

>

> I have also recently joined the group and the support I already got

> out of it is wonderfull. You will feel at home in no time!

>

> I am sorry to hear about your loss ... hang in there, we are here for

> you!

>

> Love,

> Saskia

> mom of two angels Stefaan and

> http://www.geocities.com/svaneyge

>

>> Hello all- I just recently joined the group and this

>> is my first time posting..

>> I am not sure how I feel. Sometimes I think I am

>> doing ok but other times I see a baby or something and

>> I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness or angry.

This is definitely one of the hardest things

>> I have ever been though and like I said since

>> everything happened so fast sometimes I feel like it

>> was all a dream turned into a nightmare.... thanks for

>> listening. good luck to everyone out there.

>>

>> __________________________________________________

>>

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

I just want to say thank you for the kind words. I am

happy I found this place. Last night, I was thinking

about some of the stories I had heard yesterday here

and it does help just to know someone knows exactly

how I am feeling. It is such a horrible thing to go

through and though I have a dh who suffered a great

loss, it is nice to hear from other women and learn

from their stories.

Thanks.

Saskia-

Thank you. You are right this is a good place to

come. I am glad it has helped you. I wish you lots of

luck. It is such a hard thing to go through.

--- & Marks

wrote:

> Saskia, I never got around to welcoming you to the

> group, as unfortunate as

> our circumstances may be.

>

> , I'd love it if we could all gather together

> in a big circle and do a

> group hug (((((HUG))))). Boy, that felt good! I'm

> really sorry to hear you

> all have been thru this nightmare that haunts us

> all, but I hope we provide

> the support and understanding that is so hard to

> find out there in the " real

> world. "

> -- M.

>

> >

> > Hi and welcome!

> >

> > I have also recently joined the group and the

> support I already got

> > out of it is wonderfull. You will feel at home in

> no time!

> >

> > I am sorry to hear about your loss ... hang in

> there, we are here for

> > you!

> >

> > Love,

> > Saskia

> > mom of two angels Stefaan and

> > http://www.geocities.com/svaneyge

> >

> >> Hello all- I just recently joined the group and

> this

> >> is my first time posting..

> >> I am not sure how I feel. Sometimes I think I am

> >> doing ok but other times I see a baby or

> something and

> >> I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness or

> angry.

> This is definitely one of the hardest things

> >> I have ever been though and like I said since

> >> everything happened so fast sometimes I feel like

> it

> >> was all a dream turned into a nightmare....

> thanks for

> >> listening. good luck to everyone out there.

> >>

> __________________________________________________

> >>

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

I just want to say thank you for the kind words. I am

happy I found this place. Last night, I was thinking

about some of the stories I had heard yesterday here

and it does help just to know someone knows exactly

how I am feeling. It is such a horrible thing to go

through and though I have a dh who suffered a great

loss, it is nice to hear from other women and learn

from their stories.

Thanks.

Saskia-

Thank you. You are right this is a good place to

come. I am glad it has helped you. I wish you lots of

luck. It is such a hard thing to go through.

--- & Marks

wrote:

> Saskia, I never got around to welcoming you to the

> group, as unfortunate as

> our circumstances may be.

>

> , I'd love it if we could all gather together

> in a big circle and do a

> group hug (((((HUG))))). Boy, that felt good! I'm

> really sorry to hear you

> all have been thru this nightmare that haunts us

> all, but I hope we provide

> the support and understanding that is so hard to

> find out there in the " real

> world. "

> -- M.

>

> >

> > Hi and welcome!

> >

> > I have also recently joined the group and the

> support I already got

> > out of it is wonderfull. You will feel at home in

> no time!

> >

> > I am sorry to hear about your loss ... hang in

> there, we are here for

> > you!

> >

> > Love,

> > Saskia

> > mom of two angels Stefaan and

> > http://www.geocities.com/svaneyge

> >

> >> Hello all- I just recently joined the group and

> this

> >> is my first time posting..

> >> I am not sure how I feel. Sometimes I think I am

> >> doing ok but other times I see a baby or

> something and

> >> I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness or

> angry.

> This is definitely one of the hardest things

> >> I have ever been though and like I said since

> >> everything happened so fast sometimes I feel like

> it

> >> was all a dream turned into a nightmare....

