Day From Hell

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Hi all,

Man is it good to be feeling half human again. I had the day from

hell yesterday, and Wednesday night. My poor hubby I had him up most

of the night being a bitch and that is putting it nicely. I take

anti depressants for yrs now and I order them by mail cause of

insurance, it is cheaper that way so i ordered them on Dec 30. and

had ot gotten them as of yesterday had o conformation that they had

been sent. Well I ran out of them a few days ago and boy was I

lacking in that brain chemical omg. I went through hell till I got 3

pills into my system last night (Thanks to the Doc)But today the

insurance companie is going to hear from my husband and he isn't

happy.I spent yesterday having 7 panic attacks and crying

uncontrollably and paranoid about everythig so finally I thought ok

keep myself busy i cleaned my whole apartment and washed dishes and

scrubbed the bathroom down good and today I am paying for all of

that but other than that since I have had my 225 mg of effexor i

feel so much better. Just toally and physically exhausted today. Has

anyone talked to Topper I read she was having headache problems

again. Is she ok? I missed her in IM yesterday cause I wasn't on all

day and she left me a IM but I wasn't fit to talk to anyone. I AM

SORRY TOPPER PLEASE FORGIVE ME.IF YOU DON'T FORGIVE ME I WILL HUG

YOU LOL.I was so close to calling the crisis senter and telling them

to come get me and lock me up I was so afraid of myself yesterday it

is unreal I have never gone thru an episode like before in my life

and I was terrified.My Husband is an angel when he got home from

work he held me the rest of the night and I feel mental so much

better today. God I love that man.He is my knight in shining armour.

Hope no oneof you ever have to go thru anything like that it is

terifying and horrible. I would hate to thik of my friends having to

do that I love you ladies each and everyone of you HUGZZZ. Tina