Guest guest Posted February 16, 2004 Report Share Posted February 16, 2004 : I have not met you,but today there was so much sorrow,with Kim losing her dad and maeve her husband that I know just what you mean that you had to step away. I guess sometimes we have to go with the flow. We have been on an Avastin study for almost 2 years. They had us stay but the last two chemo's were for Oxy,5FU+Lv and no Avastin because he had protein in his urine. they did a blood panel.we get results tomorrow (billirubin and creatinin were high,CBC was Ok but red blood cells down) he has a lot of fatigue and his legs caved in today so we had to sit. You have to believe things will get better,and have faith in your onc and it helps if you have faith in God. hugs and prayers Nick & Jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 18, 2004 Report Share Posted February 18, 2004 Thank you for sharing your experience. I come to this site because I know that people here know what I am going through. My friends and others don't really know. I don't share much with them for many reasons. And, I keep my chin up and remain positive around my husband, friends and coworkers. But as many of you know there are weeks, days and hours that can really drain you of your energy and rob you of your happiness. My husband and I cherish each day together, but the reality of this disease is always there to haunt me. It is what it is. My husband has an incredibile amount of stamina and courage. He amazes me every day. I couldn't ask for more of him. Today he did not get chemo (again) as planned. The bilirubin is up, his liver is swollen, red blood cell count is low and the onc. says she will put him on the new drug as soon as she gets it. I can't believe you are going through this yourself after going through it with your husband. I understand completely what you say about putting your life on hold. I have felt that way so many times waiting for my husband's results. I hope you get good results and you can turn life back on again. Enjoy every day the best you can. > I have been in counseling for the past five years since my husband passed away. The only thing I am thankful for is he went fast and did not have to do the cancer ride. I was down to seeing the counselor every six months but now back to more often since I was diagnosed with cancer last May. The one thing he has taught me is to take one day at a time and some days a hour at a time. That is the only way I have made it half sane this long. > I also found a saying I like and repeat to myself often. " If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it " This I really believe because I have been given the strength to do and accept many things I thought I never could. > I am still sitting here waiting for Dr to call with my PET scan results from last Wed. I feel life is on hold till I hear from him. > > Hildreth > & Update on Husband > > > I am losing hope. I see that things are gradually getting worse. I > have sought the help of a psychologist and I just try to get through > each week the best way that I can. > > My thoughts are with all of you. By the way, I discoved the many > links of helpful information posted by . Just one of the many > ways that all of his good work will continue to help us. > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 18, 2004 Report Share Posted February 18, 2004 Thank you for the wonderful words of support and understanding. Others do not understand such as people I work with and it really makes me angry and confused. We will fight this until the end. And collectively, I hope that we can somehow change the outcome for others in the future. > > All, > > > > I just learned of 's passing as I joined the group after being > > away for many months. My computer crashed last Sep/Oct, I then > > learned I was a victim of identiy theft, lost another family > member, > > etc. So I recently got the computer working again and decided to > > check out how the group was doing. I was very saddenned to learn > > about ; I had to step away for a couple of days. > > > > and I had a couple of exchanges about radiation therapy, > which > > my husband did not qualify for. He has been continuing the chemo > > therapy and was expecting to go into a new clinical trial with > > Avastin and Erbitux last month. However, after all tests, his > > bilirubin was too high and he did not qualify. He is now on what > > the nurses call " full fury " , i.e. CTP-11, Oxaliplatin, and 5FU. > The > > doctor realized he had not been on all 3 at once and that the CPT- > 11 > > had not been proven to fail. The tumors have been progressing > > according to the CT scans, the CEA is up and this past week we > > discovered that his blood sugar was dangerously high. It was up in > > the 600's. We spent two nights at the emergency room, he was > > finally admitted and now he is on insulin. It was a very > exhausting > > week. > > > > The high blood sugar is said to have been triggered by the > Decadron - > > - the only thing in two years that has worked for the nausea and > > fatique following chemo. It's the only thing that got us through > > the holidays. Due to the hospital visit, he did not get his second > > chemo this year. The plan was to get another scan after the second > > chemo (after a month of full fury) and then try for the clinical > > trial again. > > > > I am losing hope. I see that things are gradually getting worse. > I > > have sought the help of a psychologist and I just try to get > through > > each week the best way that I can. > > > > My thoughts are with all of you. By the way, I discoved the many > > links of helpful information posted by . Just one of the many > > ways that all of his good work will continue to help us. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 18, 2004 Report Share Posted February 18, 2004 Nick and Jane, I feel such an incredible amount of sorrow for everyone here, for Kim for Maeve. This is so tough. I hope you get good results with Avastin. My husband was not able to get chemo today... blood numbers not good. He hopes to get Erbitux. I hope that's right. Onc says she will start him on it as soon as she gets it. I am very thankful for the new drugs. Every time we think there is nothing else to try something comes available. > : I have not met you,but today there was so much sorrow,with Kim losing > her dad and maeve her husband that I know just what you mean that you had to > step away. I guess sometimes we have to go with the flow. We have been on an > Avastin study for almost 2 years. They had us stay but the last two chemo's > were > for Oxy,5FU+Lv and no Avastin because he had protein in his urine. they did a > blood panel.we get results tomorrow (billirubin and creatinin were high,CBC > was Ok but red blood cells down) he has a lot of fatigue and his legs caved in > today so we had to sit. > You have to believe things will get better,and have faith in your onc and it > helps if you > have faith in God. hugs and prayers Nick & Jane > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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