> thanks for

> >> listening. good luck to everyone out there.

> >>

> __________________________________________________

> >>

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

Thank you. I am sorry to hear your story. I hope you

are doing ok. They say when you go through something

so bad you have to stay positive and sometimes we need

help and reminding of that because we can forget the

positive so take care of yourself too.

If you don't mind me asking, did you have any surgery

when you had your first ep?

Thank you.

--- courtneyhdarcy@... wrote:

> - I am so sorry for your loss and all of the

> related troubles and

> heartache ... I had an ep in july of 99 and another

> just a week and a half

> ago ... beleife it gets easier but the memory will

> always be with you ...

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

Thank you. I am sorry to hear your story. I hope you

are doing ok. They say when you go through something

so bad you have to stay positive and sometimes we need

help and reminding of that because we can forget the

positive so take care of yourself too.

If you don't mind me asking, did you have any surgery

when you had your first ep?

Thank you.

--- courtneyhdarcy@... wrote:

> - I am so sorry for your loss and all of the

> related troubles and

> heartache ... I had an ep in july of 99 and another

> just a week and a half

> ago ... beleife it gets easier but the memory will

> always be with you ...

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

Thank you. I am sorry to hear your story. I hope you

are doing ok. They say when you go through something

so bad you have to stay positive and sometimes we need

help and reminding of that because we can forget the

positive so take care of yourself too.

If you don't mind me asking, did you have any surgery

when you had your first ep?

Thank you.

--- courtneyhdarcy@... wrote:

> - I am so sorry for your loss and all of the

> related troubles and

> heartache ... I had an ep in july of 99 and another

> just a week and a half

> ago ... beleife it gets easier but the memory will

> always be with you ...

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

-

Thank you.

--- kdjohio@... wrote:

> ,

>

> Welcome to our group. I'm terribly sory for your

> loss, but I'm glad you

> found us. This group is full of so many sweet,

> caring women. I hope it will

> help you get through the hard times!

>

> Again, welcome!

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

-

Thank you.

--- kdjohio@... wrote:

> ,

>

> Welcome to our group. I'm terribly sory for your

> loss, but I'm glad you

> found us. This group is full of so many sweet,

> caring women. I hope it will

> help you get through the hard times!

>

> Again, welcome!

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

AmyR

Wow!! Sometimes it is amazing to hear someone else had

your exact feelings, huh? Sometimes, it does feel

like it never even happened. (When I actually thought

that I have felt bad, like how could I feel like it

never really happened to me when it was only a couple

of months ago) but like you said, than all those

feelings can come up and it feels like it just

happened. Sometimes I see that scar in the mirror or

somethimg and it really hits me. Or if I touch my

stomach or feel nausea it really can feel so strange.

Thanks for the letter and good luck

--- amrichey@... wrote:

> ,

>

> I am sorry for your loss. I am glad to know that

> you have found the

> wonderful group of people though. They are

> extremely knowledgable

> and very caring. Your emotions will probably jump

> from one to the

> next for awhile, but with time it will eventually

> get better. I

> think one of the hardest things is to have to see

> other pg people and

> babies. It is especially hard if you know the

> people and you can

> compare how far you should have been compared to how

> far they are. I

> don't know if this ever gets easier, but I hope with

> time that it

> does. One of my best friends is pg about 3 mos

> behind where I should

> have been so I can completely understand the

> feelings you are

> having. And you know what? It is okay to feel

> them. Don't ever try

> to not feel what is truly in your heart, it just

> makes trying to heal

> so much harder. That's the best advice I can give.

>

> Ya know you said sometimes it's hard to imagine it

> happened.

> Sometimes now when I tell my story, I almost feel

> like I'm talking

> about somebody else. It's a really strange

> feeling...hard to

> explain. But then on the other hand, something will

> trigger all

> those emotions and I can feel like I am right back

> at the day I was

> told I had to have surgery. I don't think we will

> ever really forget

> any aspect of what has happened. It is such a

> traumatic thing to go

> through and on top of the loss, now we all will be

> scared and worried

> when we do become pg next time. But, there are

> many, many women here

> that are proof positive that you can have a very

> healthy pg after an

> ectopic.

