Guest guest Posted February 16, 2004 Report Share Posted February 16, 2004 I have been in counseling for the past five years since my husband passed away. The only thing I am thankful for is he went fast and did not have to do the cancer ride. I was down to seeing the counselor every six months but now back to more often since I was diagnosed with cancer last May. The one thing he has taught me is to take one day at a time and some days a hour at a time. That is the only way I have made it half sane this long. I also found a saying I like and repeat to myself often. " If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it " This I really believe because I have been given the strength to do and accept many things I thought I never could. I am still sitting here waiting for Dr to call with my PET scan results from last Wed. I feel life is on hold till I hear from him. Hildreth & Update on Husband I am losing hope. I see that things are gradually getting worse. I have sought the help of a psychologist and I just try to get through each week the best way that I can. My thoughts are with all of you. By the way, I discoved the many links of helpful information posted by . Just one of the many ways that all of his good work will continue to help us. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 16, 2004 Report Share Posted February 16, 2004 Hi and welcome back. Sorry to hear about all the things that you have been going through...it seems like sometimes when it rains, it really does pour or all good and bad things come in threes (LOL). Please don't loose hope...hold on to that precious gift that God has given us even if everything does seem hopeless. Once you give up hope, your husband will to and then it's a downward spiral from there. By retaining hope, I strongly believe that although cancer may win a battle, ultimately we will all, those with us and those gone, win the war. Hang in there dear and come here as often as you can to post. It really does, as I'm sure you know, do wonders. Fondly, Monika > All, > > I just learned of 's passing as I joined the group after being > away for many months. My computer crashed last Sep/Oct, I then > learned I was a victim of identiy theft, lost another family member, > etc. So I recently got the computer working again and decided to > check out how the group was doing. I was very saddenned to learn > about ; I had to step away for a couple of days. > > and I had a couple of exchanges about radiation therapy, which > my husband did not qualify for. He has been continuing the chemo > therapy and was expecting to go into a new clinical trial with > Avastin and Erbitux last month. However, after all tests, his > bilirubin was too high and he did not qualify. He is now on what > the nurses call " full fury " , i.e. CTP-11, Oxaliplatin, and 5FU. The > doctor realized he had not been on all 3 at once and that the CPT- 11 > had not been proven to fail. The tumors have been progressing > according to the CT scans, the CEA is up and this past week we > discovered that his blood sugar was dangerously high. It was up in > the 600's. We spent two nights at the emergency room, he was > finally admitted and now he is on insulin. It was a very exhausting > week. > > The high blood sugar is said to have been triggered by the Decadron - > - the only thing in two years that has worked for the nausea and > fatique following chemo. It's the only thing that got us through > the holidays. Due to the hospital visit, he did not get his second > chemo this year. The plan was to get another scan after the second > chemo (after a month of full fury) and then try for the clinical > trial again. > > I am losing hope. I see that things are gradually getting worse. I > have sought the help of a psychologist and I just try to get through > each week the best way that I can. > > My thoughts are with all of you. By the way, I discoved the many > links of helpful information posted by . Just one of the many > ways that all of his good work will continue to help us. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 16, 2004 Report Share Posted February 16, 2004 Hi and welcome back. Sorry to hear about all the things that you have been going through...it seems like sometimes when it rains, it really does pour or all good and bad things come in threes (LOL). Please don't loose hope...hold on to that precious gift that God has given us even if everything does seem hopeless. Once you give up hope, your husband will to and then it's a downward spiral from there. By retaining hope, I strongly believe that although cancer may win a battle, ultimately we will all, those with us and those gone, win the war. Hang in there dear and come here as often as you can to post. It really does, as I'm sure you know, do wonders. Fondly, Monika > All, > > I just learned of 's passing as I joined the group after being > away for many months. My computer crashed last Sep/Oct, I then > learned I was a victim of identiy theft, lost another family member, > etc. So I recently got the computer working again and decided to > check out how the group was doing. I was very saddenned to learn > about ; I had to step away for a couple of days. > > and I had a couple of exchanges about radiation therapy, which > my husband did not qualify for. He has been continuing the chemo > therapy and was expecting to go into a new clinical trial with > Avastin and Erbitux last month. However, after all tests, his > bilirubin was too high and he did not qualify. He is now on what > the nurses call " full fury " , i.e. CTP-11, Oxaliplatin, and 5FU. The > doctor realized he had not been on all 3 at once and that the CPT- 11 > had not been proven to fail. The tumors have been progressing > according to the CT scans, the CEA is up and this past week we > discovered that his blood sugar was dangerously high. It was up in > the 600's. We spent two nights at the emergency room, he was > finally admitted and now he is on insulin. It was a very exhausting > week. > > The high blood sugar is said to have been triggered by the Decadron - > - the only thing in two years that has worked for the nausea and > fatique following chemo. It's the only thing that got us through > the holidays. Due to the hospital visit, he did not get his second > chemo this year. The plan was to get another scan after the second > chemo (after a month of full fury) and then try for the clinical > trial again. > > I am losing hope. I see that things are gradually getting worse. I > have sought the help of a psychologist and I just try to get through > each week the best way that I can. > > My thoughts are with all of you. By the way, I discoved the many > links of helpful information posted by . Just one of the many > ways that all of his good work will continue to help us. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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