>

> I hope you are able to get in for the HSG next month

> and you get

> great results to put your mind to ease about your

> future. Take care

> of yourself.

>

> -AmyR

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

AmyR

Wow!! Sometimes it is amazing to hear someone else had

your exact feelings, huh? Sometimes, it does feel

like it never even happened. (When I actually thought

that I have felt bad, like how could I feel like it

never really happened to me when it was only a couple

of months ago) but like you said, than all those

feelings can come up and it feels like it just

happened. Sometimes I see that scar in the mirror or

somethimg and it really hits me. Or if I touch my

stomach or feel nausea it really can feel so strange.

Thanks for the letter and good luck

--- amrichey@... wrote:

> ,

>

> I am sorry for your loss. I am glad to know that

> you have found the

> wonderful group of people though. They are

> extremely knowledgable

> and very caring. Your emotions will probably jump

> from one to the

> next for awhile, but with time it will eventually

> get better. I

> think one of the hardest things is to have to see

> other pg people and

> babies. It is especially hard if you know the

> people and you can

> compare how far you should have been compared to how

> far they are. I

> don't know if this ever gets easier, but I hope with

> time that it

> does. One of my best friends is pg about 3 mos

> behind where I should

> have been so I can completely understand the

> feelings you are

> having. And you know what? It is okay to feel

> them. Don't ever try

> to not feel what is truly in your heart, it just

> makes trying to heal

> so much harder. That's the best advice I can give.

>

> Ya know you said sometimes it's hard to imagine it

> happened.

> Sometimes now when I tell my story, I almost feel

> like I'm talking

> about somebody else. It's a really strange

> feeling...hard to

> explain. But then on the other hand, something will

> trigger all

> those emotions and I can feel like I am right back

> at the day I was

> told I had to have surgery. I don't think we will

> ever really forget

> any aspect of what has happened. It is such a

> traumatic thing to go

> through and on top of the loss, now we all will be

> scared and worried

> when we do become pg next time. But, there are

> many, many women here

> that are proof positive that you can have a very

> healthy pg after an

> ectopic.

>

> I hope you are able to get in for the HSG next month

> and you get

> great results to put your mind to ease about your

> future. Take care

> of yourself.

>

> -AmyR

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 25, 2001 · February 25, 2001

AmyR

Wow!! Sometimes it is amazing to hear someone else had

your exact feelings, huh? Sometimes, it does feel

like it never even happened. (When I actually thought

that I have felt bad, like how could I feel like it

never really happened to me when it was only a couple

of months ago) but like you said, than all those

feelings can come up and it feels like it just

happened. Sometimes I see that scar in the mirror or

somethimg and it really hits me. Or if I touch my

stomach or feel nausea it really can feel so strange.

Thanks for the letter and good luck

--- amrichey@... wrote:

> ,

>

> I am sorry for your loss. I am glad to know that

> you have found the

> wonderful group of people though. They are

> extremely knowledgable

> and very caring. Your emotions will probably jump

> from one to the

> next for awhile, but with time it will eventually

> get better. I

> think one of the hardest things is to have to see

> other pg people and

> babies. It is especially hard if you know the

> people and you can

> compare how far you should have been compared to how

> far they are. I

> don't know if this ever gets easier, but I hope with

> time that it

> does. One of my best friends is pg about 3 mos

> behind where I should

> have been so I can completely understand the

> feelings you are

> having. And you know what? It is okay to feel

> them. Don't ever try

> to not feel what is truly in your heart, it just

> makes trying to heal

> so much harder. That's the best advice I can give.

>

> Ya know you said sometimes it's hard to imagine it

> happened.

> Sometimes now when I tell my story, I almost feel

> like I'm talking

> about somebody else. It's a really strange

> feeling...hard to

> explain. But then on the other hand, something will

> trigger all

> those emotions and I can feel like I am right back

> at the day I was

> told I had to have surgery. I don't think we will

> ever really forget

> any aspect of what has happened. It is such a

> traumatic thing to go

> through and on top of the loss, now we all will be

> scared and worried

> when we do become pg next time. But, there are

> many, many women here

> that are proof positive that you can have a very

> healthy pg after an

> ectopic.

>

> I hope you are able to get in for the HSG next month

> and you get

> great results to put your mind to ease about your

> future. Take care

> of yourself.

>

> -AmyR

>

__________________________________________________

Posted February 26, 2001 · February 26, 2001

Hi ,

I'm so sorry you had to experience an ep, it is a horrible reality. Right

now it feels like your life is falling apart and that you will never be able

to face another pregnant woman or woman with small children. As tough as it

feels, it does get bettter.

I also found out in early November '00 that I was pregnant, immediately we

knew there was a problem and did beta blood tests almost daily for 4 1/2

weeks. During our 2nd ultrasound we saw the baby in the right fallopian

tube. I was immediately rushed into emergency laparscopic surgery where

they removed BOTH fallopian tubes (the right due to damage from the

pregnancy and the left due to blockage and malformation from DES exposure).

I felt like I was living a nightmare. I had recovered from a miscarriage in

Oct.'00 and was going through another disaster all over again.

During the first few weeks after my surgery and I found spending time with

small children to be amazingly helpful. When I was with a small child I

became so absorbed in their world that I forgot my own problems. It was

during those hours of laughing and playing that I remembered the reasons why

I wanted a child and realized that I had the strength to try again.

Jan. 21,01 we started our first IVF cycle. Last Wednesday was my transfer

and 3/5/01 is my pregnancy test. While I am very hopeful for this cycle, I

still pray for my lost babies every day. I don't think a day will go by in

my life that I don't think of them, but I learned that I had to move on.

Losing a child is never easy, just as is losing a fallopian tube. Luckily

for us we live in a time where fallopian tubes aren't necessary to have a

child. And for that I am deeply grateful.

Time does heal. It never fully takes the pain away, but it makes it easier

to get on with your life. I hope that through time you receive the healing

you deserve. If you ever need to talk, I'll always be here to listen.

maria

ep-new member- too all

> Hello all- I just recently joined the group and this

> is my first time posting...I hope that I am doing this

> right...My dh and I have been together almost 7 years,

> married for almost 2 1/2. Back in the beginning of

> Nov 00, I found out I was pg. about 3 weeks along. I

> knew I was right away, hot flashes, nauseated,

> hungry... Unfortunately, by the end of Nov I had

> cramps and bleeding and on Dec 4 I had the injection

> for an ep but ended up with emergency surgery on the

> 10th and had to remove my rt tube. Not to mention the

> emotional end, right after the surgery I began to have

> problems with my bladder (I felt like I had to urinate

> all the time) Everyone first thought it was a UTI,

> but after all kinds of meds and 5 drs later, I seen a

> urologist in the beginning of Feb and but on med and

> doing better. (just want I needed on top of the loss)

> Anyway, I go back to him on March 5th and am hoping to

> get clearance so that I can do the hsg for the other

> tube. My OB doesn't want to do it until I get cleared

> for the UA problem, which is driving me crazy since

> this is the 2nd month I got Aunt Flo back and just

> want to get the test over with. SO I am hoping to be

> able to the end of March....

> I am not sure how I feel. Sometimes I think I am

> doing ok but other times I see a baby or something and

> I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness or angry.

> I am not one who usually talks about my feelings much.

> It has been hard, sometimes it is hard to imagine

> that we even went though this at all, I guess because

> everything happened so fast. From Happiness to Sorrow

> in such a short time I don't know. My dh has two

> cousins in NJ and both of their wives are expecting,

> (I would of been about three months behind them)and I

> can't bring myself to talk to them. I don't want to

> take away from their happiness but it is hard to be

> happy. (luckily we live in FL so I don't have to see

> them for awhile) I know the visit time we do it going

> to be extremely hard, but I don't want to think about

> it yet. I did to get through my stuff. I just cant'

> want to get the hsg done, so at least I will have some

> kind of piece of mind that at least one tube in

> healthy. This is definitely one of the hardest things

> I have ever been though and like I said since

> everything happened so fast sometimes I feel like it

> was all a dream turned into a nightmare.... thanks for

> listening. good luck to everyone out there.

>

> __________________________________________________

>

Posted February 26, 2001 · February 26, 2001